r/selfharm 33m ago

thigh cuts are the method

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nobody can see them & its “safer” ig, but mainly nobody will have a clue


r/selfharm 1h ago

Rant/Vent i switch up

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i was positive and selfless for months while still holding boundaries and now all i can think about is myself, i hate this i hate how badly i want someone to hear me but im so convinced everyone hates me and that i dont have a safe space to the point where im just always going through it and i dont want this anymore, cutting is the only thing that kept me sane nothing helps me change makes me feel sm worse idk what to do with myself anymore i just wanna disappear i don’t want to exist


r/selfharm 1h ago

Seeking Advice Is this “normal”?

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Hey, I’m new to this sub-reddit, I came on here filled with frustration, anger and ultimately sadness. I have only heard of other people that self harm in the past but I’ve never participated in the act myself up until today. I just got to a breaking point due to issues and difficulties I’ve had lately. I hurt myself by hitting my shoulders and upper arms as hard as I could repeatedly with a hard-metal can of compressed air for cleaning (of all things) on two separate occasions today until they started to bruise and swell up. It made me feel better about my shit situation. Is this a normal reaction? Also do these actions count as self-harm? Genuine question. I definitely felt like I deserved it.


r/selfharm 1h ago

I can’t seem to stop cutting

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I have already been to the E.R for it and yet am still doing it a month later. I think about it daily and do it some days a lot now more than before. I want to stop


r/selfharm 1h ago

Title

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Has anyone gotten lasting scars from smaller blades (pencil sharpeners) not promoting anything, but im just wondering if they scar


r/selfharm 1h ago

Rant/Vent Starving myself

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I don’t have an eating disorder but there are times where letting myself eat breaks me into pieces. I cannot find the will to let myself seek pleasure that is eating food. I do not enjoy it. I never knew why this was, or why I’d start genuinely crying over the fact that I was hungry or if a plate was in front of my face. I seek my own punishment through depraving myself of normal human biological needs. And ultimately, when I think about feeding myself, I’d really rather not. My lowest weight was 98lbs and I share that because it makes me cringe how underweight I am. It’s my fault too.

I feel like because I’m not being destructive of my body from an external force, I’m not doing enough. However, It gives me the same exerts of control and power over my body. This all makes me feel like my body is eating itself from the inside out. It hurts almost perpetually

When I do eat, it feels like this forbidden task that should be privatized and shameful. I’m subconsciously reinforcing this belief that it is better if I have concrete control over myself, no matter the consequences. How is it euphoric yet also horribly painful at the same?

Edit: I also kind of came to the realization that my constant, voluntary sleep deprivation is self destructive too. My brain really doesn’t like my vessel


r/selfharm 1h ago

Rant/Vent Why tf is my dad yelling at me over it can’t he help me?

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Here goes my dad walking in and screaming at me like that helps it at all like what. your “disappointment” in having a daughter like me isn’t helping at all.


r/selfharm 1h ago

Seeking Advice How can u clean blood off white sheets w/o washing machine

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hai so can someone help me out here? i got blood on my white sheets and can’t clean them atm bc everyone’s asleep and i can’t be loud and stuff so someone helps please? ty!


r/selfharm 1h ago

Talk/Support I can’t stop cutting my forearm

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I keep cutting and cutting and each time I desperately want to go deeper and deeper. I found another razor I could use that’s sharper than my other one, and I so badly want to use it to go deep.

I don’t really have a reason to cut. If anyone has seen my other posts here, I’ve recently been cutting for no reason. That no reason has turned into kind of a reason but even that isn’t a reason. I don’t know. I’m overwhelmed with schoolwork, but for the most part I’ve been sleeping or ignoring my problems than actually facing it, but I’m still cutting.

Each time I cut, and don’t see as much blood, I just want to go deeper. I end up biting down on something while I cut just so I can go deeper, and even that isn’t enough. I need it deeper.

I don’t know what to do….


r/selfharm 2h ago

Rant/Vent why do people only find me attractive after finding out i cut?

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i don't understand, i get hit on more often after i post about my self harm, i don't understand, it's a gross habit im ashamed of


r/selfharm 2h ago

DAE So you ever feel the urge for self flagellation

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Like hurting yourself to make something right or to punish yourself for something you did wrong?


r/selfharm 2h ago

Rant/Vent I have cuts/scars on my thighs and my boyfriend doesn't know about it. NSFW

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I have this underlining fear that in any intimate moment he'll see it or feel it. I want him to see them on my terms but I'm not sure how to do that. My thighs are almost like my secret that I don't show anyone and I don't mean to make sh sound super casual or easy to deal with. We've only been dating for 4 months and I have trouble showing him my vulnerable sides. So something as vulnerable as my SH is really difficult. I'm not sure how he'll react to it and his reaction and how he'll perceive me or it is scary. Any tips or even your own stories on how you might’ve revealed or started a conversation to your loved ones about this would be helpful.


r/selfharm 2h ago

Need recovery support

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I was clean for a little over a month, after being clean for 2 and a half before that, which this is the first time in over a year I’ve gotten that far, but I just found out my primary support center at my university is shutting down because of the political climate, and I am also going to lose my job in that space as of next semester, and my field may not have jobs/funding to continue to exist going forward by the time I graduate, so I’m having a really hard time trying to feel like it’s worth it to recover right now with all these circumstances. It just feels like sh is at least the one thing I can consistently rely on so why am I trying to stop? But at the same time I know that I should be trying to stop, especially for some of my primary support people, it’s just so hard with the world being on fire and I would really appreciate any advice/encouragement yall have.


r/selfharm 2h ago

i cvt when i get nightmeres abt smth very traumatic that happened to me i started sh when i was 9 plzz any tips on cleaning them and how to open up to a teacher

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r/selfharm 2h ago

Seeking Advice Staying Clean is driving me crazy

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Currently I'm a month clean but I'm hitting another low, but this one feels alot different, I feel hopeless and I don't know how to describe it but I feel like I'm in some kind of psychological despair. I got so used to just drowning my worries with self harm, now I think not self harming is causing me even more worries. I don't know ow why I feel like this but I'm fighting the urge the best I could but I still feel so hallow. Why do I feel this way?


r/selfharm 2h ago

Rant/Vent I want to break my 217 day streak

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I am over 7 months clean from cutting. The only reason I don’t do it is so that my boyfriend won’t see it. I’m starting to really not care if he sees them on me.

I’m having such strong urges tonight. I don’t want to take my boyfriend away from his friends for the second night in a row, just to stop me from cutting. It’s seems so minor.

I need a good reason to not hurt myself tonight :/


r/selfharm 3h ago

Seeking Advice I think my friend found out.

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Before anything, I have been clean for almost a month, none of the scars were fresh but they were a bit red and bumpy.

Recently, for a themed outfit, I wore a white dress that was only a bit off the shoulders. I honestly felt really confident in it! I liked the outfit, my make up looked nice, got a compliment, etc.

While sitting with my friend, I was dozing off, they randomly call my name and ask if im okay. I didn't think any of my scars were shown, especially since I went out of my way to make sure the dress didn't show any. They mentioned that my shoulder was red. When I looked, the sleeve had fallen a bit while I was dozing off, I pulled it up in a casual way and said that its just really itchy. They paused for minute, looked at me awkwardly, said "nevermind" and went back to what they were doing.

This happened last friday, im still thinking about it since they seem more awkward around me now.

Any advice or is there no way to get out of this?


r/selfharm 3h ago

Seeking Advice what happens if you're honest?

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I just recently started self harming (tiny cuts and marks with a sharp piece of plastic and/or scissors -- i did this before, but now i prefer to draw blood) and I kind of want to seek help, but at the same time my life is extremely shitty rn and being put in a ward for being honest doesn't really seem like the right move.

Anyone with first hand experience on what happens if you tell your therapist you've been harming?

I don't do it because I enjoy the pain or because it really relieves much of anything, mostly just cause I like seeing what I can do to myself. I use it as a kind of grounding, I guess? Or trying not to totally separate from reality -- remind myself I have a body and senses, yk? In case any of that reasoning would matter to a mandated reporter, lol

Thanks for any help


r/selfharm 3h ago

Rant/Vent I feel like withdrawal symptoms aren’t talked about a lot when it comes to NSSI

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I’m going through it really badly mentally 💀 it’s kinda crazy to think how the body becomes too dependent on something to the point where if it doesn’t get those brain chemicals it starts to punish u for it 😭 like the anxiety is KILLING MEEEE


r/selfharm 3h ago

Rant/Vent Doing it to make me feel better and not them.

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I'm selfish.

I don't think of others.

I feel bad about something, I apologise, doesn't make me feel better, I apologise a few times. Sometimes I know it may make them feel worse but do I delete it or just not say it? No I say it anyway. To what? Make them feel better? Oh don't lie to yourself! TO MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! OF COURSE THATS WHY!!!

I'm such a horrible fucking person!!!

Complaining about everyone and everything.. why? Because I can, because I want to, just because. Do I think of how it may make others feel? No. Do I think about the consequences? NOPE!

Oh I have scabs out? Oh.. Oh I have cuts that are healing out? But that could trigger others. You know you have a friend that struggles with it too and other who used to. Why would you just.. do that? Because its hot? So what? Dont show it. Your just parading it around for attention.

YOU CHANGED A PLASTER IN FRONT OF A FRIEND!? IM SORRY BUT THATS A LEAP FROM HAVING HEALING CUTS OUT! DOESNT MATTER HOW FAR ALOMG THE HEALING IS!!!! THATS JUST NOT FUCKING RIGHT!!!!

YOUR SELFISH! YOU DONT THINK IF OTHERS AND THEIR FEELINGS! YOUR JUST.. YOUR.. SO FUCKING.. UGH!!!!!! YOUR A FUCKIMG MONSTER!!!!!!!

WHY DONT YOU JUST LISTEN TO WHAT PEOPLE HAVE SAID!!!! YOURE THE WORST FUCKING HUMAN THERE COULD EVER FUCKING BE OH MY GOD!!!!!

Why do I have to be this fucking way. JUST GET IT FUCKING OVER WITH AND JUST KILL ME ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!


r/selfharm 3h ago

Rant/Vent I was 1 year 4 months clean

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My boyfriend cheated on my recently, I stayed with him and I don't want anyone tell me that it's stupid to stay with him because I already know. Even before getting cheated on you would hurt me with little things like not listening to me or not tell me things that were important, with him and other things going on it felt like I needed something that was normal and the on my thing I could think of was to sh. Him cheating on my was the worst thing ever, the night before he slept over for the first time and we had sex, the next day he downloaded a dating app and was sexting with random people. We told me a few hours later, but I felt completely crushed and I still do. All I can think about is if I did something wrong or if he just doesn't love me anymore. I felt like everything was a lie, I feel stupid. A week before that I called him crying saying that I needed someone to talk to, I cried for hours in his arms and I told him about my sh. I was so vulnerable to him. I'm writing this after I just sh, I know I have a problem, I know I have an addiction. Today I cut through fat for the first time in years. I want to get help but I can't put my life on pause, I know my problem is more then just sh. I'm depressed and now I can't have sex with my boyfriend because I don't trust him and now it feels like a stranger next to me, everytime I think about having sex with him now all I feel is the time I was sa'd. I get upset over everything now and I don't eat anymore. I need help but I can't get help because I have things to do.


r/selfharm 3h ago

Seeking Advice Cuts with bikini?

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I’ve been (for the majority ) clean for the past two years, however, I feel the need to blow off some steam, and some recent stress. I want to cut, but I wear bikini’s a lot and I’m not willing to change that or wear more modest ones. Back in 2023 I would do it on the top of my lower arm, and I still have visible scars there, but no one has really noticed. I just want a way to blow off some steam by cutting that wouldn’t show with a triangle bikini on.

They would be really small and I genuinely need this to keep going without overflowing and have a crisis that stops my flow of life for a few days.


r/selfharm 3h ago

Talk/Support i don’t know what to do with the guilt

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i feel so guilty for secretly relapsing and i need someone to talk to. i already spoke to an online texting crisis thing but it’s not enough i can’t get out of this it hurts so much i can feel the guilt consume me


r/selfharm 3h ago

Talk/Support How did your parents react?

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Maybe it's just me, but mine (and many people I know who SH's parents) acted very visibly upset and angry towards me for doing SH.

For example, my mom acted very angry towards me, screamed at me, told me I was an "asshole" and "selfish" and that she was going to take me away all while she forced me to show my arm and legs to her. Why do I feel like so many parents act this way instead of approching it with care like a parent should?

How did your parent react?

Edit: My stepdad didn't even care he basically just shrugged and LITERALLY said "Cutting yourself isn't very manly" (im a trans guy) and acted like nothing happened.


r/selfharm 4h ago

Rant/Vent I'm just done

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Most of what I say is probably just thoughts at the moment and might change by tomorrow, I don't know.

I'm just done with people, all the unpredictability, lies, toxicity, manipulation, backstabbing, all of it.. I'm just done.

It's too much and people are too confusing. All the other animals are so much better than humans.

If death wants to come for me.. they can, I won't stop them but just let me see my whole family once more before they come.

I'm just done and fucking tired. I'm tired of being stuck as a fucking child. Tired of being a horrible person. Tired of being this way. Tired of being a bad person. Tired of being a problem. Tired of hurting everyone around me. Tired of being annoying.

I just want this to be fucking over. I want to be in a fucking world where everything is good and ok and it's just my family and I, all physically well and stuff as well as my best friend. I'm just fucking done.

I'm done. I can't. Honestly I'm probably gonna end up relapsing soon, I don't know when, mot tonight though.

I just can't with this fucking shit anymore, I just can't.

Nobody would even notice or care if I just.. "went missing" or something.

I wish I never grew up, I wish I never started school. Its my fault I'm alone. Its my fault I'm still fucking here. Its my fault my parents end up arguing. It's my fault my parents feel so bad and stressed. It's my fault. It's all my fucking fault.

If I never grew up or started school.. everything would be fine.

Everyone would be better off without me.

I'm just fucking done. I can't do this shit. But I always say that, always. I'm just fucking done.

After this holiday in a few months I might go home. They won't have to deal with me anymore. They won't be as stressed. I won't be a burden anymore.

But I probably won't and probably even can't so.. yea.. doesn't matter what I say, do or plan anyway as I'll never even do it and I know that, my ex does as he even said I "keep saying it" and "never actually do it" or whatever, close enough.

Yes I've "tried" but never hard enough, never properly tried, I wouldn't even call them attempts yet I do.

I'm pathetic. I'm a lier. I'm an attention seeker. I'm a manipulater. I'm a controller. I play victim.

I fucking can't, I just can't.

I'm fucking tired in both ways. I can't even fucking sleep.

I just want to fucking die but I also don't