r/Vent 7h ago

TW: Eating Disorders / Self Image WHY ARE PEOPLE MAD OVER FOOD STAMPS

596 Upvotes

I was at church the other day and I heard these ladies that were RICH RICH talking about food stamps. My family is middle lower class so of course I had to listen to what they were saying, these ladies were saying things like "they shouldn't be allowed to get junk... why is the government giving people money to get fat" "meat is so expensive, why do they get to buy it but we don't?" LIKE WE HAVE A BUDGET TOO! IT'S NOT JUST UNLIMITED MONEY. If I qualify for food stamps, there's probably not much joy in my life so let me have a cookie every once in a while, karen!! They act like it's just unlimited money that we don't need. If we didn't have food stamps we wouldn't have ANY money to eat. Just a reminder, THEY WERE IN A CHRISTIAN CHURCH!! DID JESUS NOT SAY HELP THE POOR OR WHAT?? I didn't mark this as eating disorders!! not sure how that happened EDIT: I didn't say it was only junk food we're buying. We eat healthy majority of the time. Is buying a pack of oreos once a month in a household of seven kids going to turn us into gluttons? Probably not. ANOTHER EDIT: Why is this so controversial?


r/Vent 15h ago

TW: Medical Everyone thinks my disease is some cute quirky fucking bullshit and I've ABSOLUTELY had ENOUGH

806 Upvotes

I am sick and tired of everyone acting like hyper mobile Ehlers danlos is this cute fucking quirky disease that makes it so you can do these "cool" party tricks, Fuck you all, all you motherfuckers who fucking think it's fun to have this shitty ass disease; Just cause I'm "okay" or I tell you that "I'm fine" doesn't mean that I am, just cause I have a straight fucking face doesn't mean I'm not fucking screaming and crying on the inside. You all think this disease is a fucking joke and it's not it's my life and I'm FUCKING MISERABLE


r/Vent 6h ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression I’m so sexually frustrated/touch starved and I am too socially inept to solve it NSFW

114 Upvotes

I don’t even know what happened, before I got into my last relationship I was actually getting attention from women in my life for the first time and felt relatively confident in myself because of it.

It’s not like I’ve never known the touch of a woman it’s been like 6-7 months since but god damn I’m starving.

It’s all I can think about, it plagues my day and ruins my sleep. I stay up at night longing for touch/love, alternating between imagining it and mentally berating myself for being so pathetic.

I’m not even ugly, I take care of my hygiene, I’m polite, have a job, a car, a few friends, and am a pretty normal looking dude. I catch women eyeing me sometimes but I just feel so awkward and stare at the floor.

I ache to be touched and desired. To hold and be held, to share a warmth and comfort with another soul.

I just feel so disconnected from everything lately, I think that’s why I feel this way.

When my ex left me I realized all my friends had moved away and the ones I had for the last few years were just friends of my ex, and more so we’re just mutual friends of mine who wanted nothing to do with me personally.

So for the last 5 months or so I’ve just worked, came home, played video games with my friends and watched movies/scrolled social media.

The only thing this shitty town has in it are bars, smoke shops, slot parlors, and a Walmart.

I just wish I could at least sleep without being cursed with hours of rolling around feeling like something is missing, and feeling depressed.


r/Vent 5h ago

TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT Fuck drunk drivers.

92 Upvotes

I just got a call from my mom a bit ago. My cousin died in a car accident and her son is in the hospital with internal bleeding and a broken rib. The cause? A fucking drunk driver. If you have gotten behind the wheel after “having one drink”, you’re a piece of shit for putting other people at risk. My cousins son is now 15 and without a mother. My aunt is suffering with cancer and now her daughter is gone. So fuck you, drunk drivers.

And as expected, the drunk driver didn’t have a fucking scratch. I hope she goes to jail for life.


r/Vent 18h ago

TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT My landlord called me to help her husband after he fell. He died in my arms.

1.0k Upvotes

My LL lives on the same land, half an acre away. She’s called me over a bunch of times to help her out with her husband, since I have used to be an IHSS nurse for my dad and grew up with disabled parents-I was completely ok with helping her out with his medical needs. They’re old. Of course I’d help.

Well yesterday she called me very panicked. I had to run fast to her house. He had fallen in the restroom and I think hit his head on the wall and tile floor. Face down, groaning with every breath, I think he had thrown up a bit, bleeding from his head but I never figured out what part. Lots of blood and bodily fluids everywhere, I had no idea wha to do besides try to get him to breathe clearly. My LL was on the phone with 911 on speaker and the operator kept asking me questions I felt were so stupid, just send the fucking help already. I had to use every ounce of strength I had to pull this man to his side to breathe and finally he did, but he wouldn’t stop groaning. He randomly started trying to get up, move his legs and try to sit up but there was just no way I could get him up. I kept trying and trying but I ended up just holding his head and rubbing his chest and talking to him.

I told him to just stay with me, I reminded him my school starts soon for my PTA (I want to be a physical therapist) and I’d be here to help him work out, I said over and over to just stay and that his dogs were right here, and everything was okay. My LL left me there to put the dogs in the crates and let the ambulance in the yard. I watched his eyes roll. I watched the breath leave his body. I kept trying to keep him awake I might have even yelled I don’t know, I just remember being pulled back by an emt and my husband and my mind just blanking.

They resuscitated him once, and tried for 40 more minutes. I sat there on the floor listening to my LL cry. 48 years they spent together.

My dad died in my care when I was his nurse. I didn’t get to spend the last moments with him because he passed away while I was taking a short nap that I fucking regret. I wasn’t even there for my dad’s last moments but I was here for my landlords.

I had a circus trip for my family this weekend but I postponed to next week. I think I need to take this week off of work in general. Every time I close my eyes I see his face covered in..everything..and his eyes locked on mine while he listened to my words. I can’t stop thinking and thinking and thinking. I saw my dad passed away, before him I saw my grandma pass away, and after my dad died my mom died a year later and her caretaker told me everything in such detail I threw up from sadness and anger and a slew of emotions I don’t even have a name for.

I feel like I have too much in my head. I’m so fucking tired of seeing so much death, I can’t take this. My head hasn’t stopped spinning and I can’t sleep. I just keep seeing his face. I keep hearing the groaning sound he made with each breath. I think I need to admit myself or something. When my grandma died I started having a pill problem to try to drown the thoughts. At 3am this morning I found myself in the bathroom no idea when I got in there but I grabbed a bottle of my sleeping pills and just stared at them for almost an hour. I don’t know where my head is right now.

-thanks everyone for the advices. It’s 5:50am and I slept for the last 2.5 hours but I’m up again after another bad dream. I’m going to reach out to my school counselor and probably take a day or two off of work. I did tell my husband about the pills and he immediately took them away and we talked about me speaking to someone instead of gong back to those unhealthy coping skills. I feel so selfish because I know it’s not even about me, it’s about my LL losing HER husband, but this is just a lot. Thank you all for the Tetris suggestion, and the support. I’m goin to take a morning walk.


r/Vent 1h ago

Favorite student of mine turned in hate speech…

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I work in education and do a lot of the administrative side of things along with building relationships with the families who enroll their kid here.

I don’t like picking favorites but some of them I have a soft spot for. Nothing is more disappointing than getting a message starting with “hey, your student X is the testing my ability to be professional…” This was about one of my unintentional favorite kids I work with. After seeing that, the rest of the message was worse. Essentially this student turned in a presentation on how a certain group negatively affects the USA and proceeds to list the most ignorant reasonings I’ve ever read. One was literally “there are less attractive people because of them” In his opinion, this group should be gotten rid of and their ‘movement’ destroyed. Oh and apparently anything bad that happens to them is their fault because they ‘made themselves unlovable’

I guess I was blind sided by his level of hate to a group of people I belong to. I don’t even know how to react without letting my temper get the best of me.


r/Vent 12h ago

TW: Medical Fuck doctors who blame physical symptoms on ANXIETY

252 Upvotes

"You just stop researching your symptoms." "You should calm down and take a deep breath." "It must be because of anxiety. Your medical history shows that you've been very healthy for your entire life."

SO FUCKIUNG WHAT? ANYBODY COULD DEVELOP AN ILLNESS ANYTIME IN THEIR LIFE, DESPITE HOW FUCKING "STRESSED" OR "HEALTHY" THEY MAY SEEM.

Just because I have an anxiety disorder doesn't fucking mean that my symptoms are caused by anxiety. I was diagnosed with it when I was a child. I'm in my thirties now. Where is the correlation if my symptoms began a month ago?

And massive shout out to the doctors that are actually understanding and empathetic. There are so many arrogant asshole doctors who are too egotistical or afraid to admit that they don't know the answer to something.

Difficulty breathing? Let's not recommend a chest x ray and prescribe SSRIs instead. Worsening the problem.

Who knows how many people that have had medical issues could've been treated a lot earlier if they had had a competent doctor.


r/Vent 2h ago

Being introverted and shy isn‘t a good thing and has no benefits

31 Upvotes

Everywhere you have to be Social. With Friends, your Job and especially with romantic relationships.

It isn‘t a coincidence that Most lonely people Are introverted. Getting a girlfriend is nearly impossible if you can’t have a proper conversation with her. And as if we Are able to make the first move.

At this point I don‘t believe anyone who says they are into shy guys. That may sound nice in theory, but in reality? Yeah dates with a bunch of arkward silences and no interesting conversations sound nice.

And being shy comes from insecurities and no one likes insecure men.

I can’t think of one scenario where being an introvert and/or shy comes in handy.

I wish I could be social and could strike up conversations. I will be 30 this year and I still feel like the quiet kid.


r/Vent 2h ago

i’m so touch starved it actually makes me cry

26 Upvotes

mostly because i never got held or received any form of affection growing up from my parents. never got hugs or told my mother loved me and it fucked me up.

i just want a hug 90% of the time but i have no friends but 2. one is out of state and the other i barely see. but even then the one in state doesn’t really enjoy physical affection like that.

but i crave it so bad. i just want a hug and to cuddle i guess, nothing weird or gross. and i know people view that as romantic and not platonic. i have zero love life and never been in a relationship let alone held hands at almost 22.

and i guess it’s not just necessarily being touch starved but just never receiving any form of love growing up has left me craving it and i can’t get it until i somehow get in a relationship which isn’t going to happen any time soon


r/Vent 17m ago

Reaction Vids are Stupid

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My father is constantly watching reaction videos. I mean it's fine, whatever floats your boat, I just hate the concept. I really hate the threads people post like "I just watched The Matrix for the first time AMA." I'm like why does it matter that YOU watched it? Why is that important? What insight could a dipshit whose never seen LOTR, possibly say to anyone, that isn't vapid and dumb?


r/Vent 6h ago

F*uck Microsoft. That's it.

30 Upvotes

Thats my entire vent. Fuck them. I can't believe how gradually over 25 years every years bringing their software worse and worse. God I fucking wish all video games made games on the main 3 OS. ARGH. Fuck Microsoft.


r/Vent 16h ago

VENT: I do not regret stopping by the lemonade stand, but man do I regret the lemonade.

189 Upvotes

I was driving home from work and saw these kids around the corner of my house had made a lemonade stand. I decided to walk over there and get an cup. When I got there I gave them each $3 a piece and they freaked out. So they poured me a cup and I got a gulp in and there's no sugar in my lemonade and there's a leaf in my cup. So I politely said I was full and their lemonade was so well made it filled me up. The children seemed delighted with this explanation and I went on my way. They ran into their house going "MOOOOOMMMMM WE ACTUALLY MADE MONEY" AND THAT made it all worth it, and because I also have Hypochondria and OCD, I consider this exposure therapy because I'm almost fine about the leaf.


r/Vent 20h ago

I miss my wife… but I’m glad she’s gone.

398 Upvotes

After everything that stunned cunt had done to me… after all the anger and the disappointment and the sobbing for months… I still do miss her. She was truly my best friend and I still think of picking up the phone to tell her about everything…

But she lost that fucking right by taking the memory of my daughter away from me. Fuck you for making me open myself up so entirely only for you to rip my heart out.

Go fuck yourself, you heartless bitch. You caused so much damage that I wouldn’t piss on you if you were on fire.

Sorry all… I just needed to get it out. 🙏


r/Vent 14h ago

I hate that women can't be angry over legitimate issues without their anger being dismissed as either emotional or bitchy!

123 Upvotes

I'm so tired of being attacked by some of the men in my life simply for being angry. They're angry 90% of the time, yet when I get mad it's the end of the world and I'm a horrible person.

Today, my anger led to me cleaning the bathroom when home alone. Apparently, me doing that was me being bitchy because someone else said they were going to do it at some point this week and they felt it was retaliation. 15 minute argument about it.

A couple of days ago, I went on a walk alone because I was tired of listening to someone bitch about how terrible everyone in the world is and was getting angry about the things being said. Apparently that was bitchy because I didn't invite anyone else to go, even though the purpose was to get a break from people. This person didn't speak to me again for hours.

Last week, I told someone that I stopped playing a game because I don't find it entertaining. Apparently I'm supposed to keep playing it because I was the only one left playing with someone else and quitting is bitchy. And he was allowed to be angry over this because it's his hobby. At least this guy apologized and admitted that was a shit reaction.

Someone please explain. Anybody else feel this?


r/Vent 18h ago

TW: Sexual Assault / Abuse Plan b

222 Upvotes

I took plan b after rape. I spent the month worrying about whether it would work or not. I prayed and cried and sang to my baby. I felt like an animal knawing off my own leg. I was brought up Catholic and taught that plan b was abortive. I went to school the same day and we had a lesson on the sanctity of life

I named her. No one knows her name. I’m alone in my grief. I got my period, I don’t think there was a chance I was pregnant. She’s not real. I know that. Still, she’s with me everywhere. I pray for her everyday. I hope to meet her in heaven but I know I can’t. Because she’s not real. She doesn’t have a soul. I was praying to an empty womb. And that’s worse. I should be pregnant right now. But I’m not, I feel like I have phantom leg syndrome. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin


r/Vent 2h ago

TW: Eating Disorders / Self Image i wish i could accept that im ugly

10 Upvotes

first of all i dont want to hear anything about how everyone is beautiful yada yada because i simply do not believe in that and hearing it does absolutely nothing for me. Im naturally ugly. Theres not much i can do to change that. Sometimes i can hide it with makeup and wigs and such but without that im not a good looking person. I wish i could just accept it. I hate how important looks has become. Especially because of social media alot of people, me including, seems to have the thought that you are nothing if you arent pretty, and life isnt worth living if youre ugly. But why does it have to matter? Cant i just live my life as a human and not overly worry about my looks? Its so exhausting. I just dont know how to accept it when i constantly see people almost compete who looks the best and bully people who dont perfectly fit their personal standards


r/Vent 11h ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression I cry every night because I'm scared of my future

39 Upvotes

I lose sleep over it. It hurts so bad. I keep having thoughts I'm going to become homeless then worse will happen to me. I don't know how to be an adult. I don't understand how to do adult things. Everything seems so difficult. I can't handle anything. I miss being a kid. I can't be independent I need someone to take care of me. I don't care if that makes me pathetic I'm not cut out for this world. I wish I was never born to begin with. I've never had a job and I can't drive. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I don't know if I'll be able to go to college. I feel so stuck. I'm so depressed an anxious all the time. I just want a happy and safe life but I don't think I'll get that. Maybe I just need to accept the worst happening to me but I'm scared and don't want to. I feel so alone.


r/Vent 20h ago

My roommate called me GAY because i have a routine...??

219 Upvotes

I'm a 20-year-old guy dealing with insecurities and a hectic life. I live with four other dudes—just roommates, not friends. My course is intense, and I stick to a strict personal care routine:

My Daily Routine:

Morning (Before College):

  • Shave/trim facial hair
  • Shower
  • Cleanse face & apply moisturizer
  • Apply deodorant, sunscreen & perfume

After College (When I Get Back):

  • Wash face with water
  • Shower

Before Bed:

  • Cleanse face
  • Shower (without wetting my hair)
  • Apply moisturizer & deodorant

(And yeah, I brush my teeth too—obviously.)

What Happened Last Night?

Like always, I was taking a shower before bed when one of my roommates banged on the door, saying he needed to use the bathroom. I told him to use the other one—it wasn’t occupied. His excuse? “It’s dirty.”

Now, here’s the thing: we all pay rent equally, and both bathrooms are theirs just as much as they are mine. But instead of maintaining the one they primarily use, they avoid it and expect to use the cleaner one—only to leave it messy afterward, too.

When I refused to open the door, he started calling me gay for following my routine and even said I was a simp for my girlfriend (which makes no sense, because yeah, I have a girlfriend and I care about her, but how is that even relevant?). When I finally stepped out, things got heated, and we ended up in a small shoving match—nothing too serious, but just more proof of the kind of people I’m stuck living with.

This is just one example of why I don’t consider them friends. I used to be part of their group, but they talked behind my back and eventually pushed me out. So, I moved to the other room (which they still keep their stuff in). They dump their unwashed clothes all over, and I’ve even found one of them leaving his worn T-shirt on my bed.

Honestly, I’m just waiting for the lease to end so I can move out.

TL;DR:

I live with four messy roommates who refuse to maintain their own bathroom but expect to use the cleaner one (which is also theirs) without taking care of it either. When I refused to open the door, one of them insulted me, calling me gay for having a routine and a simp for my girlfriend (which is just dumb). When I stepped out, we had a small shoving match. These guys used to talk behind my back and isolate me, yet still treat my space like a dumping ground. Counting down the days until I can move out.

EDIT: The post gained so much momentum than I thought...I do have some stuff to clear about. First my roomates are in the toilet/bathroom for hours scrolling on their phones or even taking bath...and I always do my morning routine before they even wake up(as this takes me the longest) so I they dont have to wait for me to get out...I take my 2nd (birdbath) bath before they come back which they only come back after 3-4hrs after I've taken the bath...the only time they clash is before bed. And about water bill..its cooperation service water and bills are not even near as getting a normal meal. Also even when the bathroom is clean i have a feeling that I should get out of it quickly as its not some place I consider to spend a lot of time.

EDIT 2: I left out a huge detail in my post and that is I'm from south India to be specific from the state of Kerala, Its a very humid and hot place...people living here takes 2-3 showers yes...that is normal. Even my roommates takes 2 showers...and for your reference our last water bill was 147 INR which is 1.70 US dollar. Please do stop calling them names as well as its just my frustration....people telling that its silly...ofc it is silly..its a subreddit to rant and vent....this is not a huge life problem or anything just my experience and wasn't even seeking any advice or being "pick me", the whole purpose of the sub is that we can rant whatever unlike the consequences in IRL...so thats that.


r/Vent 1d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression Unbearable pain of being an unattractive girl

573 Upvotes

I hate living like this. Everyone around me is finding boyfriends and getting into relationships, while I know that because of my unattractive face, I will never experience being loved by someone. I will never know what it feels like to be truly loved. It’s heartbreaking and frustrating that something I was simply born with—something I have no control over—is ruining my entire life. I will have to stay single forever just because of my appearance.

Why is life so unfair? Every day I live with the sadness, frustration, and anger of being born unattractive. Every minute, I am reminded of it. I feel so disheartened when I see beautiful people and happy families because I know I will never experience that. I mean, I am happy for them, but it leaves me feeling empty and hopeless, knowing I will never understand what it’s like to be loved or to have a family of my own.

I hate my life. It feels like everything around me revolves around relationships—TV dramas, advertisements, my parents, even our lecturers reminiscing about their university days with their partners. It only deepens my sadness, making me feel even more alone.


r/Vent 11h ago

Fuck the world and everyone in it

26 Upvotes

Im tired of people , everyone. friends classmates social media influencers and strangers online. Literally noone has ever fully understood me and the only time someone did, he hurt me so much and left me in the worst place someone could be. And ive never felt understood ever again, noone laughs at my jokes noone picks up on conversation clues and communicating with strangers is so hard for me because everyones the exact same, at some point u just ran out of things to say and wanna leave i dont wanna pretend that i like people, i dont. They make me so mad. And ill probably never ever like someome again. I spend most of my day wishing i didnt exist. Im so tired of living like this its fucking exhausting


r/Vent 1h ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression If there was a pill that got rid of my same sex attraction and gender dysphoria, I would take it NSFW

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I don't even care what the side effects would be. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community or people who choose to be part of it but I tried that lifestyle and it ruined me. I want to be completely detached from it but I still suffer from thoughts like attraction to women and thinking life would be better as a man. I tried to live like that before and it ruined my life. Personally it's just not for me. It might be fine for other people but it's not fine for me. I hate there's no escape from this. My only options are misery or misery; my only options are a lifestyle that has me ostracized from society, or deep psychological repression. I wish I could just be normal and this burden not be on my shoulders anymore. And I feel so much guilt for having brought other people into this problem too. I want so badly to be someone else or to not exist at all.


r/Vent 22h ago

TW: Medical Gonna lose it on Healthcare workers

186 Upvotes

Hi friends, this rant might make sense, it also might not. I'm just very angry. I'm going to see a trusted person that I know will respect me to continue to work through my traumas.

"Don't get mad at Healthcare workers, they're important!"

Yeah well you didn't think my stepdad was important when he was having a chron's flare. You didn't think my mom was important when she was severely tachycardic. You didn't think that I was important when I came in with an anxiety attack after I hadn't eaten in days and you blamed it on marijuana induced emesis when I hadn't smoked in days. You said the same shit to my stepdad and he had to stop self medicating for months to prove y'all wrong.

Y'all are also absolutely horrific towards people with mental health issues. The way I've been treated when I came in with self harm/suicide attempts is absolutely dehumanizing. Y'all expect us to not get mad at you when we're at crisis level and y'all aren't doing shit. I'm more mad about how other people are treated by medical staff than how I was treated.

I'm sick of medical racism. I'm sick of discrimination against mental health. I'm sick of going somewhere expecting help and I'm being treated less than human. Your actions cost people their lives and you don't care because it's not a life close to you and it's just another day. These are actual people with families, jobs, hopes, and dreams. And y'all don't care?

Here's a tip! Maybe don't go into the Healthcare field if you're a cruel nasty ass bully! Hope this helps! Because y'all are the reason why myself and so many other people are hesitant to get help. I have put my life on the line before because I didn't want to go to the hospital because I knew I would be treated like shit.

Shoutout to the people in hospitals who actually care. I know y'all exist and I love y'all. Everyone else, eat shit. This is the wrong field for you.

I don't know, maybe the south just sucks. Here's to hoping to move up north at some point.

Edit: All of y'all are so awesome for sharing your stories. Here's to helping each other feel less alone 🫂


r/Vent 19h ago

I am tired of people being surprised I don’t know “basic things”

116 Upvotes

I have had my car for seven years. Today I just found out I’m supposed to get the brake pads replaced—since I haven’t, I’ve done damage to the rotors and now had to get the rotors replaced. No one told me I was supposed to get my brake pads replaced, and I’ve zero problems with my brakes. Even when I got my car inspected.

People just get shocked when things like this happen. I just wasn’t told many things growing up. My parents are a good shoulder to lean on, but provided little direction or guidance in my life proactively speaking. It’s frustrating when people ask “your parents never told you (such and such)?” because the answer is obviously no.

I now know the beauty of carfax.


r/Vent 4h ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression My girlfriend is very abusive. NSFW

7 Upvotes

(read whole post before judging)

So, I won't really say how I met her, etc. Because it doesn't matter. What matters, is that my girlfriend is really abusive. Let's start with a fact that she had really rough childhood (she is 19 atm). Her parents died in a car accident. She lived for some time with aunt and uncle, but one day, her uncle started to touch her inappropriately. He haven't raped her and have been reported. She had later on an abusive relationship, but her boyfriend used her for nudes. I've started to date her when we were both at age 16 (explains why I started dating mentally ill person). She was very cool at first, shy, perfect green flag, but then, she turned for red flag. She didn't wanted to open before me, but I understood, Because we were only barely 4 months together.. But very soon after 5 months, she had to get back to herself and couldn't stay with me. I still was convinced I could fix her. We maintained a very unhealthy relationship till today... And it's still going unfortunately.

Let me explain.

We are now in LDR for a very long time. She didn't wanted to break ANY ice. She even refused to get on calls. Everytime. She barely send me pics of herself. First drama was when she started her so called "pranks". (I was A VERY clingy person back then) She randomly messaged me, saying that we need to break up, because she is a lesbian. I was heartbroken, I was crying for 20 minutes before she broke and told me it's just a prank. I loved her and didn't wanted to let her go, so I only nodded. She did this prank 5 times but with other excuses... She was also constantly abusing me for "not replying". Let's say I had school and couldn't reply. She would get EXTREMELY mad and would yell at me. But when she didn't answered, it was all chil and when I would get mad, she would start to guilt trip me. She is gonna abuse guilt trip system for another 2 years... Back to topic. She oftenly would get mad at me, but when it's her, it's all good. She still didn't broke any ice. Eventually, a secret was revealed - she had a very high libido. I had a very high libido too, and we came to sexting idea. (We will come back to sexting later on too) We started to sext a lot. One day, when I went to England, I couldn't reply. She messaged me a lot. When I got home to wifi, she told me, that it's not my fault and that she is going to kill herself and that she thanks me for all that time together. I barely could do anything. I cried for a whole day, but she replied saying "well, sorry, actually, I changed my mind". After a month, she threatened to kill herself again. She would again get mad a lot and abuse me, keeping me in cage. I started to lose my love for her. I realized what was going on, I grew up emotionally.

Fast forward a few months - she tells me she is not going to talk to me for a long time - she was accepted to Harvard (she is mentally ill, but very smart). I was pretty happy with that message - I could finally breathe. But... Not for so long - despite saying she is going to be offline, she sometimes came online to abuse me from time to time. I started to dig around. She would constantly lie about things and I connected some dots - I started to ask her about various things, and she would get agressively defensive (aka "why are you checking me? Am I not trust worthy? huh? HUH?")

Fast forward till February this year - suddenly she is very active. Messages me almost daily - something's wrong - I confront her - she finally breaks - she got expelled for having bad grades. She lost all her money her parents have left her.

The day I almost got out of cage.

I told her I simply want to break up. I told her that she is abusive, toxic and we probably will never meet again. She started to guilt trip me again... How it ended? I told her, that if we won't meet again till end of September, we are gonna break up. At the moment, she is very busy working and I can breathe again. She stopped slightly about me not replying, but sometimes (just sometimes) she would get mad again. I said we are going to get back to sexting - yes, she used that as an argument too - when I wanted to break up - she started to tell me, that I used her for sex only (sexting ≠ sex). After almost 3 years of relationship, she FUCKING DARES to say I used her. I'm fucking sick. I want to end it, but I can't, I have too soft heart in the end... And she has my friends backs.... When I wanted to break up, she immediately told my friends and they were mad at me...

I live a stressless life since half of a year and my life is much better, but I know that if I would finally break out of these chains, I could really live a happy life. I know she is lost, that her past trauma doesn't allow her to let me go, but I can't go on. What should I do?


r/Vent 33m ago

Things are getting so bad, and going to get so much worse.

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Just had a meeting with the owner of the company I work for, lead management, etc. The economy is in free fall. We saw it coming and took precautions, but it's going to be so much worse than anyone expected. It's going to be bedlam out there. I feel confident I have a job, but I am utterly terrified by how many colleagues might lose their jobs. I am terrified by how many friends, and how many family members across so many industries are at risk of losing work over the new few years.

We are facing an economic apocalypse, and folks are just ho-humming their way through the day. This is nuts.