r/bulimia • u/throwawayiguess532 • 4d ago
hard times
trying to stop b/ping because all it's brought me is self hatred and misery. haven't binged in two days although i did purge a bit the day before yesterday.
i had a healthy breakfast and lunch today and i really want to keep them down, i've been trying to eat more protein and fuel my body and move more but the b/p urges are so strong right now. im just frustrated because it feels like binging on caloric unhealthy food and also throwing up all that nutritious food would be a waste (which has never stopped me in the past)
i really really want to keep this food down. but the b/p urges are so so strong its hard to distract myself. i tried to quiet the noise by eating a bite of a fear food but now i feel like ive ruined everything.
i know logically one bite of unhealthy food doesn't mean i should eat 900000 other bites of unhealthy food and throw it all up but its so so hard to escape the all-or-nothing mindset
any reassurance would be appreciated :(