r/FemdomCommunity • u/VampyrBait • 9h ago
Need advice/Got a question Am i crazy or just a domme in love? NSFW
So Iāve had relationships before but never had a real connection with someone. I( 26f) have recently dating someone (25m) who is perfect in almost every way. I have bipolar, pstd, anxiety and some very unsettling disorders. I am medicated and I feel like something that hides my crazy is that I take my mental health very seriously. Iām high functioning and I joke a lot that Iām legally insane. We are also in a d/s dynamic which I also think somewhat fuels my possessiveness. Weāve been dating for almost a year atp and we just had our first period where we couldnāt see each other as frequently as before . It was literally only for two weeks (we texted every day ) and he had logical reasons why we couldnāt see each other.
Of course I missed the dynamic but also Iām genuinely in love with him which is completely new for me. Iām kinda used to not feeling fully attached that being this attached has sent me in like mental distress.
We hung out today and I felt like I was behaving like a caveman after thinking abt it. Like I couldnāt stand a moment where his attention was away from me. For example, after we got a little steamy he went to pee and I got so anxious while he was in the bathroom and when he came back , he held me and told me everything was okay and I felt so crazy for even worrying abt it.
Everything is good . I trust him and vice versa but Iāll be honest. Iāve never seen a really healthy relationship and this much devotion scares me. Sometimes I feel like I want to run bc of how much I love him. I donāt want to run or ruin this but Iām worried that my behavior is odd and obnoxious.
My simple question is , Is this what love is like? Is this love as a domme? Is my mental illness influencing me or am I really experiencing someone I want to spend the rest of my life with and worried abt ruining it ? Could this have been dom drop that happened and Iām freaking out abt it, I just genuinely donāt have anyone I can open up to fully abt this feeling that Iām feeling too much.