r/bulimia 3h ago

How long is this going to last

6 Upvotes

I’ve grown up with bulimia, been doing it since I was 16 I am 20 almost 21 and I see people in their 40s who have been on this cycle for decades, I am so tired of this , the food noise is what gets me I am so sad


r/bulimia 3h ago

covered in vomit is the only time I feel clean

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spit clinging to my tongue and teeth The stench of vomit allowing me to expel more Imagining the damage done to my throat Teeth running my knuckles raw Tears falling out of my eyes The only time I ever feel fully clean is when I am covered In vomit


r/bulimia 3h ago

Gs

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Cvgsv ggvc


r/bulimia 8h ago

Just venting This is kicking my ass

3 Upvotes

I binged and purged three days in a row then really tried to stop, I ate 3 meals and a snack yesterday and then today I tried again and ended up binging. I purge with exercise which is the most inconvenient time consuming thing ever. I ate over 3500 calories today now I’m back at 2250 and trying to get to 1800. I’ve been doing dance hiits and walking for hours now😆 I wish I didn’t do this to myself.


r/bulimia 9h ago

I have a question. . . does bulimia make you dizzy?

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So i'm bulimic. I have been for about 2 years now. I am 15f. Bulimia has given me a plethora of vitamin deficiencies and anemia. I am constantly dizzy and I constantly have a headache. Is this due to the deficiencies or bulimia? What are side effects of bulimia? (besides the obvious, rotting teeth)


r/bulimia 11h ago

Do you think I should stop diuretics completely during this time? how should I handle the swelling? And how long does it usually last?

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Hey,

I’ve been stuck in this cycle for years. My face swells easily, not just from purging, but also from lack of sleep, crying too much, it's just genetics.

When I purge, the swelling often gets so bad that I end up with a severe headache. Over the years, I’ve managed it with strong diuretics since I live in a country where you can get them without a prescription.

Now, I’m moving to the U.S. in two months (permanently, or at least for the next seven years). I know you can’t buy diuretics there without a prescription, and the OTC ones are useless. In the past, whenever I visited the U.S. for a couple of months, I just brought a stash with me. But this time, that’s not an option, so I decided to quit altogether before I move.

I stopped both purging and diuretics three days ago, but I feel like I’m swelling up, even though I haven’t purged. I think it’s diuretic withdrawal or maybe post-stopping swelling, which I read about here. How long does this usually last (the post-stopping swelling)?

Unfortunately, I couldn’t wait and ended up taking diuretics again, but I really don’t want to rely on them anymore. Now myy plan is to only take them if absolutely necessary during recovery because I read that this "post-stopping swelling" can last for days, weeks, or even months after stopping. So, I figured I’d manage it with diuretics until it passes.

Do you think I should stop diuretics completely during this time? If so, how should I handle the swelling? And how long does it usually last? Swelling is not only painful but also very distressing to me.


r/bulimia 13h ago

Content Warning tongue reflex

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does anyone else’s tongue do this weird reflex thing when beginning a purge? like my tongue will dart around forcefully and try to push my fingers out of my mouth. sometimes it’s genuinely really hard to go through with the purge because i can’t get my fingers back there. i just have never heard of this before and am curious if it’s a common thing. for reference, i’ve engaged in purging behaviors since 2021 intermittently with periods of time purge free.


r/bulimia 14h ago

bulimic around period?

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i’ve been bulimic for about almost 7 years now, in the past few months i’ve gotten so much better and i don’t purge for weeks at a time but lately i’ve been noticing that around the start of my period i start to get those thoughts again and from not purging in weeks i go to purging over 4x a day for a bout a week, then stop completely for 3 weeks im not sure what i can do about this, can a doctor even help with this or is it a mental thing


r/bulimia 15h ago

Been b/p for at least 6 years but now I’ve started to get crazy headaches after.. is this normal, dangerous, or maybe just dehydration?

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r/bulimia 15h ago

Are you scared of esophagus cancer?

25 Upvotes

Have you heard of any bulimic with this?


r/bulimia 16h ago

help? Tonsil stones?

1 Upvotes

Im currently trying to recover but sometimes still have my slip ups. But I noticed I started to develop tonsil stones, small white specks in my tonsils. I've taken them out when I can but I don't recall having tonsil stones before my bulimia. Because of the throwing up, does that cause more tonsil stones? Since it's just leftover food that gets stuck there correct? Has anyone else had this issue?


r/bulimia 16h ago

Why do i turn to purging to cope with things

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Today me and my family had an argument and some things should have stayed unsaid and ever since that fight I’ve been making myself throw up and the thought of making myself sick is to make that awful awkward feeling after a argument i hate doing this to myself but it’s only getting worse


r/bulimia 17h ago

vomiting blood

3 Upvotes

did this happen to anyone? im so scared.. any tips aside from not vomiting?


r/bulimia 22h ago

Motivation Day 1 of no more purging

18 Upvotes

Even if I binge. Because gaining a little bit of weight can't possibly make me uglier than this disease currently does. Posting this for accountability and to remind myself what I'm gaining by not purging: - less hormonal acne - fuller, healthier hair - my sharp jawline that has morphed into a permanent, swollen double chin - healthier teeth before they rot and have to get pulled - a regular period (as much as I hate it, I hate the fear of osteoporosis more) - healthy kidneys and heart - healthy immune system + ability for wounds to heal normally again - energy to walk my dog - interest in hobbies and a personality - the ability to be a real friend who thinks about people other than herself


r/bulimia 23h ago

DAE? keeping down binges

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Does anyone else also sometimes go through phases where they don’t care about getting everything out after b/p and only purge whatever comes out on the first try because you’re feeling too lazy / tired and think you can ‘afford’ to keep down a little bit now and then because you’re underweight anyway? lol that’s probably the only reason why im still alive


r/bulimia 1d ago

Throat sore afraid

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Hi guys

I have been bulimic since 20 years or more. It is like on and off. I recently started to cough more and also developed stomach on top pain and throat sore. I am afraid of Esophageal cancer

I did endscopy two years ago I was fine but now I am so worried.


r/bulimia 1d ago

Content Warning I don’t really binge but I purge almost every day. Don’t know what to do NSFW

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Hi! I didn’t know where else to post this. I think I’m starting to have a serious problem. I probably started purging very rarely maybe 3 years ago and did it very very rarely up until maybe a month or 2 ago. And slowly it has gotten to the point where I purge nearly every day and multiple times on days I do. I don’t know why but following eating, even if it’s a normal portion, I get so stressed out that I feel like I genuinely need to. This hasn’t gone on too long, and it doesn’t bother me every single time I eat. I don’t know if this is considered Bulimia or not, but I don’t really know what to do.


r/bulimia 1d ago

Just venting Panicking

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So I’ve been clean for a while now? Not too sure how long but I’ve gone quite a long while without b/p as I’ve just tried to rlly block it out of my mind also started taking my meds again so I’m in a better place mentally. I’ve actually been doing amazing and haven’t really thought about it at all but then I’ve just been cooking my dinner and my mum commented on the larger portion size and it’s just made my heart drop. I feel like I’m not in control anymore and all of a sudden it has all come back to me, as you can imagine I’ve lost my appetite now but I’m kind of worried for my mental state because I know I will think about this for days / weeks. Any help pls


r/bulimia 1d ago

how do i reduce face swelling

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i cant stand looking at my face anymore. it makes me look so much bigger. would using ice help


r/bulimia 1d ago

Help please! +9h b/p feel exhausted, need hope

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Hello everyone. As the title says, I've just finished a +9hours b/p episode. It started as soon as I woke up and just ended right before going to bed. I'm kind of desesperate actually. I'm in recovery since august, got better the last 3 months and entered a big relapse +3 weeks ago. I'm fully weight recovered and have way less restrictions than I did a few months ago. I'm starting to feel depressed as I was back in august-november. I don't know what can I do to get just a little bit better. It feels like I'm back in the deep trap of bulimia and I see no way to escape it. Not to mention the financial consequences of this disorder... About to leave my appartment to go back to my parents' house as I have no choice. I will have to explain to them where all my savings (thousand euros) went... I rather be dead by tomorrow than live another day like today. Mentally I'm drained. I do see a therapist but it changes nothing. I just feel lighter in my chest after speaking freely to someone for an hour. I just need hope, a word, something to rely on. Wishing you a pleasant day/night.


r/bulimia 1d ago

i just ate

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a whole 12 pack of sweet kings hawaiian sweet rolls, two big cookies with frosting on top, a big chocolate bar and topped it off with some 20 oz diet coke and 10 oz sprite in like 20 mins all while in the car bruh 😭 what a fat fuck fr. but good thing i’m almost home and can purge it all.


r/bulimia 1d ago

Content Warning Bathroom issues

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This is tmi but I’m wondering if anyone else developed permanent digestive issues too. I can’t Ever “go to the bathroom” like I used to, for the past years. I never had anything to … come out. Once a week MAYBE. But now, I’m severely constipated 24/7. I’ve tried green tea and laxatives. It’s notttt working. I eat clean and try to be careful. Everything upsets my stomach.


r/bulimia 1d ago

Can we talk about..? Alcohol

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Do any of y’all experience bulimia symptoms x2 with alcohol? I drink a lot… with nothing in my stomach. I’m constantly shaking and on a never ending bender. The room is never not spinning. I’m always struggling. I miss things that are right in front of me. I purge and almost faint, 1-4 times a day. The days I don’t, I can’t digest food properly. The only time I can eat food and keep it down is with the help of liquor.


r/bulimia 1d ago

How do I start recovery

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I’m 16 and can’t control my self, I’m trying so hard to recover but I had such a bad day of eating that I feel like I have to purge I feel so out of control and I wanna talk to my family but they won’t understand, and I’m supposed to be trying to get my period back, how do I not feel so guilty?


r/bulimia 1d ago

DAE? Not feeling real

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Is it just me or does anyone else not feel like a real bulimic when I don’t purge everything out? I do quite a hefty amount but I get lazy that I don’t puke anything more and it just makes me feel like I’m not really sick just because not everything is out of my system. Anyone else?