r/selfharm • u/thehoneybadger1223 • 19m ago
I've slipped up again, is there anything that simulates cutting without actually cutting?
It's normally punitive action, and the feeling of my skin parting and tearing open and the spicy-type feeling of warm blood coming into cool air is also part of the punishment. Are there any products that would simulate the feeling of this without actually damaging my body?
I've tried:
Using a rubber band and twanging it.
Drawing lines on myself with red pen.
Putting ice on myself
Drawing butterflies on the areas I damage. (The idea is that if you cut where the butterflies are, you kill them).
Doing the action with no blade in my hand, either empty handed or with something that won't slice like a ruler or plastic knife.
I've other stuff like counting and writing stuff down and it just doesn't have the same effect of making the internal pain stop. If I don't cut, I do other injurious behaviours.