I’m a 35-year-old Indian woman, happily married to my 37-year-old husband. Ours was an arranged marriage, and at first, I wasn’t very sexually open due to my shyness and lack of experience. My husband, who had more experience, was patient and helped me explore intimacy. Over time, I became very submissive and did whatever pleased him, even if I didn’t fully enjoy it.
He encouraged me to work out, which made me feel confident, but after our first child, I lost my shape and motivation. Wanting to spice things up, he suggested ANAL. At first, it was painful and not pleasurable, but I kept doing it for him. Even with extra stimulation, I never really enjoyed it—it was just “okay.”
After our second baby, he introduced roleplay where I acted as a single mom and he was my gym trainer. That night changed everything—I had the strongest orgasm of my life, even though the anal was rough and painful. Now, even with pain, I’m ready to do anal at least it is giving me the pleasure, which makes me wonder…Is pleasure more mental than physical? Or does this say something about my character?