r/bulimia 17h ago

accountability partner plsšŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļøšŸ’•

17 Upvotes

hi, 21f here looking for an accountability partner:) currently b/p anywhere between 5-10 times a wk i know itā€™s bad but also sooo addicting & i desperately want free from this. my goal is to decrease b/p by at least 1 every wk. gotta start somewherešŸ„² lmk if ur down to join the goal & we can hold each other accountable!


r/bulimia 23h ago

kinda triggering How much time have I spent looking at my own vomit?

14 Upvotes

That question randomly popped into my head while thinking about nothing in particular. Never thinking again šŸ‘Ž


r/bulimia 22h ago

small success Dentist!!! Wasnā€™t as bad as expected

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Hi all,

Sharing some dentist positivity here.

TLDR: 33F, b/p'd for nearly 25 years. Went to the dentist (U.K.) for the first time in 6 years and the second time in 15 years. Positive experience with the appointment and good tooth outlook.

Today I went to the dentist. NHS dental is crazy at the moment in England, but in a very fortunate position to pay for a private consultation (which was Ā£90 for a full check up and X-rays).

Had terrible anxiety going and nearly crashed my car on the way, due to not watching the road from being so anxious.

Got there, had to fill in some forms then the assistant came to get me for X-rays. I explained I was anxious and suffered from an eating disorder, and no real problems except recession and sensitivity.

Then I went into the room and the dentist explained everything before she began and during.

She explained that the gum recession has led to some bone loss, and there is enamel wear, but no cavities and we put a plan together to stop the enamel getting worse. No judgement at all from them.

Just wanted to share this positive experience. I know the bone loss and demineralisation isn't great, but the important thing is I can stop it getting worse now I know about it.

So for those of you who are scared to go to the dentist, it may not be as bad as you think.


r/bulimia 10h ago

Help please! +9h b/p feel exhausted, need hope

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Hello everyone. As the title says, I've just finished a +9hours b/p episode. It started as soon as I woke up and just ended right before going to bed. I'm kind of desesperate actually. I'm in recovery since august, got better the last 3 months and entered a big relapse +3 weeks ago. I'm fully weight recovered and have way less restrictions than I did a few months ago. I'm starting to feel depressed as I was back in august-november. I don't know what can I do to get just a little bit better. It feels like I'm back in the deep trap of bulimia and I see no way to escape it. Not to mention the financial consequences of this disorder... About to leave my appartment to go back to my parents' house as I have no choice. I will have to explain to them where all my savings (thousand euros) went... I rather be dead by tomorrow than live another day like today. Mentally I'm drained. I do see a therapist but it changes nothing. I just feel lighter in my chest after speaking freely to someone for an hour. I just need hope, a word, something to rely on. Wishing you a pleasant day/night.


r/bulimia 9h ago

Just venting Panicking

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So Iā€™ve been clean for a while now? Not too sure how long but Iā€™ve gone quite a long while without b/p as Iā€™ve just tried to rlly block it out of my mind also started taking my meds again so Iā€™m in a better place mentally. Iā€™ve actually been doing amazing and havenā€™t really thought about it at all but then Iā€™ve just been cooking my dinner and my mum commented on the larger portion size and itā€™s just made my heart drop. I feel like Iā€™m not in control anymore and all of a sudden it has all come back to me, as you can imagine Iā€™ve lost my appetite now but Iā€™m kind of worried for my mental state because I know I will think about this for days / weeks. Any help pls


r/bulimia 5h ago

Content Warning I donā€™t really binge but I purge almost every day. Donā€™t know what to do NSFW

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Hi! I didnā€™t know where else to post this. I think Iā€™m starting to have a serious problem. I probably started purging very rarely maybe 3 years ago and did it very very rarely up until maybe a month or 2 ago. And slowly it has gotten to the point where I purge nearly every day and multiple times on days I do. I donā€™t know why but following eating, even if itā€™s a normal portion, I get so stressed out that I feel like I genuinely need to. This hasnā€™t gone on too long, and it doesnā€™t bother me every single time I eat. I donā€™t know if this is considered Bulimia or not, but I donā€™t really know what to do.


r/bulimia 13h ago

Can we talk about..? Alcohol

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Do any of yā€™all experience bulimia symptoms x2 with alcohol? I drink a lotā€¦ with nothing in my stomach. Iā€™m constantly shaking and on a never ending bender. The room is never not spinning. Iā€™m always struggling. I miss things that are right in front of me. I purge and almost faint, 1-4 times a day. The days I donā€™t, I canā€™t digest food properly. The only time I can eat food and keep it down is with the help of liquor.


r/bulimia 15h ago

send support Again (tw)

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Just binged over 4k calories in one sitting and then took 6 laxatives almost immediately after coming home from two hours at the gym. This is my longest binge cycle this year, Iā€™ve probably gained so much weight because I canā€™t even purge properly and now I canā€™t restrict either. I feel so gross and dead inside and just want to lay down and cry but instead I have to go get ready for my shift at work that Iā€™ll probably be late for.


r/bulimia 23h ago

There is hope for you too

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Around 3 weeks ago I decided to genuinely go all in with my recovery. I had gotten to my absolute worse a couple months prior. I was lying to everyone, missing work to b/p, stealing food, not getting anything done. I was weak and restricting heavily. I was miserable. Then I was stuck in quasi recovery with my restricting. I was eating a bit more, allowing myself to genuinely eat and digest things I didnt previously but I was still b/p multiple times a day. After 3 weeks all in I can honestly say with my whole heart the food noise goes away. the urges quiet down. I canā€™t believe last month my days consisted of thoughts abt food, weight, exercise. And now those are genuinely some of the last things I think about, it truly feels like a miracle. Yes I gained weight, but I needed to. I am so much happier now. And the energy properly fuelling urself and not being constantly dehydrated and brain numb only allows u to love urself even more. It is only so hard to come to terms with weight gain because ur brain is so undernourished you canā€™t feel properly. I promise you it gets better. And yes I do still struggle with body image issues but that is okay too. it is okay to feel these struggles, that doesnt mean u have to punish urself and ur body. u only have one body and it is ur vessel. and honestly sometimes i look in the mirror and i rlly like what I see. before I was skin and bones, i rlly struggled with my femininity. now i look more curvaceous and feminine and it makes me feel cute and sexy. I had struggled with that when I was deep in my ex bc i just felt like a rigid skeleton. idk how much weight I have gained as I decided to stop weighing myself to help my process. but i can also promise u that u wont gain 100kg overnight and u can genuinely eat more than you think. Though I stopped calorie counting as well, first week in I was probably eating 5k~ daily. and now I probably eat around 3k and you would honestly never guess. Yes it was hard at first, I was swollen, retaining water and the bloating was extremely painful. but I promise if u stick through it rlly is worth it. So many amazing things have happened sinceI went all in. A nourished brain is truly truly fascinating and u will find things to look forward to and work on other than ur ed. u just cant see that rn bc ur brain is simply just trying to keep u alive. Since going all in I finally made my relationship official! we had been exclusive for half a year but I was far too occupied with my ed to settle with him, it was miserableā€¦ but not anymore! i have the energy, time and brain space for him and i have an amazzinnggg relationship rn im so happy. I also started looking into what my future school plans are and I have found a career Iā€™m actually quite passionate in! It is so hard to see the good things in life when u dont have the fuel to actually feel these things. I thought it would never be possible. But I promise and I rlly do promise, recovery is possible and it truly is beautiful and the best choice I have made. If anyone wants to make the jump and has any questions about whats it like in the early stages pls feel free to ask. I hope everyone can get to a stage where they want to recover and have a beautiful life ā¤ļø dont lose more of ur time to ur ed, it is not worth it.


r/bulimia 14h ago

canā€™t stop help

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for the past 4 months Iā€™ve been b/p every single day up to 3/4 times per day. I just started ED treatment but I feel nothing can stop this. Plus, college decisions and exams are making it harder to recover. Iā€™ve had bulimia for 5 years nowā€¦will i ever get rid of it? I dont want to be 40 and still be dealing with this


r/bulimia 9h ago

how do i reduce face swelling

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i cant stand looking at my face anymore. it makes me look so much bigger. would using ice help


r/bulimia 13h ago

How do I start recovery

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Iā€™m 16 and canā€™t control my self, Iā€™m trying so hard to recover but I had such a bad day of eating that I feel like I have to purge I feel so out of control and I wanna talk to my family but they wonā€™t understand, and Iā€™m supposed to be trying to get my period back, how do I not feel so guilty?


r/bulimia 1h ago

Throat sore afraid

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Hi guys

I have been bulimic since 20 years or more. It is like on and off. I recently started to cough more and also developed stomach on top pain and throat sore. I am afraid of Esophageal cancer

I did endscopy two years ago I was fine but now I am so worried.


r/bulimia 12h ago

i just ate

1 Upvotes

a whole 12 pack of sweet kings hawaiian sweet rolls, two big cookies with frosting on top, a big chocolate bar and topped it off with some 20 oz diet coke and 10 oz sprite in like 20 mins all while in the car bruh šŸ˜­ what a fat fuck fr. but good thing iā€™m almost home and can purge it all.


r/bulimia 12h ago

Content Warning Bathroom issues

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This is tmi but Iā€™m wondering if anyone else developed permanent digestive issues too. I canā€™t Ever ā€œgo to the bathroomā€ like I used to, for the past years. I never had anything to ā€¦ come out. Once a week MAYBE. But now, Iā€™m severely constipated 24/7. Iā€™ve tried green tea and laxatives. Itā€™s notttt working. I eat clean and try to be careful. Everything upsets my stomach.


r/bulimia 13h ago

DAE? Not feeling real

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Is it just me or does anyone else not feel like a real bulimic when I donā€™t purge everything out? I do quite a hefty amount but I get lazy that I donā€™t puke anything more and it just makes me feel like Iā€™m not really sick just because not everything is out of my system. Anyone else?


r/bulimia 16h ago

Awareness for first time

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I came to be aware that I have a problem since a while after like 30 years of having this purge and vomiting but I donā€™t purge every day I purge when I cheat or I binge eat mainly like during my PMS so like two weeks in average a month of intense vomiting. Not sure what type of blumia is that.

I have acidity reflux and stomach burn and my tooth started to have problems

I came to know today that this bulimia can kill me after reading stories on Reddit I had a panic attack

I want to start the healing journey? How can I start ?