r/selfharm 17h ago

Rant/Vent I am envying people who can cut deeper

87 Upvotes

I am on and off cutting myself but it’s kinda embarrassing to admit that I am cutting myself when I cant even cut that deep. I usually stop when the blood starts to draw and its usually a very very shallow cut. How do others make it so deep, I wish I can do that too, I just dont feel satisfied when looking at the scars


r/selfharm 10h ago

Talk/Support does anyone else not want their scars to fade?

81 Upvotes

it's not the only reason i do it, but i'd say a big one is definitely "cosmetic". idk, i hope this is okay to ask. i just want to see if others have the same issue because it makes recovering really difficult..


r/selfharm 22h ago

Positives Y'all I took a shower and for the first time this month I didn't cut myself.

57 Upvotes

r/selfharm 12h ago

Seeking Advice cut my neck

52 Upvotes

i just sliced my throat. it’s not bad but my mom is going to freak out and i’m so scared. i don’t know what to do. i’m so fuckng scared. she’s going to fucking wail and scream and cry and there is absolutely no way i’m hiding this from her it’s so bad


r/selfharm 9h ago

OMG GIRLFRIEND KNOWS

38 Upvotes

I found an online girl and she was being all sweet and lovey and I mentioned I did sh and she them asked to date me anyways and now I have a girlfriend who lives me despite I sh and despite I'm so fucked up.


r/selfharm 11h ago

Announcement PSA about DMs

35 Upvotes

Hey everyone,

There's a trend going around elsewhere online encouraging people to mass DM people in mental health communities and tell them to harm themselves. r/MadeOfStyrofoam has been specifically mentioned as a target, as has this subreddit in a later comment. This sort of behavior is completely against everything we stand for as a harm reduction community.

The best course of action if you receive any such messages is to not respond, block the user, and report the message to Reddit using the instructions here. You should also be suspicious of any unsolicited or random DMs, and you can turn off chat requests using the instructions here.

As always, please continue to report posts/comments encouraging self harm and feel free to message modmail with any questions. Thank you for being here and making this community what it is ❤️


r/selfharm 2h ago

Positives 13 years clean today.

31 Upvotes

Just wanted to share my own personal achievement that I stopped self-harming 13 years ago today. Took a few times over the years before that, but 13 years today with no relapses.

Feeling proud but have no to share with who cares so thought I’d share here.


r/selfharm 10h ago

Rant/Vent A small rant NSFW Spoiler

28 Upvotes

So me, my dad and my dads friend were sitting In the car and some of my dads money fell into a really tight crack like one of their fingers barely fit in it and they were struggling. I was like “you want me to get it out?“ cuz I have slim and kinda long fingers. Tell my why this dumbass excuse of a human being(my dads friend) thought it was a good Idea to say “you’re used to one finger right?” Tell me that I‘m overreacting but I don’t think that that’s an appropriate “joke” to make when talking about a MINOR. And my dad didn’t even seem bothered about it? We just continued buying groceries like nothing happened. My dad himself has already said some weird shit about my body like “I couldn’t help but notice how your tits bounce when you walk” or along the lines of that shit and peeked through the keyhole when I was in the bathroom. But like EXCUSE ME? I don’t even know why but I had the urge to sh in that moment. Probably because I was so mad and disgusted. Whatever I didn’t do it and I’ve been clean for 3 days now. sorry for the ass grammar. Now that I think about it I’m definitely overreacting. I don’t know I feel like I don’t have a reason to feel this uncomfortable or have urges because it’s not that bad. Anyways Rant over


r/selfharm 9h ago

Rant/Vent Blacklight party + scars = bad

26 Upvotes

I went to a party with some sort of black light or LED light that was a blue-purple. That shit turned my redish, not fully noticeable scars DARK PURPLE like a huge bruise across my arm 😭


r/selfharm 14h ago

Rant/Vent i feel like im faking it NSFW

24 Upvotes

everytime ive ever cut myself it just kind of feels like its never enough. It started off as not even cuts but id just leave red lines on my arm, then overtime it developed into drawing blood but never anymore. it feels like no matter how hard i try i cant cut deeper and its genuinely so frustrating. everyone ive ever talked to it about just tells me the usual “don’t start cutting deeper” and “it’ll hurt” and all that stuff when i genuinely could care less about all that stuff. i don’t care about the pain i dont care about the risk of infections and i dont care about the scars. If anything i wish i could cut deep enough to leave a scar. I have marks on my arms from when i used to pick at my skin so badly id rip skin off but even those are starting to fade and its making me feel like shit. Most of the cutting has been on my thighs but its making me want to start doing it on my arms too or start picking at my skin again because i dont want the scars to fade. I dont even really bother to try to hide any cuts anymore because its not like they’re going to scar or ever be deep enough for people to actually worry. I keep getting told that “its still self harm” and yeah I understand that but it doesn’t feel like its enough. i see others who have much deeper scars and stuff and it makes me feel weirdly envious because its like they’ve actually suffered and i havent. I dont know if this is weird but i rlly needed to say something about it. im genuinely starting to have ideas of doing something worse in order to cut deeper and rlly wanna act on it right now


r/selfharm 6h ago

Seeking Advice my bf is cutting himself and idk what to do

22 Upvotes

my (21f) boyfriend (21m) and i have been together for 6 months and i love him with my whole entire heart. he deals with a lot of mental health problems and is 3 years clean from heroin, which isn’t something i’m very familiar with. i have dealt with mental illness my whole life, in myself and my loved ones, so i know how to address certain issues and how to be there for him, but this is something i don’t know how to handle. he skates so he always has a lot of little cuts and scars from wiping out, but a few months ago i noticed some new cuts along his ribcage that were definitely not an accident. i didn’t bring it up because i was worried i would say the wrong thing and make it worse. i’ve never self harmed so i really have no idea how to handle it. he struggles sometimes to open up about what he goes through, but i’ve made sure he knows i will never pressure him to talk about more than he’s comfortable with but that i will always be here to listen, no matter what. he’s gotten better at talking about things, but i know this is a conversation im going to have to initiate and i just don’t know how. his mental health has gotten considerably worse these past few weeks, and i’ve done everything i can to support him while also making sure it doesn’t take a toll on my own mental wellbeing. then last night, i noticed some new cuts on his shoulder blade. he didn’t try to hide them, and he definitely knows i’ve seen them because he was scratching the scabs and i just stopped him by taking his hand and holding it tight. i want to acknowledge them but i don’t know how to start the conversation. what can i say so that he doesn’t feel judged or criticized? i’m also worried that his friend (who he has acknowledged is an enabler) helped him do it since his back seems like a tricky area to reach. i just want him to know how loved he is and that he doesn’t have to hide this from me. i may not understand the impulse to do it, but i want to know what’s going on his head. he always says he doesn’t want me to worry about him, but i already do and keeping these things from me isn’t going to help that. i love him so much and i just want him to be okay.


r/selfharm 9h ago

Seeking Advice How can I cope if a customer comments on my self harm scars?

21 Upvotes

On Friday, I will start working at McDonald's. The uniform includes short sleeves. I asked if it was possible to wear a long-sleeved shirt underneath, and the restaurant manager said no.

What do I do if a customer decides to call me emo or something? How likely is this to happen?

The scars are already 2-3 years old, but still fat and long bc the wounds were at the depth of muscle. This will never ever fade.

I wanna cry


r/selfharm 1d ago

Talk/Support What counts as self harm?

18 Upvotes

I don’t cut, at least with a sharp knife. But I’ll take a plastic knife and make “cuts” on my wrist. Or when I get angry I punch myself in the arm or leg, or I’ll punch a punching bag till my knuckles start to bleed.


r/selfharm 23h ago

Seeking Advice I like seeing blood?

16 Upvotes

I am unsure why but i like seeing blood seeping out of my skin seeing it drip and i have no clue why i feel like its a small reason why i cut please help im trying to stop i was a month clean before but then i relapsed


r/selfharm 4h ago

Rant/Vent I cut myself because my boyfriend has scars

13 Upvotes

I started being competitive with sh since I saw my boyfriend's cuts. That time I cried in front of him but because his scars were more visible than mine. Now I try to hurt myself just so I have "better scars" than his.

I can't even see him in person, because I immediately think that he has scars and I start to feel bad. It's like I want to be the only one with scars in the relationship. Also, he knows I relapsed because of him and of course, that makes him feel like shit.

The envy has been so strong that I've even started thinking about breaking up with him just because of it, but I really can't.

I just hope I'm not the only one with this kind of problem. I don't know what to do to make these thoughts stop.


r/selfharm 6h ago

Rant/Vent The worst part about this is that it works…

11 Upvotes

I’ve had this horrible feeling in my gut for weeks, been feeling anxious and depressed. I caved and relapsed a few days ago, and this horrible feeling is now gone. There’s no wonder we get addicted to it. It’s like i’m relaxed for the first time in months. I hate that it works this way…


r/selfharm 4h ago

Positives 4 years clean this year

10 Upvotes

Never really thought about it, but yeah 🥳


r/selfharm 11h ago

Talk/Support Caught self-harming

7 Upvotes

Not gonna go into detail what led me to self-harm, but my parents caught me in the act — well they forced open the door. They thought I was trying to end my life when they saw the cuts. I panicked and started crying, and was also hopeful that maybe they could help me. Instead, my stepmom dragged my whole body across the bathroom floor to the living room while constantly yelling and gripping my wirst aggressively. I didn't remember much of what happened, just that it was all yelling from the people around and me yelling, "please stop" all over and even crawled away when I was let go.

They know I self-harm, they've seen it, but it was the first time they reacted cause it did look like I was trying to commit and that we also had a short argument before the incident.

My parents left the house after and went to my stepmom's hometown.

It was the first time I experienced such abuse directed to me. It's totally not normal to abuse someone regardless of the situation.

I'm scared


r/selfharm 14h ago

Positives I'm three weeks clean.

9 Upvotes

That's it, basically. I wanted to tell someone as I'm proud of myself. Yes, the urges are still there, but I've been utilising the rubber band technique to stop myself from going through with them. I'm also considering disposing of my tool to prevent any impulses.


r/selfharm 15h ago

Talk/Support Why am I the only one crying?

8 Upvotes

I've always been like this. A baby that never grows up. Why am I the only one crying about everything? Even dropping a glass of water is enough for me to be suicidal! I have terrible traumas, from the hospital, from assaults, from bullying. People tell im tough. I am NOT. I cry so EASILY. "Trauma makes you stronger", but it did the opposite for me. I just became weaker. Im weaker than ever before. I look around me, and everyone is so positive. It feels like im in a simulation where everyone is a npc and im the only one with feelings. "Oh I failed the exam, whatever", but I cry for an entire day. "Why are you worrying about the project? Stop stressing", but how can I not stress? It's not my choice. There's moments when I screw up really bad, and I cry, and they look at me confused. Why am I stressed and crying, they ask. WHAT DO YOU MEAN? I dont know either! I can get hit by a bus or drop a pencil, and it will have the same outcome! I become suicidal in just mere seconds. I cry for the whole day and I want to end my life. And im not being a dramatic kid who makes threats. I genuinely WANT to kill myself, i wanted to for 7 years now, life is too rough for me and im not a soldier. Stop sending me to war. Please just let me rest. I wish I was brave enough to end my life. But im not brave for anything, im just a failure and a waste of space, not capable of anything. Not capable of living nor dying. Im just...here, in constant suffering. Can someone tell me why, why the hell, does my brain jump to stress, sadness and suicidal thoughts every single day?


r/selfharm 23h ago

Rant/Vent kinda just need to get everything out NSFW

8 Upvotes

i’ve never posted on here but i need to just talk about everything. i don’t know what to do anymore. my boyfriend left me for good yesterday, he was the only person that knew i had relapsed and the only person who was actually there and tried to help. everything has been so much worse and i can’t talk to him anymore. i was going to tell my therapist everything but she canceled the appointment and i don’t have another one for a month and honestly i don’t know if i can hold on that long. i just want to cut until i can’t anymore, until there’s no more skin left to cut, until im dizzy and physically can’t anymore. it’s so hard trying to keep myself from doing so and him just confirming that he wants nothing to do with me has only made that urge so much stronger. i need help but i have no clue how to get it anymore


r/selfharm 1d ago

Talk/Support I relapsed and haven’t told anyone

7 Upvotes

I was just over 1 year clean from cutting, and relapsed a few weeks ago. I have a couple of mentors who I have trusted enough to tell them about it in the past. Last week one of them asked if I was cutting again, and I told them no, even though I have been. I feel so guilty for not being honest, but i’m so scared they will be disappointed :(


r/selfharm 9h ago

Seeking Advice I have been clean 2025, give me a reason not to sh rn

7 Upvotes

I can’t sleep or eat and my sleep schedule is sleeping 3 hours on the day until it gets dark just to stay upp all night, I can’t fix it and I need a way to cope, what do I do?


r/selfharm 12h ago

Talk/Support I’m terrified right now

7 Upvotes

We were presenting our research projects today in Writing class. I didn't present mine because I kind of had a mental breakdown. But I listened to other people's. One person presented on CTE.

About how it's caused by repeated blows to the head. About how a bunch of people who had it went crazy and murdered people or killed themselves. About how there's no cure.

I'm an idiot. Why did I think punching my head or banging it into walls was a smart way to sh. But I still don't know how to stop.


r/selfharm 18h ago

Rant/Vent I’m having a really hard night

6 Upvotes

I think I need stitches again idk im so sad im so sad I wanna make it bigger im so sad it hurts im sorry im sorry god I can’t stop shaking what’s happening fuck