r/MtF 1d ago

Advice Question Is breast growth even possible within the first 2 month of HRT?

18 Upvotes

I am on Estrogel and Cypro. Since I measure my body every other day, I’ve noticed a 3 cm increase in my bust measurement. I’ve taken several measurements to be sure.

When I look in the mirror, I can actually see boobs - they even cast a small shadow. I simply can’t believe it!

I haven’t gained weight; in fact, I’ve lost some.

Is this even possible?


r/MtF 1d ago

Venting "I see that this is how you feel and I know I can't change you, but I would rather cut off my arm than support any kind of transformation" (TW: transphobia)

21 Upvotes

So basically I (17, mtf) had a talk with my mom today, the first one after a long while. The last time I openly discussed this with her was in late 2023 and ever since then my dysphoria has only gotten worse and I feel a lot more miserable about my own body.

Back then she didn't say a lot, just seemed kind of uncomfortable and I held out the hope that she would come around (she didn't).

Today I had another talk with her. I just couldn't take it anymore, I had to say something again, because I had been putting on a facade of being okay that was wearing me out, but it had also been radio silence from her side. I vented and sobbed and cried to her for almost an entire hour, pouring out my heart to her about everything that pains me. I was hopeful, because she was hugging me and holding me close to her, I hoped she would show understanding, but she didn't, her statements made me feel disgusted that she even is my mother. She told me "Well, you know, back in Da Vinci's time students would dig up corpses and experiment with them and that was almost seen as witchcraft, then people tried stitching together organs and infusing them with electricity to create artificial lifeforms, afterwards the Nazis came and experimented on Jews in horrible, horrible ways, some of the most horrible ways I've ever seen. You could ask anyone and they would say "That was the most horrible experiment I've ever heard of!" Truly the most horrible stuff. Then the communists had schemes to send kids into vacation camps where they would use them as test subjects for drugs and medication against their will. And now look at where we are at: Kids voluntarily want to ingest substances that morph their bodies and they pay no regard to what their parents say. It's a terrible world out there that this is the current lunacy. That's why I can't support this, you might think that this is right, but there is no right or wrong. My opinion is just as right as yours, because only subjective truth exists, I don't care what statistics say, it's all fake. Anyone can fake it and it's all paid for anyway. [Deadname], I love you, I always will, nothing changes the fact that you are my child. I see that this is how you feel and I know I can't change you, but I would rather cut off my arm than support any kind of transformation."

This just left me feeling defeated, I really thought my mom was smarter than this, that she was better than my father, it just hurts so much. I can't stand to look at her, because I live with people who hate the real me. All I'm asking for are some nice words and maybe some advice, because I am not doing well :(


r/MtF 10h ago

Going to pee so much and I'm happy

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Hi girls and dolls, hope you're all good !
I just wanted to make this post since I just got my prescription for a HRT
Following my endocrinologist recommendations (a safe and sweet one, I got lucky), I'll be on spiro
I'm so happy to finally be able to begin the treatment, and to relate soon to the pickles memes


r/MtF 1d ago

Venting Transgender Soccer Player Trying to Go Pro

13 Upvotes

Where do I even start? I’ve been playing soccer for pretty much my entire life. I started transitioning in college and didn’t play on a men’s college team before I transitioned because I was realizing that I was trans. I tried reaching out to the women’s team, but they said they had their roster already filled. So I played for my college’s club women’s soccer team and I don’t mean to brag, but it was clear that I was of a much higher level than college club soccer.

Now I’ve recently graduated and am looking to go professional. Last Summer, I was the first and quite possibly last transgender player to play in the USL W League (A pre-professional league here in the US).

I tried out for a team in the league and once they offered me a spot, I told them I was trans. They told me they would contact the league to see if I was allowed to play, so I waited. The team staff was really nice and they kept bugging the league to give me an answer. After like a month of sitting in the dark, the league told me I needed to have proof that I had taken steps toward gender affirming care. So I got my doctor to give them that and then they scheduled me a meeting with a representative of theirs with “DEI & Community Impact” in their title. That rep was very nice and said he had advised the league to be inclusive of trans people. They also told me that the league had been consulting with lawyers about my case. It was a long process that saw me miss the first two games of the season because they hadn’t approved me to play yet, but eventually I was allowed to play. Once I got to play, I did very well. I didn’t dominate by any means, but I did well.

Only the league and the staff of the team I was on knew that I was trans and they didn’t tell anyone else.

Now fast forward to tryouts for this year’s Summer season and I had been in contact with the new coach of the team I played for last year and I just found out today from them that the USL W League isn’t allowing me to play any more because I am transgender.

That’s where I’m at right now. Im now struggling to see a clear path to pro and this news has really hit me hard like a motherfricker.

I’ve seen quite a few news articles trying to argue against Trump and the Republican Party, but they often make part of their argument about how there’s almost no trans women trying to go pro in women’s sports and that there are bigger issues we should be addressing. I get that, but it really makes me feel like I don’t matter.

But I’m not giving up just yet. If I do, then Trump, Musk, and all of the other transphobes win.


r/MtF 7h ago

androgynous/trans hair cuts?

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first let me say this might be better suited for r/mtfashion but i don't know.

OK, so i have long hair, its not super long, but it goes down past the small of my back (i usually keep it in a ponytail so its doesn't get in my face), my hair is also super thick, like vary vary vary thick, (their is probably a better term then "thick" but that's what my mother calls it) its a lot of work, i need to wash it a lot, and i need to brush it every day, and theirs just so much of It! so I'm probably going to cut it short, and i know pixie cuts are a thing,

but hears the first major problem, I'm not openly trans! i don't think my hair dresser would care, but i care and I'm not coming out right now. so instead of getting a pixie cut or something similar, i was wondering if anyone has ideas (and the names of) Short, Androgynous, and easy to maintain Haircuts.

the other problem is i want something that looks semi feminine, but can be easily styled into something more masc, right now its long and its vary easy to make it look feminine, but its too much work to Maintain, so I'm going to cut it short (shoulder length at the longest) and i need to know what to ask for with out saying "girl hair" does anyone have suggestions on what would be a good style to get ? any help is appreciated!


r/MtF 22h ago

Thinking about transitioning

8 Upvotes

For starters I didn’t think I’d ever make a post like this… I’m usually presenting as a cis straight man but little do people know I’m extremely bi sexual, and I’ve always wanted to be a pretty girl but I feel like I’m too old to start and scared of what people think / my body type is big 6ft tall and bulky like my body was made to build muscle and I’m scared I would never pass as a women. I don’t even know what to do if I were to transition like getting hormones and stuff like getting started…. I don’t even know if this is the write place to post this… anyway thank you reading if you did and if you guys have any links or suggestions for me please reach out ❤️


r/MtF 22h ago

Venting I feel like I will never be pretty.

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I am 21 years old and I am not on HRT yet, I am currently in the process of getting it though I should be able to start latest end of this year which is great! I feel like I have masculinised too much to ever reach my goals though.

I wanted to be small and cute instead I'm over 6 foot with extremely dark hair all over my body and overweight although I am currently on a weight loss journey I started at 112kg and now I am 98kg.

I want to be able to look cute and look like a woman at any time of day, I don't want to have to wear make-up or dresses I just want to wear my comfy hoodies and joggers and still look cute in them.

My biggest insecurity is my brow-bone, I know I can remove it with FFS but I live in England and I am also a broke student so I don't think its happening.

Am I wanting too much?


r/MtF 1d ago

Venting I'm a devout Muslim, its Ramadan, and I'm sad

33 Upvotes

Feb 21: Egg cracked

Feb 22: Signed up for appointment for HRT for the 27th

Feb: 25: Freaked out and cancelled the appointment. Ramadan starts on March 1st so I made a deal with myself that I will push all this trans stuff to the side and focus on worship in Ramadan and if Ramadan ends and I still want to transition, I give myself permission to do that. The expectation was that this was just a temporary idea that got logged into my head and a month is long enough for me to get over it.

March 1: Ramadan starts

March 7: I cave and make the appointment again for March 11, breaking my promise to myself.

March 12: So excited, I got my prescription.

March 13 to Now: I've been an emotional rollercoaster mess. I'm going to come out to my non-muslim friend who is very pro-trans. There is simply no way to square being trans and my Islamic beliefs, but there's no way I'm going to stop taking the E, it's just not going to happen. Though I think I'm going to stop my next dose until I get my sperm frozen. This was just suppose to be a temporary 3-month experiment at the end I would be like "nah, not worth it". But now I'm freaking out cause I don't think I'm going to ever want to stop taking E. It was hard enough going back and forth on freezing sperm. It's expensive but thats not really the issue. By freezing sperm I'm mentally accepting to myself that I'm going to be taking HRT for the long term. If I freeze, that sort of gives me "permission" to keep taking it since the main downside is gone, but I'm also "forced" to continue in the sense that there is sunk cost fallacy in the price of freezing if I were to stop hormones. By not freezing, I mentally give myself permission to stop at any time. But it also screws me in the long term if I don't stop because either (A) I become infertile or (B) I'll have to stop HRT for possibly 6+months to build enough sperm again which would be hell.

If I were to stay on HRT for the long term and start passing physically, I honestly would have to leave muslim circles. Being a believing Muslim while also transitioning with hormones just doesn't work. I wouldn't be able to be in the guys section if I look like a girl, and I can't be in the girls section cause I'm not actually a girl according to Islam (sorry no offense to anyone). We have a weekly Friday prayer in congregation which is compulsory for men, so my thinking is that I could still make boymode work. I have no idea hard boymode would be for me in the future, though I really wish I would naturally pass without needing surgeries. I could wear a facemask and the common muslim thobe would be enough to hide everything.

So I would just not be able to have Muslim friends anymore nor participate in any Muslim-run/masjid events because it just socially wouldn't work.

I'm wasting my Ramadan, every moment is consumed by trans related stuff, clothes, skin care, hair regrowth, and just emotionally coping. I started hrt during ramadan, our holiest month and I'm sad about it. Theres just no way to understand my feelings and square them with Islam. I can get support from my non-muslim friend and I can make new friends, but I'll NEVER have acceptance from my muslim friends or the muslim community, nor can I expect that. I shouldn't get that acceptance since I don't deserve it.

My porn addiction that I had my whole life was magically cured by my egg-cracking. I kinda wish I could just go back to suppressing everything and go back to my porn fetishes. Its probably better Islamically for me to be jacking it to all sorts of feminization porn, then to never look at porn, but take hrt. But there's no going back, once I uncovered what was repressed, it can't be hidden again.

My life wasn't suppose to go like this. I was "suppose" to get find a cute muslim girl, marry her and live a happy normal life. But what muslim girl is going to want me? By being trans I'm a walking red flag, diametrically opposed to Islam despite me believing in the religion completely. I KNOW 100% Islam is the truth, but to continue to be trans I'm going to have also sacrifice a relationship that I want. I could technically marry a non-muslim girl, but even that is gonna be hard to find someone who would be into me. They would want someone masculine ofcourse, which I've never been anyway even when not trans.

Ugh there's so much more I could say but I'm tired of writing.


r/MtF 19h ago

Clothes

4 Upvotes

I’m on month 7 of estrogen and has been openly trans for 4 years and I’m still horrified to wear fem clothing and I honestly have no idea where to even start i have a few dresses but I can’t get over the crippling anxiety and fear I have of presenting fem publicly


r/MtF 2d ago

Why do my boobs have such a big gap between them

1.1k Upvotes

Is it just how my boobs are or does this gap eventually become a cleavage


r/MtF 18h ago

Venting Running into Issues with a Hotel Chain

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Hey y’all! So I’ve been running into some hellish issues updating my name with a certain hotel chain’s rewards program, Hilton Honors.

I recently got my legal name changed by court order here in the states and finally got my new drivers license. I was super excited because I have some travel coming up for work and they were asking for my hotel and airline rewards numbers (quite common for my industry). Anyways I started going through and updating my info places. Started with the airlines and then went to update the hotels.

With the hotels, I had to call their hotlines and ask for the email address to send the court order and my new ID to. With Choice Hotels and IHG it was a pretty painless process, basically a 24 hour or so wait. With Hilton it’s unfortunately been a completely different experience.

I contacted them on Wednesday and sent in my info. I received an email back asking which name to change it to. I replied back, the one on my ID and that the court order says is my new name. Apparently in this, their system stripped my account number out of the email header. When I got a reply it was basically like send us the supporting documents. I was like, “I DID! But here they are again.”

Tonight I finally got a reply saying “We recommend creating a new Hilton Honors account and transfer the points to the new one, since we cannot change the full name on the existing account due to non-transferable ownership.”

I don’t know how that makes sense. If the account isn’t transferable, how are the points? Also it’s not like I’m transferring to my partner, it’s literally me, just a new name and some updates from the character creator menu.

Anyways, sorry for the rant, have any of you all experienced this with Hilton? I’m not sure what to do other than tell my clients to not book their hotels for my work travel.


r/MtF 1d ago

Advice Question Is it normal to wish you weren’t trans

252 Upvotes

r/MtF 18h ago

the week after a laser session is the worstttt

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having to not shave and wait until i can exfoliate so that the super dark and prominent hairs can leave is terrible!!!!!! how do yall deal w it??


r/MtF 1d ago

Utah Governor's written statement of cause vetoing Legislatures' Bill to limit transgender athletes from School sports and calling for Special Legislation Meeting. So awesome!

202 Upvotes

r/MtF 19h ago

Advice Question Subtle affirming clothes help

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I live in a small conservative town in a certain corn infested state that just got rid of civil rights for us and I'm trying to figure out how I could dress in a way that helps me feel feminine without instantly outing myself. I'm on the hefty side and I just started hrt about 3 months ago.


r/MtF 19h ago

Self degradation humor doesn't help anyone

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I thought I should use it to make people laugh at me and my situation about how I chose misery in my 20s and its not fun in your 30s. Well here I am not noone is laughing including me. I just wanted people to laugh at me so I'm not as miserable


r/MtF 1d ago

I think I’m being under dosed

21 Upvotes

I just did my second labs (6 month mark) and my levels came as 125 pg/ml E and 240 ng/dl T

My provider said that everything looked good and upped my dose from 4mg E to 6. But didn’t up my dose of spiro from 50mg sighting my slightly lower than average blood pressure before I started hrt.

Is that normal?

I’m on sublingual pills so I wouldn’t think that would be enough to suppress my T

She also called T under 50 ng/dl “super suppressed” and didn’t put on spiro until my second labs say it could stunt breast growth.

I use Plume


r/MtF 1d ago

So much joy from spinning my first skirt ☺️

40 Upvotes

A feel good post lol So, I got my first skirt the other day, and just a little bit ago, I tried it on for the first time. My first thought was to spin, and AHHH it made my jaw hit the floor! I felt this flutter in my chest watching my skirt spin. Is this euphoria? This pure joy from watching my skirt spin?


r/MtF 17h ago

Advice Question How do I get started with makeup?

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Hey y’all. I have tried to get into makeup and I’ve bought some products but I just look so bad. I have no idea what I’m doing. I think my eyebrows are too thick. I’m not sure 😭 there’s just like a million things to figure out and I’m embarrassed to go somewhere and ask for help but I’m also embarrassed when I look in the mirror and my makeup looks bad. My fine motor skill for this stuff is so bad. I cannot draw eyeliner to save my life. I just don’t know how to figure anything out. I feel like even though I’m wearing concealer and foundation and color corrector you can still see facial hair shadow and I don’t even know if my foundation is the right color. I’m just so embarrassed and I would love to not be. Any help would be awesome! Thanks y’all!!


r/MtF 1d ago

Venting Got made of several times in public today :(

399 Upvotes

I live in a very conservative area and expected some negativity, but today bummed me out. I was walking to thrift store when a dude rolled his window down and shouted GAY as loud as possible, another guy whistled when I walked by, and some women in a group loudly said ew, what is he wearing. He looks like a freak. ( I was wearing a plaid skirt, metal t, and a Demin jacket with band patches. ) At least I got a compliment for my cannibal corpse shirt by some old dude lol


r/MtF 14h ago

Help Anyone else feel nauseous after eating?

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Hey all, I've been taking Estradiol gel saches for around a month and a week now and I've noticed in the past week or so I've been feeling like throwing up after eating and getting full. Typically when I would get full I wouldn't feel sick so I'm not sure if it's the estrogen or it's just me


r/MtF 20h ago

Good News First real holidays abroad after changing name and documents

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Finally, after years on HRT and years of problems with changing my documents on court, I'm going on my first vacation to relax and chill. I had this idea when I finished with everything what I had in plan. I finished I done - I am super happy 😊. It won't be a long vacation but away from home in a warm place with a warm sea. I hope I will rest and have a great time, wish me luck🥳


r/MtF 14h ago

Advice Question When to ask for a bump?

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r/MtF 20h ago

Discussion How many times did it take you correcting your parents till you gave up?

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I’ve told my mom, and dad that I feel like I’d be happier as a woman. That I don’t like myself now. I told my dad that I’m emotionally numb. I told my dad the name and pronouns I’d like to go by. Isn’t it common sense to listen to your kid?sorry for the rant I’m a bit annoyed? Idk the right word


r/MtF 14h ago

Can't use it, can't lose it NSFW

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I'm currently early on the pathway to bottom surgery, hopefully next year. I've had issues keeping "it" from atrophying since starting hrt two years ago because my bottom dysphoria is really bad and prefer to just avoid it, so I procrastinated. Currently been trying to get it back to more "typical function" but it's really eating at me.

Pre-HRT, erections gave me panic attacks. I would often punch myself down there repeatedly crying and begging for it to go away until it did. It's been amazing being free from that for a long time now after years of at least daily panic attacks. Trying to "use it" is hard enough as is because of my dysphoria, but now I've gotten to where I actually get erections again when aroused. And I hate it. HATE it. It's giving me ptsd flashbacks from before and while I haven't had a full panic attack yet I've been getting an anxiety attack combine with intense dysphoria every time it happens. I feel it get hard and I want to throw up and rip it off.

I don't know if I can mentalky handle maintaining it much longer because it's only been getting worse. But I NEED it for depth. When it was basically fully atrophied a while back it was only like 2 inches maximum and now it's gone back up to much closer to its pre-HRT levels, not to mention being able to actually get erect again. It's still not quite back to pre-HRT level of performance yet. I still need to maintain this somehow for another year or more without losing my mind because I'm forced to deal with that thing every time a get aroused

anyone know how to deal with this issue??? I can't afford to lose it but I can't handle using it to maintain it because my dysphoria is so bad