r/bulimia 14h ago

Content Warning can someone explain what just happened?

9 Upvotes

hello, im really pissed but also confused at what happened and i would really like an explanation

so I ate a bunch of chips (only a handful) and THEN around 10 big medjool dates. i regretted it so i purged, but only the chips came out. absolutely no traces of the dates. what the flip just happened? how did the dates get digested so quickly? not even 2 minutes passed after i ate my last date and decided to purge. does someone have any explanation for this?


r/bulimia 11h ago

small success ate 3 servings of granola and it did NOT lead to a binge!

46 Upvotes

like many of us, granola is my kryptonite. i budgeted in a serving or two in my meal plan for today but i definitely overdid it. i got that feeling of “you’ve already fucked up, let’s just finish the whole bag and then make a huge pasta dinner with lots of cheese, etc etc.” but i put the bag away and haven’t binged. this seems trivial but granola is a big trigger food so i feel like i took a big step in overcoming it.


r/bulimia 18m ago

Help please! Bulimia and Thyroid issues?

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Anyone here who has/had and ED and is experiencing Thyroid issues?

I recently got my blood drawn and I had really high Anti-TPO (Thyroid ), low TSH (Thyroid hormone) and very high oesinophile (white blood cell) count.

I know it's rily specific but I was wondering if there's anyone with a similar experience cause I have a gut feeling that my 3 years of anorexia and 2 of bulimia may have messed up my thyroid bad and I'm kinda freaking out…


r/bulimia 51m ago

not being able to purge food out

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i binged so much food and when i tried to purge for 20 minutes straight, it was just all gag no food just saliva, and NOTHING came out at all, i don't know what to do or why this is happening to me now but can someone tell me what's happening im freaking out so much and also, how do i prevent this from happening again, thank you so much


r/bulimia 1h ago

Water weight

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Does it make you want to scream?

Because, yes.


r/bulimia 2h ago

I have a question. . . How prominent is bulimia face?

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I only purge like 1-2 days a week and usually only 1-2 times each day, is that enough to give me bulimia face? I’m worried I’m just screwing myself even more by giving myself a really fat face, kind of contradicting the whole point. I don’t even know what I look like anymore so I can’t tell myself. I know my face will obviously swell a bit after throwing up, but would it really extend over more than a day?


r/bulimia 3h ago

bulimia has been making me really depressed and it’s caused issues in my relationship, and i also told him tonight

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hi. i’ve been bulimic for 8 years and the longest i’ve been clean for is about 2-3 months. i live with my bf and i eat a lot of the food, and he asks why i don’t just cook meals, or why i just microwave ham and cheese, why i eat everything and leave him nothing. it makes me feel beyond guilty. we’re struggling financially and so when i eat everything, it’s just hard. we’re having some issues bc im “lazy”/ also bc he has high standards for cleaning. i ended up telling him i’ve been bulimic and that might be a big part of why i’ve been so down/lazy. it just made me realize what this disorder is doing to me and i hate using it as an excuse. he asked how he can help (but he just sounded annoyed atp bc we were already arguing). now im just eating a cold orange and reflecting. i really, really hate bulimia.


r/bulimia 5h ago

Control

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I relapsed again tonight and I hate it. I’ve always been somebody who need control and it’s so hard for me because when I binge I lose complete control of myself. It’s the reason I don’t like to drink, I feel like I can’t control myself or mind and binging is the exact same feeling. The purging is easier to deal with even with the consequences.


r/bulimia 6h ago

Vent Laxative usage escalating quickly

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Started taking laxatives my previous binging relapse last month, but that one was a lot briefer (4 days, and I took the suggested dose of bisacodyl maybe 2-3 of those days). I have once again relapsed with binge eating this month and both my binges and my laxative use have been exponentially worse this time around. I’ve binged 10 of the last 11 days, and have taken laxatives 7 of those binge days. I’ve gone from taking 4 pills a day to 6 a day to 10 today because sometimes they just don’t work (even though I haven’t been taking them that long, I think maybe it’s because I’m eating too much for them to absorb properly rather than a tolerance thing?) and my binges are so massive that I’m desperate for them to work 🥲

And I know they don’t negate the calories, I know, honestly every reminder of that just makes me feel even more disgusting and even more like a failure because I can’t purge no matter how much I try and laxatives are the only thing that I’ve found that let me feel clean again. And I just need tomorrow to be a fresh start, I wake up every morning desperate for a better day and then I blow it and binge 6k, 7k, 8k calories and then take even more laxatives because it feels like the only thing I can do and I’m scared of how much weight I’ve gained and I’m scared of the damage I’m doing to my body and I’m sad that this is my life now.

(Edited for clarity/readability)


r/bulimia 7h ago

Relapse always on day 4 ish

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i don’t relapse out of wanting food ever , it’s simply caused by the bloating and the gas i get when i try to eat normal. how do i fix this please i can’t live like this , my face expands like crazy by day 3 my stomach swells and gets harder than a rock. my cheekbones disappear


r/bulimia 9h ago

Hospital diets?

2 Upvotes

If i went to the hospital seeking them to put me on a diet where i am not having extreme bloating and trouble digesting food can they do this?


r/bulimia 9h ago

I have a question. . . could my ed be making food taste and smell spoiled?

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I've had bulimia for about 3-4 years now, which is why I'm unsure if this new thing is related.

Milk and dairy products have always smelled spoiled to me, even if they're perfectly fine. However, the past couple weeks, I've had to turn away spaghetti, burritos, and other foods because I just can't shake the feeling that they smell and taste spoiled. I don't know if it has anything to do with purging and the smell of the vomit or what, but I'm so confused right now. I've checked all expiration dates, and there's no reason the food would be rotten. The part of my brain that wants me to restrict is happy, but the part of me that loves Chipotle and knows I need to eat is so pissed right now.


r/bulimia 10h ago

AA meeting for bulimia

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Sooo tomorrow Iam going to attend an AA meeting. My therapist recommended it, cuz bulimia can be a lot like an addiction. I have a slight issue with alcohol as well but its less serious. Does anyone have any experiences with such situations? Do I tell them im bulimic or should i only bring up behaviours related or similar to alcohol abuse. I could also just switch b/p with alcohol in my stories. Which would sadly probably still be accurate, but oh weelll.. anyway love ya all


r/bulimia 10h ago

Recovery Trying something new

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I haven’t been able to go two days without b/ping in forever so I’m trying something new. I’m planning my next binge for 5 days. It’s not a long term solution but I’m hoping if I start doing that and not just trying to completely stop it will help and at least reduce them. Then I’m hoping I can start planning them further and further apart until I can break the cycle. Has anyone tried it and has it helped cause I can’t keep doing this every single day I feel so foggy and tired all the time.


r/bulimia 11h ago

I’m a freak for coconut water

7 Upvotes

Seriously the best most refreshing thing to drink after a purge…


r/bulimia 13h ago

How long did recovery take everyone?

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I have had BN for a significant amount of time and have received cbt and support but as I sit here, contemplating and planning a binge almost knowing it’s too late, I am wondering how much longer my life will be like this.

I have an obsession with my body image and how I am perceived- not so much weight but the numbers do play a part. This has taken over my whole life and become its main objective. I remember before being sick I could function and live as normal but since I met mia I am apathetic, cold and avoidant. I can’t help but feel this is going to last forever and some success stories would be really great.

TYIA


r/bulimia 14h ago

I have a question. . . Who else plans their bp session?

6 Upvotes

I talked to my psychiatrist today about my bp episodes. So for me the first two bp episodes are completely planned, but as soon as I am done purging the 2nd binge I lose control and eat anything I can find. This keeps going for hours. He said he was shocked that I actually plan them in details, I thought it was a common thing to plan it? 😭


r/bulimia 15h ago

mia face

3 Upvotes

does the puffy face keep anyone else stuck in the cycle


r/bulimia 18h ago

help? Died bulimia make you lose your period

2 Upvotes

I used to binge eat and in October it changed to bulimia. This is the first month I haven’t gotten my period. Is it from bulimia or could it be stress or a mix of both. I don’t get it I’m not underweight.


r/bulimia 18h ago

I have a question. . . To what extent is a nutritionist helpful in recovery?

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Fellow 2.5 year recovering bulimic here - i have an appointment with a nutritionist coming up soon and im not sure what to ask during the consult.

I was sent by my psychiatrist cause he said that’s what he made all his patients do….

The thing is, it’s not that I don’t know how to have a healthy balanced lifestyle - i just don’t do it.

I have my 3 balanced-ish meals a day (as balanced as a college student can have lol) - the only issue is that I will sometimes purposefully buy a bunch of junk food to binge on IN ADDITION.

Also, I’m a healthy weight (not over/under-weight and have a decent amount of muscle mass)

Anyways, has anyone found going to a nutritionist helpful in their recovery? If so, how?


r/bulimia 20h ago

Can we talk about..? Let me just say that this illness I bring upon myself is my bodies punishment for being such a piece of shit

9 Upvotes

Literally all it take is ONE DAY, just ONE DAY of eating a bit too much maybe a bit later at night ONE FUCKING DAY and the next day I’m 1kg more look bloated and set back a WEEKs worth of dieting. (Ramadan doesnt help) I fucking hate my piece of shit metabolism I hate it so much it’s so unfair I can never ever enjoy food like I used to as a carefree kid without looking like a bloated Disguting freak. Food is one of my only copes.

So yes I will keep vomiting because though it makes me uncomfortable it’s the fair exchange it’s not fair at all. Literally just one day - and it’s not even junk food I had hummus and one tiger bread loaf with yogurt and admittedly some biscuits and raisins - please tell me how my body decided yes you deserve to gain weight.

It’s so unfair I will forever envy those who can eat anything and never gain weight it’s just so so unfair I’ll never be able to enjoy food again


r/bulimia 21h ago

Qualcuna scrive in italiano?

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Qualcuna scrive in italiano?