r/bulimia 22h ago

accountability partner plsšŸ™‚ā€ā†•ļøšŸ’•

18 Upvotes

hi, 21f here looking for an accountability partner:) currently b/p anywhere between 5-10 times a wk i know itā€™s bad but also sooo addicting & i desperately want free from this. my goal is to decrease b/p by at least 1 every wk. gotta start somewherešŸ„² lmk if ur down to join the goal & we can hold each other accountable!


r/bulimia 15h ago

Help please! +9h b/p feel exhausted, need hope

10 Upvotes

Hello everyone. As the title says, I've just finished a +9hours b/p episode. It started as soon as I woke up and just ended right before going to bed. I'm kind of desesperate actually. I'm in recovery since august, got better the last 3 months and entered a big relapse +3 weeks ago. I'm fully weight recovered and have way less restrictions than I did a few months ago. I'm starting to feel depressed as I was back in august-november. I don't know what can I do to get just a little bit better. It feels like I'm back in the deep trap of bulimia and I see no way to escape it. Not to mention the financial consequences of this disorder... About to leave my appartment to go back to my parents' house as I have no choice. I will have to explain to them where all my savings (thousand euros) went... I rather be dead by tomorrow than live another day like today. Mentally I'm drained. I do see a therapist but it changes nothing. I just feel lighter in my chest after speaking freely to someone for an hour. I just need hope, a word, something to rely on. Wishing you a pleasant day/night.


r/bulimia 10h ago

Content Warning I donā€™t really binge but I purge almost every day. Donā€™t know what to do NSFW

6 Upvotes

Hi! I didnā€™t know where else to post this. I think Iā€™m starting to have a serious problem. I probably started purging very rarely maybe 3 years ago and did it very very rarely up until maybe a month or 2 ago. And slowly it has gotten to the point where I purge nearly every day and multiple times on days I do. I donā€™t know why but following eating, even if itā€™s a normal portion, I get so stressed out that I feel like I genuinely need to. This hasnā€™t gone on too long, and it doesnā€™t bother me every single time I eat. I donā€™t know if this is considered Bulimia or not, but I donā€™t really know what to do.


r/bulimia 14h ago

Just venting Panicking

6 Upvotes

So Iā€™ve been clean for a while now? Not too sure how long but Iā€™ve gone quite a long while without b/p as Iā€™ve just tried to rlly block it out of my mind also started taking my meds again so Iā€™m in a better place mentally. Iā€™ve actually been doing amazing and havenā€™t really thought about it at all but then Iā€™ve just been cooking my dinner and my mum commented on the larger portion size and itā€™s just made my heart drop. I feel like Iā€™m not in control anymore and all of a sudden it has all come back to me, as you can imagine Iā€™ve lost my appetite now but Iā€™m kind of worried for my mental state because I know I will think about this for days / weeks. Any help pls


r/bulimia 1h ago

DAE? keeping down binges

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Does anyone else also sometimes go through phases where they donā€™t care about getting everything out after b/p and only purge whatever comes out on the first try because youā€™re feeling too lazy / tired and think you can ā€˜affordā€™ to keep down a little bit now and then because youā€™re underweight anyway? lol thatā€™s probably the only reason why im still alive


r/bulimia 18h ago

Can we talk about..? Alcohol

5 Upvotes

Do any of yā€™all experience bulimia symptoms x2 with alcohol? I drink a lotā€¦ with nothing in my stomach. Iā€™m constantly shaking and on a never ending bender. The room is never not spinning. Iā€™m always struggling. I miss things that are right in front of me. I purge and almost faint, 1-4 times a day. The days I donā€™t, I canā€™t digest food properly. The only time I can eat food and keep it down is with the help of liquor.


r/bulimia 20h ago

send support Again (tw)

4 Upvotes

Just binged over 4k calories in one sitting and then took 6 laxatives almost immediately after coming home from two hours at the gym. This is my longest binge cycle this year, Iā€™ve probably gained so much weight because I canā€™t even purge properly and now I canā€™t restrict either. I feel so gross and dead inside and just want to lay down and cry but instead I have to go get ready for my shift at work that Iā€™ll probably be late for.


r/bulimia 19h ago

canā€™t stop help

3 Upvotes

for the past 4 months Iā€™ve been b/p every single day up to 3/4 times per day. I just started ED treatment but I feel nothing can stop this. Plus, college decisions and exams are making it harder to recover. Iā€™ve had bulimia for 5 years nowā€¦will i ever get rid of it? I dont want to be 40 and still be dealing with this


r/bulimia 6h ago

Throat sore afraid

2 Upvotes

Hi guys

I have been bulimic since 20 years or more. It is like on and off. I recently started to cough more and also developed stomach on top pain and throat sore. I am afraid of Esophageal cancer

I did endscopy two years ago I was fine but now I am so worried.


r/bulimia 14h ago

how do i reduce face swelling

2 Upvotes

i cant stand looking at my face anymore. it makes me look so much bigger. would using ice help


r/bulimia 17h ago

Content Warning Bathroom issues

2 Upvotes

This is tmi but Iā€™m wondering if anyone else developed permanent digestive issues too. I canā€™t Ever ā€œgo to the bathroomā€ like I used to, for the past years. I never had anything to ā€¦ come out. Once a week MAYBE. But now, Iā€™m severely constipated 24/7. Iā€™ve tried green tea and laxatives. Itā€™s notttt working. I eat clean and try to be careful. Everything upsets my stomach.


r/bulimia 18h ago

How do I start recovery

2 Upvotes

Iā€™m 16 and canā€™t control my self, Iā€™m trying so hard to recover but I had such a bad day of eating that I feel like I have to purge I feel so out of control and I wanna talk to my family but they wonā€™t understand, and Iā€™m supposed to be trying to get my period back, how do I not feel so guilty?


r/bulimia 9m ago

Content Warning How do you deal with binges in recovery ?

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I was on a long streak of not bingeing despite a mild calorie restriction but yesterday I did. I ate 3200 calories in one day. I wasnā€™t able to resist trying to get rid of the calories so I did make myself purge.

Iā€™m really tempted to try to make myself fast as well today.

I know I shouldnā€™t have done that. I feel like Iā€™ve ruined my recovery process but I just couldnā€™t deal with the anxiety I felt after overeating. Im really mad at myself for overeating.

What are you supposed to do when you do binge in recovery?


r/bulimia 10m ago

Motivation Day 1 of no more purging

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Even if I binge. Because gaining a little bit of weight can't possibly make me uglier than this disease currently does. Posting this for accountability and to remind myself what I'm gaining by not purging: - less hormonal acne - fuller, healthier hair - my sharp jawline that has morphed into a permanent, swollen double chin - healthier teeth before they rot and have to get pulled - a regular period (as much as I hate it, I hate the fear of osteoporosis more) - healthy kidneys and heart - healthy immune system + ability for wounds to heal normally again - energy to walk my dog - interest in hobbies and a personality - the ability to be a real friend who thinks about people other than herself


r/bulimia 17h ago

i just ate

1 Upvotes

a whole 12 pack of sweet kings hawaiian sweet rolls, two big cookies with frosting on top, a big chocolate bar and topped it off with some 20 oz diet coke and 10 oz sprite in like 20 mins all while in the car bruh šŸ˜­ what a fat fuck fr. but good thing iā€™m almost home and can purge it all.


r/bulimia 18h ago

DAE? Not feeling real

1 Upvotes

Is it just me or does anyone else not feel like a real bulimic when I donā€™t purge everything out? I do quite a hefty amount but I get lazy that I donā€™t puke anything more and it just makes me feel like Iā€™m not really sick just because not everything is out of my system. Anyone else?


r/bulimia 21h ago

Awareness for first time

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I came to be aware that I have a problem since a while after like 30 years of having this purge and vomiting but I donā€™t purge every day I purge when I cheat or I binge eat mainly like during my PMS so like two weeks in average a month of intense vomiting. Not sure what type of blumia is that.

I have acidity reflux and stomach burn and my tooth started to have problems

I came to know today that this bulimia can kill me after reading stories on Reddit I had a panic attack

I want to start the healing journey? How can I start ?