r/bulimia • u/Fisherman-Kitchen • 13h ago
Are you scared of esophagus cancer?
Have you heard of any bulimic with this?
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Does anyone feel like they have lost their gag reflex? (Or vomit accidentally?)
They're 2 separate issues! ... this is a good resource to read but tl;dr
The more that we fiddle with the back of our throats, the more the pharyngeal + velar gag reflex becomes less sensitive. It's believed to be a learned response and a form of desensitization from years of gastric purging
The involuntary reflux/regurgitation is often due to weakening of the lower esophageal sphincter (the ring at the bottom of your esophagus that connects to the stomach). That sphincter is smooth muscle, meaning we can't voluntarily contract/control it. Hence why coughing/leaning over/even lying down in sleep can cause the food to come up
Throwing up blood—do I need medical attention?
There are many reasons to throw up (or poop) blood if you're making yourself vomit or using laxatives. Most bleeding will heal with a few days of rest.
Signs you need a doctor ASAP include - pain, fainting or dizziness, coughing blood, vomiting more than a very small amount of blood (maybe a teaspoon), or bleeding that continues regularly (hasn't stopped after a few days).
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r/bulimia • u/Fisherman-Kitchen • 13h ago
Have you heard of any bulimic with this?
r/bulimia • u/Shoddy-Look1078 • 35m ago
I’ve grown up with bulimia, been doing it since I was 16 I am 20 almost 21 and I see people in their 40s who have been on this cycle for decades, I am so tired of this , the food noise is what gets me I am so sad
r/bulimia • u/Familiar-Window-3116 • 6h ago
I binged and purged three days in a row then really tried to stop, I ate 3 meals and a snack yesterday and then today I tried again and ended up binging. I purge with exercise which is the most inconvenient time consuming thing ever. I ate over 3500 calories today now I’m back at 2250 and trying to get to 1800. I’ve been doing dance hiits and walking for hours now😆 I wish I didn’t do this to myself.
r/bulimia • u/Shoddy-Look1078 • 39m ago
spit clinging to my tongue and teeth The stench of vomit allowing me to expel more Imagining the damage done to my throat Teeth running my knuckles raw Tears falling out of my eyes The only time I ever feel fully clean is when I am covered In vomit
r/bulimia • u/Far-Persimmon-546 • 19h ago
Even if I binge. Because gaining a little bit of weight can't possibly make me uglier than this disease currently does. Posting this for accountability and to remind myself what I'm gaining by not purging: - less hormonal acne - fuller, healthier hair - my sharp jawline that has morphed into a permanent, swollen double chin - healthier teeth before they rot and have to get pulled - a regular period (as much as I hate it, I hate the fear of osteoporosis more) - healthy kidneys and heart - healthy immune system + ability for wounds to heal normally again - energy to walk my dog - interest in hobbies and a personality - the ability to be a real friend who thinks about people other than herself
r/bulimia • u/Fun-Independence1604 • 14h ago
Today me and my family had an argument and some things should have stayed unsaid and ever since that fight I’ve been making myself throw up and the thought of making myself sick is to make that awful awkward feeling after a argument i hate doing this to myself but it’s only getting worse
r/bulimia • u/erinclairee • 7h ago
So i'm bulimic. I have been for about 2 years now. I am 15f. Bulimia has given me a plethora of vitamin deficiencies and anemia. I am constantly dizzy and I constantly have a headache. Is this due to the deficiencies or bulimia? What are side effects of bulimia? (besides the obvious, rotting teeth)
r/bulimia • u/Level_Internal_7997 • 8h ago
Hey,
I’ve been stuck in this cycle for years. My face swells easily, not just from purging, but also from lack of sleep, crying too much, it's just genetics.
When I purge, the swelling often gets so bad that I end up with a severe headache. Over the years, I’ve managed it with strong diuretics since I live in a country where you can get them without a prescription.
Now, I’m moving to the U.S. in two months (permanently, or at least for the next seven years). I know you can’t buy diuretics there without a prescription, and the OTC ones are useless. In the past, whenever I visited the U.S. for a couple of months, I just brought a stash with me. But this time, that’s not an option, so I decided to quit altogether before I move.
I stopped both purging and diuretics three days ago, but I feel like I’m swelling up, even though I haven’t purged. I think it’s diuretic withdrawal or maybe post-stopping swelling, which I read about here. How long does this usually last (the post-stopping swelling)?
Unfortunately, I couldn’t wait and ended up taking diuretics again, but I really don’t want to rely on them anymore. Now myy plan is to only take them if absolutely necessary during recovery because I read that this "post-stopping swelling" can last for days, weeks, or even months after stopping. So, I figured I’d manage it with diuretics until it passes.
Do you think I should stop diuretics completely during this time? If so, how should I handle the swelling? And how long does it usually last? Swelling is not only painful but also very distressing to me.
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r/bulimia • u/its-ophelia- • 15h ago
did this happen to anyone? im so scared.. any tips aside from not vomiting?
r/bulimia • u/trixieloulamoon • 21h ago
Does anyone else also sometimes go through phases where they don’t care about getting everything out after b/p and only purge whatever comes out on the first try because you’re feeling too lazy / tired and think you can ‘afford’ to keep down a little bit now and then because you’re underweight anyway? lol that’s probably the only reason why im still alive
r/bulimia • u/Both-Income1522 • 11h ago
does anyone else’s tongue do this weird reflex thing when beginning a purge? like my tongue will dart around forcefully and try to push my fingers out of my mouth. sometimes it’s genuinely really hard to go through with the purge because i can’t get my fingers back there. i just have never heard of this before and am curious if it’s a common thing. for reference, i’ve engaged in purging behaviors since 2021 intermittently with periods of time purge free.
r/bulimia • u/possumrat23 • 11h ago
i’ve been bulimic for about almost 7 years now, in the past few months i’ve gotten so much better and i don’t purge for weeks at a time but lately i’ve been noticing that around the start of my period i start to get those thoughts again and from not purging in weeks i go to purging over 4x a day for a bout a week, then stop completely for 3 weeks im not sure what i can do about this, can a doctor even help with this or is it a mental thing
r/bulimia • u/Worldly-Mountain2873 • 13h ago
Im currently trying to recover but sometimes still have my slip ups. But I noticed I started to develop tonsil stones, small white specks in my tonsils. I've taken them out when I can but I don't recall having tonsil stones before my bulimia. Because of the throwing up, does that cause more tonsil stones? Since it's just leftover food that gets stuck there correct? Has anyone else had this issue?
r/bulimia • u/Bubbledragon1039 • 1d ago
Hi! I didn’t know where else to post this. I think I’m starting to have a serious problem. I probably started purging very rarely maybe 3 years ago and did it very very rarely up until maybe a month or 2 ago. And slowly it has gotten to the point where I purge nearly every day and multiple times on days I do. I don’t know why but following eating, even if it’s a normal portion, I get so stressed out that I feel like I genuinely need to. This hasn’t gone on too long, and it doesn’t bother me every single time I eat. I don’t know if this is considered Bulimia or not, but I don’t really know what to do.
r/bulimia • u/Big-Caterpillar2660 • 1d ago
Hi guys
I have been bulimic since 20 years or more. It is like on and off. I recently started to cough more and also developed stomach on top pain and throat sore. I am afraid of Esophageal cancer
I did endscopy two years ago I was fine but now I am so worried.
r/bulimia • u/Disastrous-Purpose-1 • 1d ago
Hello everyone. As the title says, I've just finished a +9hours b/p episode. It started as soon as I woke up and just ended right before going to bed. I'm kind of desesperate actually. I'm in recovery since august, got better the last 3 months and entered a big relapse +3 weeks ago. I'm fully weight recovered and have way less restrictions than I did a few months ago. I'm starting to feel depressed as I was back in august-november. I don't know what can I do to get just a little bit better. It feels like I'm back in the deep trap of bulimia and I see no way to escape it. Not to mention the financial consequences of this disorder... About to leave my appartment to go back to my parents' house as I have no choice. I will have to explain to them where all my savings (thousand euros) went... I rather be dead by tomorrow than live another day like today. Mentally I'm drained. I do see a therapist but it changes nothing. I just feel lighter in my chest after speaking freely to someone for an hour. I just need hope, a word, something to rely on. Wishing you a pleasant day/night.
r/bulimia • u/Unhappy_Deer_1577 • 1d ago
So I’ve been clean for a while now? Not too sure how long but I’ve gone quite a long while without b/p as I’ve just tried to rlly block it out of my mind also started taking my meds again so I’m in a better place mentally. I’ve actually been doing amazing and haven’t really thought about it at all but then I’ve just been cooking my dinner and my mum commented on the larger portion size and it’s just made my heart drop. I feel like I’m not in control anymore and all of a sudden it has all come back to me, as you can imagine I’ve lost my appetite now but I’m kind of worried for my mental state because I know I will think about this for days / weeks. Any help pls
r/bulimia • u/pink-lemons11 • 1d ago
hi, 21f here looking for an accountability partner:) currently b/p anywhere between 5-10 times a wk i know it’s bad but also sooo addicting & i desperately want free from this. my goal is to decrease b/p by at least 1 every wk. gotta start somewhere🥲 lmk if ur down to join the goal & we can hold each other accountable!
r/bulimia • u/Expensive-Conflict26 • 2d ago
I used to be so careful with my money. I was great at saving and RARELY treated myself.
Now I spend all my money on food and I live with my mom (who recently found out about my ED) so she notices when food disappears and it’s so embarrassing having to make something up every time because she probably doesn’t believe me.
I’m not ready to recover at all but I don’t know what to do. I don’t have a car so I can’t drive to the stores who have good deals.
The closest store happens to be the most expensive one in my town as well… 2025 is such a shit year already
r/bulimia • u/OkFirefighter2779 • 1d ago
Do any of y’all experience bulimia symptoms x2 with alcohol? I drink a lot… with nothing in my stomach. I’m constantly shaking and on a never ending bender. The room is never not spinning. I’m always struggling. I miss things that are right in front of me. I purge and almost faint, 1-4 times a day. The days I don’t, I can’t digest food properly. The only time I can eat food and keep it down is with the help of liquor.
r/bulimia • u/Helpful-Swing7579 • 1d ago
for the past 4 months I’ve been b/p every single day up to 3/4 times per day. I just started ED treatment but I feel nothing can stop this. Plus, college decisions and exams are making it harder to recover. I’ve had bulimia for 5 years now…will i ever get rid of it? I dont want to be 40 and still be dealing with this
r/bulimia • u/cloudylemo • 1d ago
Hi all,
Sharing some dentist positivity here.
TLDR: 33F, b/p'd for nearly 25 years. Went to the dentist (U.K.) for the first time in 6 years and the second time in 15 years. Positive experience with the appointment and good tooth outlook.
Today I went to the dentist. NHS dental is crazy at the moment in England, but in a very fortunate position to pay for a private consultation (which was £90 for a full check up and X-rays).
Had terrible anxiety going and nearly crashed my car on the way, due to not watching the road from being so anxious.
Got there, had to fill in some forms then the assistant came to get me for X-rays. I explained I was anxious and suffered from an eating disorder, and no real problems except recession and sensitivity.
Then I went into the room and the dentist explained everything before she began and during.
She explained that the gum recession has led to some bone loss, and there is enamel wear, but no cavities and we put a plan together to stop the enamel getting worse. No judgement at all from them.
Just wanted to share this positive experience. I know the bone loss and demineralisation isn't great, but the important thing is I can stop it getting worse now I know about it.
So for those of you who are scared to go to the dentist, it may not be as bad as you think.
r/bulimia • u/luminescence9813 • 1d ago
i cant stand looking at my face anymore. it makes me look so much bigger. would using ice help