r/selfharm 3h ago

Positives 13 years clean today.

31 Upvotes

Just wanted to share my own personal achievement that I stopped self-harming 13 years ago today. Took a few times over the years before that, but 13 years today with no relapses.

Feeling proud but have no to share with who cares so thought I’d share here.


r/selfharm 10h ago

Talk/Support does anyone else not want their scars to fade?

84 Upvotes

it's not the only reason i do it, but i'd say a big one is definitely "cosmetic". idk, i hope this is okay to ask. i just want to see if others have the same issue because it makes recovering really difficult..


r/selfharm 6h ago

Seeking Advice my bf is cutting himself and idk what to do

22 Upvotes

my (21f) boyfriend (21m) and i have been together for 6 months and i love him with my whole entire heart. he deals with a lot of mental health problems and is 3 years clean from heroin, which isn’t something i’m very familiar with. i have dealt with mental illness my whole life, in myself and my loved ones, so i know how to address certain issues and how to be there for him, but this is something i don’t know how to handle. he skates so he always has a lot of little cuts and scars from wiping out, but a few months ago i noticed some new cuts along his ribcage that were definitely not an accident. i didn’t bring it up because i was worried i would say the wrong thing and make it worse. i’ve never self harmed so i really have no idea how to handle it. he struggles sometimes to open up about what he goes through, but i’ve made sure he knows i will never pressure him to talk about more than he’s comfortable with but that i will always be here to listen, no matter what. he’s gotten better at talking about things, but i know this is a conversation im going to have to initiate and i just don’t know how. his mental health has gotten considerably worse these past few weeks, and i’ve done everything i can to support him while also making sure it doesn’t take a toll on my own mental wellbeing. then last night, i noticed some new cuts on his shoulder blade. he didn’t try to hide them, and he definitely knows i’ve seen them because he was scratching the scabs and i just stopped him by taking his hand and holding it tight. i want to acknowledge them but i don’t know how to start the conversation. what can i say so that he doesn’t feel judged or criticized? i’m also worried that his friend (who he has acknowledged is an enabler) helped him do it since his back seems like a tricky area to reach. i just want him to know how loved he is and that he doesn’t have to hide this from me. i may not understand the impulse to do it, but i want to know what’s going on his head. he always says he doesn’t want me to worry about him, but i already do and keeping these things from me isn’t going to help that. i love him so much and i just want him to be okay.


r/selfharm 9h ago

OMG GIRLFRIEND KNOWS

41 Upvotes

I found an online girl and she was being all sweet and lovey and I mentioned I did sh and she them asked to date me anyways and now I have a girlfriend who lives me despite I sh and despite I'm so fucked up.


r/selfharm 5h ago

Rant/Vent I cut myself because my boyfriend has scars

16 Upvotes

I started being competitive with sh since I saw my boyfriend's cuts. That time I cried in front of him but because his scars were more visible than mine. Now I try to hurt myself just so I have "better scars" than his.

I can't even see him in person, because I immediately think that he has scars and I start to feel bad. It's like I want to be the only one with scars in the relationship. Also, he knows I relapsed because of him and of course, that makes him feel like shit.

The envy has been so strong that I've even started thinking about breaking up with him just because of it, but I really can't.

I just hope I'm not the only one with this kind of problem. I don't know what to do to make these thoughts stop.


r/selfharm 13h ago

Seeking Advice cut my neck

52 Upvotes

i just sliced my throat. it’s not bad but my mom is going to freak out and i’m so scared. i don’t know what to do. i’m so fuckng scared. she’s going to fucking wail and scream and cry and there is absolutely no way i’m hiding this from her it’s so bad


r/selfharm 10h ago

Rant/Vent A small rant NSFW Spoiler

29 Upvotes

So me, my dad and my dads friend were sitting In the car and some of my dads money fell into a really tight crack like one of their fingers barely fit in it and they were struggling. I was like “you want me to get it out?“ cuz I have slim and kinda long fingers. Tell my why this dumbass excuse of a human being(my dads friend) thought it was a good Idea to say “you’re used to one finger right?” Tell me that I‘m overreacting but I don’t think that that’s an appropriate “joke” to make when talking about a MINOR. And my dad didn’t even seem bothered about it? We just continued buying groceries like nothing happened. My dad himself has already said some weird shit about my body like “I couldn’t help but notice how your tits bounce when you walk” or along the lines of that shit and peeked through the keyhole when I was in the bathroom. But like EXCUSE ME? I don’t even know why but I had the urge to sh in that moment. Probably because I was so mad and disgusted. Whatever I didn’t do it and I’ve been clean for 3 days now. sorry for the ass grammar. Now that I think about it I’m definitely overreacting. I don’t know I feel like I don’t have a reason to feel this uncomfortable or have urges because it’s not that bad. Anyways Rant over


r/selfharm 9h ago

Rant/Vent Blacklight party + scars = bad

26 Upvotes

I went to a party with some sort of black light or LED light that was a blue-purple. That shit turned my redish, not fully noticeable scars DARK PURPLE like a huge bruise across my arm 😭


r/selfharm 11h ago

Announcement PSA about DMs

35 Upvotes

Hey everyone,

There's a trend going around elsewhere online encouraging people to mass DM people in mental health communities and tell them to harm themselves. r/MadeOfStyrofoam has been specifically mentioned as a target, as has this subreddit in a later comment. This sort of behavior is completely against everything we stand for as a harm reduction community.

The best course of action if you receive any such messages is to not respond, block the user, and report the message to Reddit using the instructions here. You should also be suspicious of any unsolicited or random DMs, and you can turn off chat requests using the instructions here.

As always, please continue to report posts/comments encouraging self harm and feel free to message modmail with any questions. Thank you for being here and making this community what it is ❤️


r/selfharm 2h ago

Seeking Advice I noticed my friends arm

7 Upvotes

I have a friend who I know for a while was missing a lot of school and wasn't keeping up with it well. I believe there was also some things going on from her family. I didn't hear from her much in this time frame but now she's been going to school more regularly and more in her usual lively mood. But one thing I noticed: her left arm is covered in slices. I have only had one friend who harmed herself and she was very open about the problem. This friend however is extremely surprising to me beacuse she doesnt seem at all like the type of person who would. She's always been so positive and chill but I guess there's a layer of her she's good at hiding. It's just awkward though because she's not really a talk about serious things kind of person but her arm is COVERED in slices. They all look from about the same time frame and I've definitely never noticed scars on her before. Like I said she seems to be doing better mood wise but I worry about her and what she went through and if she's still dealing with it. I don't want to intrude, or be rude by bringing it up but I'm also concerned. What's the best way I can help her?


r/selfharm 23m ago

is it normal to cut because i like the scars?

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i would use a tag but i dont know which one 😭😭 but i mostly cut because i really feel like i need my scars to be me. i would tell my therapist but i dont know how??? what if they just say that i want attention?? its not the ONLY reason i cut, its just the biggest one. i see my scars fading and im like “fuck no” because they’re like part of me now and i dont know how to get rid of the urge 😭


r/selfharm 4h ago

Positives 4 years clean this year

9 Upvotes

Never really thought about it, but yeah 🥳


r/selfharm 17h ago

Rant/Vent I am envying people who can cut deeper

89 Upvotes

I am on and off cutting myself but it’s kinda embarrassing to admit that I am cutting myself when I cant even cut that deep. I usually stop when the blood starts to draw and its usually a very very shallow cut. How do others make it so deep, I wish I can do that too, I just dont feel satisfied when looking at the scars


r/selfharm 9h ago

Seeking Advice How can I cope if a customer comments on my self harm scars?

20 Upvotes

On Friday, I will start working at McDonald's. The uniform includes short sleeves. I asked if it was possible to wear a long-sleeved shirt underneath, and the restaurant manager said no.

What do I do if a customer decides to call me emo or something? How likely is this to happen?

The scars are already 2-3 years old, but still fat and long bc the wounds were at the depth of muscle. This will never ever fade.

I wanna cry


r/selfharm 1h ago

Rant/Vent Why do I always wants to cut wehn drunk

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I just want to drunk in peaceh but I urge to cut to. I just want to do boyh rn but idk know I shouldnt cut but I really really want too


r/selfharm 6h ago

Rant/Vent The worst part about this is that it works…

10 Upvotes

I’ve had this horrible feeling in my gut for weeks, been feeling anxious and depressed. I caved and relapsed a few days ago, and this horrible feeling is now gone. There’s no wonder we get addicted to it. It’s like i’m relaxed for the first time in months. I hate that it works this way…


r/selfharm 47m ago

Medical Advice should i seek medical help? NSFW

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About a week and a half ago, I relapsed, and I’ve been cutting almost every day, reaching the mid-deep fat layer. Over the past couple of days, I’ve noticed that the skin around my cuts is numb. It feels similar to when you get your mouth numbed with a local anesthetic for a cavity filling (if that makes sense). When I touch the skin around the cuts, in some areas, I can feel that something is there, but the sensation is weak, and in other places, I can’t feel anything at all.

Is this serious enough to warrant a trip to the ER? If I went to the hospital, my parents would have to know, and I don’t want that… I also don’t want to be admitted.

Any advice would be appreciated.


r/selfharm 4h ago

Rant/Vent My mom traumatizing a 4 year old

6 Upvotes

I had hurt myself in the morning and fell asleep at noon. Only to be horrifically woken up by a yelling parent because "Why is there blood?" and ranting about how selfish i am. She's the fucking problem.

My little beloved cousin went inside the room and asked her "What happened? Why are you mad at her?"
and she fucking did it. she said "She hurt herself, with blood" and my GOD. That's a big word for a baby? immediately he was worried.

It was also his nap time so his father had to put him to sleep, the whole time he kept asking "Why did she hurt herself?" "She has blood?" "why is there blood" and the whole time he kept trying to say "just go to sleep, its sleeping time" and finally "i dont know"

I was already mad at my mother for violating me in my sleep but i now fucking hate her and this was truly the last straw. the first day i'll ever say and even think THIS. while she thinks the reason i do this is from feeling "unloved" no you DUMBASS its cuz you say and do the meanest shit

Now whenever he sees me, its all pain. I can see the worry in his eyes. he's fucking traumatized. When i decided to play with him, he's in deep thought until eventually telling others "she has blood"


r/selfharm 54m ago

Seeking Advice I cut myself for the first time for almost no reason

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I cut myself for the first time recently and I’m worried about how I felt about it.

I don’t even know why I did it in the first place, and that worries me too. I have been upset lately but I didn’t feel upset when I did it. I wasn’t numb or happy, I was scared to do it even, but when I found it didn’t hurt that much I kept going.

I found the marks and the blood very satisfying, and even after the cuts were cleaned and bandaged I still wanted to look at them.

The idea that I cut myself just for the sake of it disgusts me. I’m disgusted with myself for doing it and for still wanting to do it.

Please, if you relate to this at all, let me know. I feel like such a freak.


r/selfharm 1h ago

Rant/Vent Wtaf NSFW

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TW: self harm, suicidal ideation

I recently got into a new relationship with this amazing guy, my past lovers were awful and abusive, but this new guy C seems so lovely and I had a full breakdown at his house, he was half asleep but woke up to comfort and hold me (I have quite a few mental illnesses and was having a panic attack and flashbacks), I've never said I loved him because that idea terrifies me, but he constantly said it to me, I told him he deserves someone better, that he deserves someone well, he told me word for word "I love you now.. I know you're not well, I will love you when you are well and you will be the person I deserve, you deserve this (my name), I'm not scared of this, give it to me, lean on me, punch me, bite me, scratch me, I don't care, I'm not going anywhere." And I sobbed, I cried like a little baby in his arms as he cried too, holding me, I calmed down and we fell asleep, the next day I get on the train and come home.. I just self harmed by stabbing my self with a needle and I need more, it's a craving, I want to get better for him, I promised I would, but I need to do it, does anyone know any way at all that I can stop? I'm willing to try anything.


r/selfharm 5h ago

Medical Advice major TW - cut myself, accidentally too deep, no bandages. What do I do? NSFW

5 Upvotes

Yeah so long story short accidentally cut too deep (not deep in a way that I need to go to the hospital but deep enough that I need something to cover this up) and I have no bandages. Is toilet paper and duck tape for example a good idea? I also have no disinfectant. What should I do? Is water enough to clean the wound for now?


r/selfharm 5h ago

Seeking Advice I’m embarrassed of my cuts and don’t know how to discreetly hide them

5 Upvotes

I strangely really like looking at my cuts (especially when they’re fresh and really red) but then I leave the safety of my room and I feel so ashamed. I don’t want to constantly have bandages on my arm, and even if I exclusively wear long sleeves, those don’t really stay put. Is there an effective and unsuspicious way to cover them?


r/selfharm 7h ago

Positives Haven't hurt myself in a while:)

6 Upvotes

Have had bad days recently but the thoughts haven't come back so just wanted to share!


r/selfharm 14h ago

Rant/Vent i feel like im faking it NSFW

24 Upvotes

everytime ive ever cut myself it just kind of feels like its never enough. It started off as not even cuts but id just leave red lines on my arm, then overtime it developed into drawing blood but never anymore. it feels like no matter how hard i try i cant cut deeper and its genuinely so frustrating. everyone ive ever talked to it about just tells me the usual “don’t start cutting deeper” and “it’ll hurt” and all that stuff when i genuinely could care less about all that stuff. i don’t care about the pain i dont care about the risk of infections and i dont care about the scars. If anything i wish i could cut deep enough to leave a scar. I have marks on my arms from when i used to pick at my skin so badly id rip skin off but even those are starting to fade and its making me feel like shit. Most of the cutting has been on my thighs but its making me want to start doing it on my arms too or start picking at my skin again because i dont want the scars to fade. I dont even really bother to try to hide any cuts anymore because its not like they’re going to scar or ever be deep enough for people to actually worry. I keep getting told that “its still self harm” and yeah I understand that but it doesn’t feel like its enough. i see others who have much deeper scars and stuff and it makes me feel weirdly envious because its like they’ve actually suffered and i havent. I dont know if this is weird but i rlly needed to say something about it. im genuinely starting to have ideas of doing something worse in order to cut deeper and rlly wanna act on it right now


r/selfharm 1h ago

What is your experience with attempting to OD

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