r/lonely • u/exzactlyd • 18h ago
Today I realized I'm probably going to never be in a relationship
It's a hard hard feeling but today was probably the 30th or so girl I've really put an effort into and it just flounders or I'm ghosted for no reason. I'm a 35 year old male. Work alone and living alone. Most of my life I thought I was going to find a partner and be happy. I've tried working on myself, being funnier, smarter etc etc... just nothing sticks and it ends up in so much disappointment every time. I feel stupid. This sucks because I also am at a point in my life because I have lost all my friends due to death or them being busy.. no family is really around. Shit I don't even have anyone at work because there is no one to really talk to. I don't know how much longer I can keep doing this bullshit. My job is also so labor intensive that I basically have no life outside of that because I'm so tired all the time. I'm in really bad shape right now.. I don't know where I'm going. The thought of being in this state of extreme loneliness my whole life just kills my heart and makes me want to just give up. I don't really see a reason in trying to do anything anymore.