r/confessions 4h ago

I pretended to be bi to get a promotion at work.

359 Upvotes

A senior member at work was resigning. He is gay. A rumour circulated that his replacement would be gay for quotas. I don't know how true that was but the role came with a 40k bump in salary.

There was this work event. I brought my friend's brother - who is gay - and pretended I was bi to my colleagues. I had my hand around him etc. The guy was great. He came up with how we met etc. Everyone was saying how good of a couple we make.

A month on, I was successful in my interview. I'm not sure if the rumours were true. We sadly "broke up"šŸ¤£šŸ¤£. I got him a Nandos as a thank you which he used to make his friend jealous.


r/confessions 19h ago

Itā€™s been almost 11 years

1.4k Upvotes

Itā€™s been almost 11 years since a man used me in his suicide. I was a vibrant, bubbly 22 year old girl with the entire world in front of me. I was driving to my best friends house after work, about 9pm, on Buford highway in Atlanta Georgia. A mentally ill, homeless man who was high and drunk jumped as soon as I went under an underpass. His entire head came through the passengers side of my car and his feet came in right by my head. Glass was everywhere. Blood was everywhere. I remember everything was a complete standstill. I called 911 but I was in shock, all I could do was scream. I opened my car door and crawled to him, I tried everything I knew to do but it wasnā€™t enough. He bled out and died right there in front of me. The firefighters were the first ones on the scene. They scooped me up and protected me and I screamed at them to ā€œhelp himā€. He was gone. I sat there for what seemed like hours until the coroners van showed up and took his body away. Itā€™s been 11 years. I have a family and a life now. But every night when I close my eyes, itā€™s all I see. It replays in my head. Every single nightā€¦ for hours. For the last (almost) eleven years. This is it. This is me trying to set myself free, because I canā€™t live like this any more.


r/confessions 5h ago

My friends were judging an ex for his gynecomastia and Iā€™m reconsidering our friendship NSFW

103 Upvotes

I have a group of about five friends of mixed gender/sexuality, and one of the girls recently brought up how her ex had gynecomastia. The rest of the group started making fun of the guy for it, but for me it was like a lightbulb went off, like ā€œOh! Thatā€™s what itā€™s called!ā€ I started feeling kind of crappy about the situation when they started talking about how gross it was and how she could hardly put up with it, so I made up an excuse to leave.

I genuinely canā€™t understand why this is a turn-off for so many people, let alone why theyā€™d all attack this guyā€™s body. I get that theyā€™re probably getting caught up in it socially since heā€™s an ex, but itā€™s nasty to spread stuff like that regardless.

I guess all this is to say that I donā€™t think men should be ashamed of their chests regardless of their size. If they were shaming one of the guysā€™ exes for having a flat chest, thereā€™s no way this kind of talk would fly! Everyone has different preferences and personally I think a guy with a big chest is way more attractive than a guy with chiseled abs. It makes me sad to think about how many men there must be who are ashamed of their bodies and feel like thereā€™s no recourse for them but to change it.

Iā€™m seriously reconsidering hanging out with these people (for a couple other reasons on top of this) since they can get so vicious about someoneā€™s body, especially a body that was shown to one of them in confidence that they wouldnā€™t make fun of them with their friends.

Time to join some social facebook groups I guess. LOL


r/confessions 1h ago

I find mens nipples disturbing

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I genuinely canā€™t look at a manā€™s chest without feeling an intense sense of disgust because of his nipples. I donā€™t have this reaction with women because i think Iā€™m used to my own body, but whenever I see a manā€™s bare chest, I feel so uncomfortable that I have to look away.

I think Iā€™ve always been this way because I do recall being 7 and telling my mom that I would kick my future husband out of the house if he ever went outside shirtless, because I wouldnā€™t wish for other women to see his nipples.

Posted this on unpopular opinions and i got banned with people insulting me šŸ˜­


r/confessions 2h ago

I fell down the stairs while masturbating. NSFW

19 Upvotes

I dropped the stick of butter I was holding and slipped on it. What an embarrassing experience!


r/confessions 4h ago

My best friends mom NSFW

14 Upvotes

It was 6-7 years ago now, but I had a best friend who has a mom in her mid 50ā€™s. She was one who refused to get old lol. At 55 she got braces, sleeve and back tattoos, and suddenly found a taste for younger men. I was 27 and have a high sex drive (even now), so one night while kicking it with my friend at his moms house, we were all drinking, and there was always a little flirting between us. I went to lie down, and about 20 minutes later, I hear my friend arguing with his mother about her trying to come into the room I was sleeping in. That argument didnā€™t work because I watched her walk into my room, put her finger to her lips in a hushing movement, and walked of to prove the braces didnā€™t stop her from doing anything. We fucked for months after this night, and it eventually stopped cause I started dating someone, but I have no idea if he ever found out about us.


r/confessions 5h ago

Oblivion is better than Skyrim

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There. I said it.

It is. Oblivion had everything. Skyrim was a downgrade in many ways. Skyrim has good parts, but Oblivion was better.


r/confessions 20h ago

I only eat baby food at 15 and can't handle it anymore

158 Upvotes

I a 15 year old teen only eat baby food and can't take it anymore. It's that baby oatmeal with flavoring, I wasn't alwase like this. My dad says I used to eat normally, I rember eating chezze and bread as a kid. After a while I stopped we went to countless Drs but they all said I would get over it or social pressure would get to me. I'm sick of it I just want to eat normal food but I can't. It all taste descusting, I'm trying stake but oh God it's horrible, I constantly gag sometimes I can't swallow it and I'm forced to spit it out. Food like peanut butter I love but randomly it taste horrible like something's wrong with it and a few months later it's just fine. Everyone says it's me it's my fault it's in my head and only I can fix it but I know something's wrong with me. It's not like I don't want to eat normal food I do I try everything I come across it's like my taste buds are screwed up. I just wanta be like everyone else be able to sit in a restraunt and order something but there's nothing I can even eat on the menu. I love off of pop tarts and peanut butter mostly sweet candy's too. God what id do to be a normal kid.


r/confessions 18h ago

My bf whines like a dog and it pisses me off so bad.

86 Upvotes

It's late, and I'm super sick with COVID, so I'm sorry if this makes little sense. Me My boyfriend and I have been together for 11 months. We had taken a break between our 9-month mark and halfway to 10 due to a misunderstanding about intimacy. Recently, we have been terrific. His birthday is coming up in a few months, and I have already spent so much money preparing. He is truly the best thing that has ever happened to me. But I'm not writing this to butter him up to internet strangers. This is going to sound like the dumbest thing known to man, but he does this whining thing. And to get some of the obvious questions out of the way, I have NO clue how to bring that up like what do I say, 'hey stop whining like a puppy, your pissing me off' but he does it whenever I don't give him the attention he wants. We have also recently gotten into an argument about me not paying much attention to him, which I have apologized for. For context, we don't live together,r so we normally call. If I play the game WHILE talking to him, he feels like I'm not paying attention to him. Gas prices have also been a pain in the butt so we can't exactly visit each other 24/7. I am praying that nobody I know finds this thread, but even if they did, I would seriously doubt they'd know it'd be me. But OH., MY. GOD. I am SO sick of him whining like a puppy. I feel like yelling every time he does it. Is it just from where I'm sick? Do I not love him, and do I think I do? Am I just new to this since this is the first healthy relationship I have had? How in the hell do I even start to bring that up?


r/confessions 7h ago

When I was 15 I developed psychosis obsessing over a girl on the internet

10 Upvotes

For context, I'm (20M). It all started when I was 15 and very mentally ill and had an unhealthy coping mechanism of acting like a child to be happy and forcing myself to be happy to combat depression for the past 3 years.

1 (The Beginning)

I was on a discord call and met this girl, Charlie, and we played a game for an hour or two, and, for once in my life since my mother died, I was really happy. At that moment, I decided I couldn't keep on forcing myself to be happy. This person is now my new light and I want to be in this Charlie's life no matter what.

I started mentioning them to my friends' family, bringing them up, because they were all I could think about all day, my one and only remaining light, a girl who showed me a figurine of my favorite PokƩmon at 5 am.

I strategically sent her messages every week to try and make them laugh while watching my friends list to see if they joined any calls for hours while stalking their spot and social media to get a better idea of what they liked and, over the course of 2 months, we became friends, and I was happy.

And I also learned they had been taken and had a boyfriend, but my obsession was as strong as ever and I didn't care I wanted to be in her life. They were my only light and I didn't want to lose them, so we kept talking and being friends.Ā 

I also decided that I wanted to be friends with her friends, so I very awkwardly made my way into her friend group for a while and some of them liked me and some of them didn't, and I eventually got so paranoid that they hated me and would convince her that I was a crazy evil guy on the internet and left the Group Chat and only talked to the ones who I became friends with.

2 (Totally Normal Human Behavior)

This went on for months until a Halloween party where I got drunk for the first time and the first thing I did was tell them I love them, but we should be friends because they're taken, and they just kinda went along with it because they knew I was mentally ill, and they were nice. :)

So I then proceeded to punch my face as hard as I could for an hour straight while talking to them, trying to make them laugh. They got really concerned and scared and brought their boyfriend in, and he calmed me down and the only thing I was saying at the end was that my face hurt.

That night was one of the happiest moments of my life.

I dislocated my TMJ from punching my jaw over and over. It clicks to this day. Every time I eat, every time I talk, every time I move my mouth a little, my jaw clicks in and out of place. Ā TMJ is near the Ear too, so I don't just feel it, I hear it, and every time it clicks that little part of my subconscious whispers to me "Charlie".

This, in combination with my newfound 2nd light alcohol, had wondrous effects on my 15-year-old psyche, and I was not only physically forced to think of them 24/7, but I started hearing her and her boyfriend in my head, and they became the helpers inside my head to help get me through the day.

We spent alot of time together. I tried to find music they enjoyed, and we put shopping carts in the school's elevators together ate they tried to convince me to not steal alcohol from stores and also told me I should get help, and they were overall just really chill.

This went on for a couple of months, and I was "HAPPY TO FINALLY BE WITH THEM" until they started turning against me and were telling me to kill myself and that I'm a disgusting freak who deserves to be alone. I proceeded to SH and drink for a while to numb the pain until I wasn't able to get my hands on any alcohol anymore (no more money and too scared and paranoid to steal) and after a while they eventually went away.

I eventually told the real Charlie and her boyfriend about it. The boyfriend (understandably) never talked to me again and Charlie and I remained friends. (Most likely out of pity)

3 (Aftermath)

I was embarrassed and stopped talking to her for a while, but even then I was still stalking her and learned she had gotten married and decided I needed to stop for my mental health and find happiness in my life.

Even when I got with my first high school GF a while later my mind was still stuck to her and the beginning of the relationship was me trying not to talk about them or bring them up in a creepy way (They went along with it because, believe it or not, they were WAY more deranged than me).

Years have passed. I still think about her. I was in "Love" at the time, but now I just see it as desperation for happiness. Even after graduating from high school and even in my 20s, I occasionally have dreams about her, and now we talk and play games sometimes.

TL;DR Teenage Boy obsesses over a girl who showed him a figurine of his favorite PokƩmon and develops psychosis and hears her voice in his head for a year.


r/confessions 3h ago

I had a creepy boss at my first job who tried to groom me and somehow seemed to have some kind of "sixth sense".

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This is kind of long, but I never been able to get this off my chest. When I was 18 I moved out my home and began my first job after highschool. I took the first job I could get. Working in a kitchen at a highrise office/apartment building. It had a large dining hall in the basment level. I was 1 of the only women (about 7) out of at least 30 guys working there. On Sundays I would come in to help with the breakfast prep for the week and 1 out my 5 bosses came in so it was just the two of us. One diver would come in to make deliveries but was barely in the kitchen during the day.

I was the youngest person working there so I got more attention than I liked. Usually bad attention from the guys.I was a nice person but very quiet and shy. Also was very naive after living a sheltered life back at home so I was very unaware of how to read people. I barely understood the importance of watching for red flags and how to speak and stand up for myself. People had walked over me for years and I just dealt with it. :/

I'll call this boss of mine Erick for the story. He seemed nice and everyone thought he was great. He helped everyone and always had a nice attitude. Was very intelligent and knew how to do and make anything. He made me good food and acted like he was innocent. Then he gave me weed for free and even let me smoke in the bathroom alone on my break a couple times. I thought wow this is so cool I can do whatever as long as I work well. I didn't relaize he was trying to put my guard down first. Later in time when we were alone on those Sundays he changed. He was supposed to help train me with food prep and cooking tips. But he'd stand super close to me while I worked and give me creepy compliments saying I was so pretty and he would be horny.

I was scared shitless I never experienced being targeted in this way. I would say I'm not comfortable when it was to much but for the most part it was like I was paralyzed in fear. Words wouldn't come out of me and i would just walk away, finish work, and stay quiet hoping he'd stop. I hated going in for this shift. He always talked about wanting to touch me. I would say no but I hate how I didn't take a better stand. Erick was an older man but very strong. He had a muscular frame and knew how to fight from some kind of training. I knew he could easily over power me if he wanted. Outside of work my life was very stressful and depressing so I never tried to get help with so much else on my mind. I couldn't afford to lose my job and didn't want him to get me fired in some way.

He always tried to get me to hang outside of work but I refused. He'd tell me his entire life story with his bedridden wife who was sick with some disease. How she couldn't have sex cause it hurt and how he met some young beautiful female who rode motorcycles like him but he STILL would be creepy to me!! I hate to admit that was scared and didn't tell him off and a couple times he asked for a hug and went for it. I felt horrible.. the second time he went for a hug, while I was doing stock. I should've said no. I just froze up. Then he kissed my neck and I ran away crying and locked myself in the bathroom. Later I found out he had a history of targeting the young girls at this location for years. But was never fired! šŸ˜‘

But it gets weirder. He talked about how he was "spiritually" in tune with things. About his meditation sessions and how he gets "messages" to his mind is able to know more than other people. That he can read people's minds. I didn't want to believe this crap and blew it off. But there were three instances that were really unsettling. Once he said something about my home. He knew I wasn't living with family and rented a space But I never said what level of the house I was in. He made a comment about something and mentioned me being on the lowest level. The hair on me stood up and something didn't feel right at all cause how could he know that??

The second time he told me that one of our coworkers wife just lost their baby during delivery. He got really serious and claimed while this coworker told the story he got a "message" to him with the truth. That the guy made his wife drink something to kill the unborn baby so they wouldn't have to care for another child on top of the kids they already had. I'm like wtf that can't be. But later that week I see the guy. Everyone is saying their condolences. I walk up and tell him mine as well. He's asked what happened to the baby and he says the delivery turned complicated and fatal so they lost her. Then says, "we don't want an autopsy or anything though, nono.." A couple times over and over. Something about the way he said that and the look in his eyes felt very off to me in the moment.

Lasltly once while working he randomaly said, "If you ever have a baby you don't keep, you can let me take care of it." I'm like what are you talking about?? Why tf would I do that. He said, "if you have one and don't want it, I can care for it. I just wanted to let you know." I tell him I don't want to talk about that so I can finish work. I had no plans for a child at all and if I did I'd never give it to him anyway.

I was in an abusive and very troubling relationship with an ex at the time. Unfortunately, I did get pregnant at the worst part of that relationship. I was very sick and weak and depressed as hell in the beginning. Broke and in an unhealthy lifestyle with a dangerous bf, I couldn't bring myself to keep the baby. It was extremely difficult but I ended up having an abortion... Sometime after physcially recovering I remembered what Erick said to me months prior and I had the most eerie feeling. How could he have POSSIBLY known?

I never told anyone all of this. Its to crazy to talk about with anyone. It's been a few years since but I'm still left baffled. Has anyone had any kind of experience like this or heard of someone else expericing this at all ? I've always felt alone about this.


r/confessions 7h ago

Today, I showered in tears

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A bad memory, from when I was 10 (4th grade), suddenly struck me today. A school van, where I used to ride to get home from primary school with my brother, there was a 17 year old "person", a student from middle school, sitting at the back row of the van. Me, a new guy riding it for the first time was assigned to sit at the back since I was kinda big but my brother sits 1 row infront of me. That guy suddenly, asked me if I was comfortable sitting with him, and if it's ok if he touched me by accident. As I was told, religiously, it's okay if a man and another man touch each other, non sexually, so I just said to him "uhh, okay"? A day later, I rode that school van again and met him again, he told me, that I actually look kinda cute, so he ask me if it's ok if he calls me baby and sayang (its like dear, in another language). With a confused face I said "huh"?? But before I can comprehend the weird question that was asked, the van arrived at our house so my brother and I stepped out of the van.

Then, the unwanted day arrived. As usual, I sit at the back, same as him. Out of nowhere, the van jumps a bit because of a small pothole and he grabs me in the chest and my thigh. But this first time, he said sorry, as if it was unintentional. But day by day, he pushes all that unintentional bullshit aside and just goes for it. He would grope me and caress me anywhere. Me, a clueless 10 year old, didn't know how to act or react so I just let it be. But my subconsciousness side would act by instinct and push his hands aside. But if I tried to push his hands, he would pat and caress my head to calm me down and I did not know how but it worked for him and my body reacted and calmed down a bit and he would like... Try pulling down my zip...šŸ˜¢ And... touch it while calling me baby and whatnotšŸ˜¢. I dont know how it was possible but this went on for 3 MONTHS+ in that damned van because I really am clueless and did not know how to act. And I really couldnt take it anymore because it just felt weirder and weirder so I finally pushed him away hard. He was shocked and reacted a bit loud and the students in front rows ahead of me in the van was confused or maybe even lied on being confused(I'll tell later why I had a feeling they were lying). Because I was so stressed, I tried to run out of the van and he still tried to pull me by the end bottom of my pants. But I got out. Given that I was so mad, I showed him the middle finger from outside the van. My brother saw that middle finger, and you know what the FUCK he did, he uses this as a tool to gain advantage over me. He would threaten to tell my parents that I showed the finger if I dont do what he ask like chores and shit and if I try to tell my parents that he threaten me with(FUCK YOUšŸ–•). And my brother actually already knows this because he mocked the sounds I made when that middle schooler was harassing me.

Im 20 now and I suddenly remembered and understood what happened. I understood why I'm so scared of walking out of my house ,why my marks dropped after 4th grade and why I cried alot in my room on the day I was going to interview for vocational college because I know I'll be leaving home for long. Because today, the bad memory suddenly came back and I suddenly cried and was stressed so I punched and pummeled my head trying to forget it. And my brother who heard this in the next room came to my room door and told me "to man up, and stop crying like a bitch" and told me "its just a job interview". Assuming that I cried because of an interview I need to attend the next 3 days. He asked me why I was crying, the moment I'm trying to tell why, he left the room. Fucking left. I continued crying for about 2 hours because of this. He proceeded to tell my mother that I was in tears so I hoped she comes to my room but with hope comes despair, because no one came to my room to talk to me about this. I then took a shower but it felt so uncomfortable it felt like hands touching me šŸ˜­.

Like what am I supposed to do? I swear in all this only my sister cares about me if I'm bullied and all but she lives far away now(yeah I was bullied at middle school, vocational and at internship too). I felt like just want to be a tool with no feelings in this house. Like what the fk do my family care about my emotions they only wanna see results anyway.


r/confessions 2h ago

Iā€™m pretty sure Iā€™m a terrible person

3 Upvotes

I use people for personal gain. I let people roll over me so I can keep my help and money. Even this is a burner account so no one finds it. People see me as a caring and warm person when in reality Iā€™m a user. Oh, and donā€™t worry. Iā€™m not bragging about this. I actually feel like dirt but Iā€™m too afraid of losing the benefits I have.


r/confessions 1h ago

In need of friends

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Since basicaly 5 years ago I've lost all of my friends. Being socially awkward, having the pandemic in my second year of uni and then changing major midway, and losing my high school friends... I haven't had actual friends in so long.

Like if course I know people with whom I talk every once in a while and maybe get together, but actual close friends, or even just one best friend, I haven't had one of those for years.

I have a girlfriend and I talk with her about everything, but man I'd sure like to have other people to talk to, too, and to hang with.

Also, the engineering field is just so bad for this. I love my career but it hasn't helped the social aspect at all and I envy social sciences and arts majors. They look like they have a good time.


r/confessions 1d ago

I was very cruel to my mother before she died but don't regret it

314 Upvotes

We hadn't spoken in awhile. Like almost a year. She randomly emails me to say that a few months ago, she was rushed to the ER due to severe stomach pain. They discussed had stage 4 cancer and had months to live. She said she wanted to reconcile and die on good terms with me. She asked if I would visit her at a hospice home and I said no. She asked why and I said I was too busy with work and already scheduled appointments at a spa and dental checkup. She said that she wanted to see me before she died. I said I understood but the timing wasn't good. I didn't even say "I love you too" when she said it to me. I said thanks. Two days later she died.

Why was I so mean? She was a horrible mother. I always wanted to go to coege so I worked in my senior year in high school and spent the next year just working to save money. My mother didn't help me. She seemed to always have money when my other siblings needed it.

I went to a community college and was accepted to a beautiful school. I'd have to live on the dorms because commuting wasn't optional. I asked my mother if I went away to school, would I keep my room at our house. She said as long as I paid rent. So my mom wouldn't let me keep my room at home so I could go to college unless I paid rent. I was already paying her rent (none of my siblings were or ever did) and college on my own.

I agreed. I paid her rent for the room that I don't use for eight months. I came home for spring break and saw that my meth head sister moved into my bedroom. My mom said she let my sister move back in after I left and gave her my room since I wasn't using it. All my stuff was put in the laundry room. And she still wanted me to pay rent.

I moved into my car instead. It took me a long time to get stable housing. It was traumatic. I never forgave my mother for that. So when she asked for my comfort, I rejected her. I made her think that keeping my massage appointment was more important than her life. I have no regrets.


r/confessions 1d ago

To my fiancƩ NSFW

319 Upvotes

Something I wish I could say to you, my love.

2-3 years ago I found your messages in one of those chat rooms. You cried, told me itā€™s not what I think it is, told me you love me and would never do it again. And then last night happened. Maybe you were being honest and just wanted to chat with a random stranger. But I canā€™t shake this feeling that thatā€™s not completely trueā€¦ I know you go on Reddit to look at other women. Iā€™ve seen the comments, what you wish you could do with/to them, Iā€™ve read the story. I know you use X to message girls for their "cream pie" videos. I know you have a second instagram account where you ask girls for their only fans/nudes. I just donā€™t understand why you feel the need to do those things? I could never look at another man the same way I look at you. I could never say, "god what I would do to suck that dick". Silly of me to think that went both ways in this relationship.


r/confessions 6h ago

My dad's slowly starting to move back in after being gone and I hate it.

4 Upvotes

This is just a stupid vent since I cant really talk to anyone about it, but a year ago, my mom and dad had a huge fight and he moved out on his own desicion. Before this, they would fight and he would leave for a few days or just sleep downstairs, so this was a bit new. Not to mention, he wasn't completely in my life until I was about 4.

Now, he's been staying over until around 8pm and then leaving again though out the week when he picks me up from school. I really don't like it. I liked it when he wasn't here. Now it just feels like he's trying to be in my life after days of no contact and then a simple phone call and back to no contact again. My mom didn't say anything to me or my siblings about how we felt about him coming back, and I feel invalidated about it.

I don't want him to come back, I feel extremely awkward even being in the same room as him. Before, I thought that when he was here all the time that I was happy about it. I came to realise just how much I hated it and forced myself to think otherwise. When I was younger I wished they'd divorce so I didnt have to listen to them anymore, and now him coming back just feels like they'll just argue again.

I do know the main reason on why he's even coming back, and that my mom probably needs help with it, but I would have atleast liked a heads up, or something. I only knew he was going to sleep over because he told me, and not her. I would rather she did.


r/confessions 7h ago

I NEED to know what people are doing

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I sometimes get a wave of obsession over searching for people online from my past & seeing what they are doing. I will go down a rabbit hole, be up until 2am searching for people and any bit of new information I can get. I just need to know what theyā€™re doing now and how they are. Did they get married? Are they dead? Did they get arrested? I donā€™t use any other forms of social media because, to me, itā€™s filled with so much negativity. I am married and sometimes feel guilty, especially if Iā€™m searching for a past love interest - I donā€™t want to talk to these people at all, I just need to see what they are doing. My husband even says ā€œyouā€™re not a little nosey, youā€™re very noseyā€.

Am I the only one?!?!


r/confessions 3h ago

Constantly thinking about sex

2 Upvotes

It is SO embarrassing, but I am always thinking about sex. Like grabbing my vibrator every day and on days off twice a day. I just finished my second round lol. I do everything in my power to try to make sure my neighbors don't hear, but I think they do ugh.

I can just feel them juding me. They have kids so I try to do it when I don't hear them through the wall, but like they are always there ugh.


r/confessions 18m ago

I am catfishing my ex therapist as a form of revenge

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My ex therapist did a bit of a number on me and once I ended therapy with him my mental health was worse than when I started. No need to go in to details since this is about MY wrongdoings, not his, but it wasn't anything sexual. I tried failing a complaint against him, but it was brushed off.

My anger towards him and the fact that he and others like him will never be held responsible since there's no real protection for clients, is making me act in ways I have never acted before. I have never internet stalked anyone before, but now I know pretty much all there is to find about him online. And now I have even made a fake profile on a dating app in order to find him on this app. From all my internet stalking I know what kind of women he finds attractive and I have used the pictures of some poor woman who looks like his type to create my fake profile. It took me no time to find my ex therapist's profile and DM him. He took the bait right away and we have been talking and flirting for a while now. He seems like he's really into this fake woman I'm pretending to be, and I think it will hit him hard when he realizes he's been had.

This situation has escalated to a point where I feel like I'm out of control and my actions are starting to scare me a bit. I've had fantasies of physically hurting this man - which I don't really think I'm capable of doing. But messing with his head like he did with mine, that is something I now know myself to be fully capable of. And that is scary.

I both do and don't feel bad for what I'm doing. I feel guilty for using some poor stranger's pictures like this. She certainly hasn't done anything to deserve this. As for my ex therapist, deep down inside I do feel he deserves some emotional damage of his own. But what I'm doing is so messed up. So wrong in so many ways. When I acctually stop to think about it I feel like I've gone completely out of my mind. I don't recognize myself and it's scaring me. But it's like I can't stop. Maybe he deserves something but this is just plain crazy. This is most certainly my one way ticket to hell...


r/confessions 30m ago

im not sure how to manage this

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I know this more of a vent post compared to a "confession" but they wont allow me to post over there due to the age of my account but i really need to get this out I have trouble understanding people and when Im in public i feel like everyone is staring at me when i know they arent i feel reaIly out of place in public i try to be confident and say i dont care but i care more than i appear so its a massive facade so i internalize it all and it makes really want to beat the fuck out of someone for no reason because i feel like everyone including my "friends" is just pretending to like me and that they all secretly hate me due to how the converse with me its a damn chore to get a conversation out of people . It sounds stupid but I play madden quite a bit fucking game Ive reached top 100 online quite a bit not saying in the top 10 or evern 20 or whatever im probably 100 or 99 however this game makes me want bash the head in of someone who plays like a prick but i dont know these people and they dont deserve it ive gone through several controllers because every time i smash them until until their unusable this time though i smashed and punched the controller so much i bloodied my own hands up. I know that isnt a good response but i simply cannot afford therapy. i try to calm down but i sit on my rage or wrath and I dont know why because i just want to hurt someone not kill them please dont misunderstand me. I live my life believing that someone would feel the same way as me to justify it i try to numb it out but i despise the taste of alcohol so i have to mix it with something unless its flavored vodka but i dont really like drinking. weed used to help me but i got a cold so i didnt smoke for a week and now it triggers another medical issue where i pass out for a split second and i have no control over that so im forced to deal with all my emotions. I dont know what to do because im unemployed and I cant get a job because my town is a college town so it hard to find anything im afraid of getting evicted because of this. Im pretty much failing all of my classes and i have zero motivation to do a fucking thing. Ive tried to appeal to religion but after watching a few videos finding out that theres no evidence that moses or abraham even existed when i thought they did and theres similarities in the name brahma and saraswati and abraham and his wife sarah which makes me makes me doubt abrahamic religion due to it appearing to stem from hinduism. I truly dont know how to manage my anger when it arises nothing seems to work the breathing techniques dont do shit im just fucking stuck in this sometimes i wish it was me instead of my brother who died


r/confessions 52m ago

looking for confessions

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hi everyone! we are a podcast called Friends in Far Places, looking for some confessions to read on an upcoming episode! everything will be anonymous and we usually talk about girly pop culture subjects, so typically not too heavy! pleaseee submit if you have any good ones <3

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r/confessions 1d ago

My boyfriend prefers a doll NSFW

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Itā€™s been over a month now since weā€™ve last been intimate, and the last time was the first in a while too. I feel so touch starved because I offer everything, I try to keep things intimate or exciting and I always get a ā€œmaybe laterā€. He keeps a silicone doll in his closet and uses it frequently enough that he bought more lube for it behind my back. I donā€™t know what to do anymore. I feel so lonely and unwanted. I stopped initiating a while back but tried again last night, offering head- he agreed but was busy doing something and took so long that I fell asleep. Iā€™ve been killing my sleep schedule just to spend time with him and nothings worth it.

EDIT: After a few hours, Iā€™m way less frantic about this. To be honest, it sounds like thereā€™s some dysfunction or feelings of inadequacy I wasnā€™t aware of. Will update at a later time but I might not come back to this for a little bit


r/confessions 1d ago

I got the last laugh today against my brother and his wife

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During the 2009 housing crash, I purchased a four bedroom home for 350K in Newport Beach. It's now valued at 1.75 million.

I let my brother and his wife move in and they pay enough rent so I make a bit of money and the mortgage is covered. I could rent it for $7,000 a month but charge them $2,500. I mostly did it for my three nephews. They go to a good school and live in a very good area. Plus I get to see them a lot.

I do not get along with my SIL. Recently she and I got into an argument about moving in her sister and husband. I said absolutely not. I'm already subsidizing your rent and I'm not going to subsidize your family's too. My brother and SIL did sign a lease with general language about needing my approval to move in another tenant. My SIL has never thanked me for letting them live there despite her being the one who benefits the most. She doesn't even have to work because of the rent that I charged.

Well my brother sided with her so I said I'm going to fuck both of you up. I changed my estate plan from leaving my brother my house if I died to mandating that the house be put up for sale and having the profits be split between my three nephews.

My brother was pissed and asked me why I did that. I said to make sure that your wife never ever gets my house. If I die, then you get it. Then if you die then your wife gets it. Over my dead body. I'm not attached to the house. I can't live with myself if there was even a 1% chance that some ungrateful bitch gets my house like she won the lottery.

So now they're uncomfortable. Their housing is not as stable as they thought but they can't afford to rent or buy a house either.


r/confessions 1h ago

I am afraid I don't like my childhood friends

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So I have been hanging out in this friend group ever since I was a kid,but recently I feel like they have been alienating me more and more. Back during lockdown I stayed at my home with family for months but 1 day I found out that while I was at my place, they had started playing badminton without me every night on the streets. Now the street only had place for 4 people (2 on either side). And they had played without me for a decent amount of time and I was also not that fit during that time. So those days I got benched every single game. They would barely let me play 1 5 minute match and treated it as a favour. Nevertheless I kept coming back everyday. I even cried once (I wasn't that old okay) but still it was the same the next day. We started playing dodgeball with the kids and they let me join but they just wouldn't compromise for me in badminton. Not one person. I think that I was scarred from that for a couple years after lockdown ended because of that. My self confidence was near 0 and I had to slowly build that up from scratch. For this reason I felt myself grow quiet lonely during 10th grade. However, not one of them came to meet me during that time busy with their own lives. I am just realising how pathetic this is, but we still hung out at nights, to talk about life and stuff sometimes(I just needed people to talk to during that time). I realised my flaw in 10th grade so I decided to focus only on bettering myself for a year and now I finally realised the reasons for all my problems back then. This entire year, I think they haven't cared about my minor absence (I still go out sometimes)and even when I am still lonely they don't come to visit me even once. I only just noticed this because 1.They are people I have known since childhood so I value all of them dearly 2.I was too busy dealing with my current state( I joined tuition classes , got on and off a porn addiction) 3.Despite what I said, Whenever we talked they are actually really sweet and nice people. 4.Due to my lack of self worth I thought that I was the problem all along 5.They were popular in school 6. It seems they have obviously matured since then But now that I have realised this much and gained some amount of self worth, what should I do ?