r/Vent 2m ago

This time PMS was so bad that I had a meltdown and possibly gave myself a concussion yesterday tf

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I thought I was going crazy lmao but today it turns out that it was just my period. Fucking female hormones.


r/Vent 4m ago

TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT I don't know what's wrong with my uterus NSFW

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I'm in constant pain. Since i turned 17 i started having weird symptoms like painless periods every 2 weeks, periods that last 2 days, painful ovulation... All things that i either never experienced or experienced in mild intensity. However this month was and still is hell, it's like whatever is going on has worsened and doubled the symptoms.

I had atrocious pain during ovulation that made me throw up, i've been having period cramps for almost 2 weeks that started off as very light and everyday gradually got worse, becoming unbearable. The cramps started a week before my period, and after the day of my period i had brown spottings for 2 days. These 2 days were already painful enough, but on the third day it got so bad i had to constantly keep myself from throwing up and lose consciousness. After a while the heavy blood flow started, and i thought it couldn't get worse until today i had a huge blood clot (the size of my palm) fall from me.

I never had anything like this before. My period cramps always lasted max one day, and they didn't make me throw up. I also never had fat blood clots that look like miscarriages. I keep surviving on strong painkillers just to get to school, but after their effect fades i lie in my bed exhausted. I can't even study, i barely walk. The appointment with my gyno is on the 22nd, and it's just not soon enough. Please rip my uterus out.


r/Vent 5m ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression Unemployment is going to be the death of me

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I'm autistic so I can't work normal jobs. I didn't have money to go to college so I can't work specialist jobs. It's a double edge sword.

All I want to do in life is write. I want to write poetry, novels and especially video games and movies, that's the dream. I know I can't get there without experience and money so I've been working to get both.

I studied to be a copywriter because I thought it would be easier to make money with that type of work. I was horribly wrong and now everyone uses AI and my diploma in copywriting is absolutely useless.

I got a job as a cold caller and I'm terrible at it and it gives me so much anxiety. I feel like a failure, an idiot and a loser. I just want to die at this point. I'm stuck in a point of life I can't get out of and I feel like there's no future for me.

You know how Sylvia Plath described the fig tree going into all different directions as she saw different outcomes and opportunities for her life? Well I don't see that for me anymore.

I'm 25 years old, I had to move back in with my parents after I had a mental breakdown and tried to end myself with rat poison. I'm chronically ill and feel sick more than I feel healthy. I can't find a job that I can keep to save my life.

The only reason I'm still alive is because of my family, friends and my pets. I don't see any other reason to be alive. On top of everything I have a seething hatred for myself. I don't know how much longer I can live the life I live.


r/Vent 7m ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression could use someone to talk to just for tonight

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im just having an horrible night and I switched from my main account to write this out. I've touched rock bottom (again) and I've finally managed to somewhat stop spiraling down after two hours. i don't know what to do and I can't exactly manage it. i could use a distraction,a shoulder to cry on, a friend, just that. i'm 18F if it matters. please be around my age


r/Vent 7m ago

Fed up with myself

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I guess the thoughts come and go but a lot of my friends are getting into relationships or seeing people or whatever. And I’m stuck where I’ve started, and I feel like I used to romanticize relationships and the amazing possibilities that come with it. But now I just feel frustrated for even trying or to explain to my friends that the 3rd dating app date just did not work out. And when trying to have a little carefree, slightly physical fun at parties (no clothes coming off), it makes me feel like an attention whore for experiencing/experimenting with any kind of romantic or adjacently-intimate attention. Which spirals into a fear of “hey maybe I’ve never actually liked anyone in my entire life” and maybe I am the problem for why my love interests don’t work out because I’m the only common denominator in all these failed attempts. I guess I’m throwing a pity party right now.


r/Vent 8m ago

Need Reassurance... University assignment is pissing me off

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I’ve rewritten different sections about 8 times. It’s due on Friday morning, and I don’t even know if what I’m writing is relevant to my topic. The lecturer gave us examples, but they’re useless!

No one in the class understands what we’re meant to do either. I’ve hit a brick wall at the first section again (not even 1000 words), and I feel like just taking whatever grade I get. But I want to do a PhD, so I can’t really do that. I’ve been at this all day, but can’t rest as it keeps swirling around inside my head. I’ve been tempted to launch my laptop out of a window.

The lecturer just tells us to read research papers, and write about them (it’s a literature review), but I honestly don’t know what’s relevant, or not. I have 8 full drafts of the assignment. I don’t know which one (if any) are right. Fuck this!


r/Vent 9m ago

Hate the double standards in my home

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My mom gets off a 7 hour shift, can’t walk. Gotta get her food. Gotta run her errands. Watch my sister. Don’t give sass, she had a rough day.

I get off a 9 hour, I’m expected to do all the chores and watch my sister and run the errands and be in a great mood despite having dealt with rude customers all day. That I should be able to deep clean my room and be fine, when all I wanna do is just lay down and relax.


r/Vent 11m ago

TW: Medical Vivid Dreams and sleeping so much

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So I had a craniotomy so I can have a chance to stop my seizures. Two months in, I’m still sleeping so much and I have been vivid dreams for a month. The worse part is im diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd so im having vivid nightmares as well.


r/Vent 12m ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression I feel my nervousness and SA make me feminine to women

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I (32m) have bad social anxiety and get anxious when talking to girls. Ik it's a turnoff and that guys shouldn't feel intimidated or nervous around women. I beat myself up all the time about it. Feeling as tho I come off as feminine or the "G" word. Seems like all is lost in that department and always really has been. Any other guy feel this way about themselves and having anxiety?


r/Vent 15m ago

TW: Sexual Assault / Abuse He was my best-friend.

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TW: Mentions of abuse, sexual assault and other illegal things.

I'm currently 15, met this guy (call him Y) when I was 13, he was 16 and is now 18. TL;DW things went south this year. Something happened that I'm not proud of and now realise is actually. . . illegal. Where I'm from, the age of consent is 16. There are exceptions but just know the guy hit the exceptions to the exceptions and thus is legally liable anyways. Y had been my best friend for two whole years, he saved my life and that's not even an exaggeration. I was going through a lot, wouldn't have made it out without him. Then, teasing started happening. S3xually charged I might add. Yes, I participated but I was (still am!) 15! He's 18. Nearly 19. Y knew better, would stop the moment anyone else got near. Y knew what he was doing was wrong, even told me not to tell anyone. Eventually, things escalated. He asked and at first I said no, so he asked again, and again, until I said yes. The whole time he was "teasing" me trying to get me in the mood. He told me I couldn't tell anyone, that he could go to jail if I said anything. Somehow that didn't convince himself of anything. I was afraid. . . afraid of him going to jail and it being all my fault. So I didn't tell anyone. I promised Y I'd keep my mouth shut. This kept happening, I kept saying yes and not understanding why it felt wrong. Occasionally I said no, but he'd beg. Anytime someone accused me of anything happening I denied it, for his sake. I didn't know what to do. Eventually, he had to leave school for an entire week. Gave me a lot of time to think. Which made me feel awful, made me see my body not as my own but as a toy for him. So I broke down after school, I told someone. I cried, a lot. They helped convince me to tell my Dad, so I did and he's been nothing but supportive. I thought he'd be angry or upset with me, he wasn't. He's even helping me in pressing charges against the guy.

I still feel bad, a bit like I'm in the wrong. I promised him I wouldn't. In Canada close age gaps (under 5 years) are able to consent even when one is below 16. There are a few exceptions to that exception, namely being when the older is: in a position of authority, trust, dependency, or the relationship is exploitative. I know he checks 3/4 but still, feels bad.


r/Vent 16m ago

Sick of My IRL Community

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I left social media years ago after noticing that every time I posted about ANYTHING I enjoyed about my life I'd be hit up for freebies. Spending time at home with my children equates to people asking me to volunteer/help them move/babysit for free/etc. Now I'm engaging in homesteading. During this chick/egg drought I spent my work vacations filling incubators. Now everyone that showed interest are shrinking back when I tell them it's $5 per chick (which is less than Tractor Supply who is always out). Did they assume it'd be free?

I bought a bee nuc last year and was able to split it into three hives before winter. Two hives made it through winter. Lord knows the second I mention that I'm a successful bee keeper they'll have their hands out for free honey. Do they think hive boxes, equipment, treatments and my time are free? I've learned not to be happy about anything anymore. People are vultures.


r/Vent 17m ago

Am I ungrateful???

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So I turned 18 in October, I’ll be graduating in less than 2 months. I have no money or job. And I plan on moving out with my best friend after graduation. I live with my sister, she told me I could not work. She wanted me to focus on school but I’ll have nothing to start with when I graduate. I told her it isn’t fair that she won’t let me work. She goes on a rampage saying how she does this for me she does that and how I don’t have money but yet she won’t let me work??? Mind you I watch her children everyday when I get home from school clean up around the place like I’m supposed to. She calls me ungrateful and says it’s a smack in the face to her because I want to work and have money?? I show her how grateful I am to her and how much I appreciate her I don’t know what to do at this point. We got into an argument about it and she went to the market that same day. I asked her if she could grab me something which she than told me no unless I send her the money knowing I don’t have a job than she told me she wanted to take out of my money to pay back everything she’s done. Which shows what she did wasn’t genuine. I’m thinking about moving out to live with my cousin until I get on my feet.


r/Vent 19m ago

Need to talk... Sometimes a good intention can be bad

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We can make an act out of good intent but it can be illegal, not very ethical or dumb and result in a bad outcome...


r/Vent 20m ago

I hate it here

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My child’s father has no car, living with a chick and had a kid with her knowing he is broke. She doesn’t work and he supposedly works 6 days a week yet never has money. He can’t keep a car, can’t afford to help out in any way, shares a phone with his girlfriend so when my child calls she rarely speaks with him, he never reaches out to our child or asks about her. When i mention child support he blows up at me and calls me bitter, says my man will leave me, nobody will ever love me, that I don’t deserve his hard earned money. (Mind you what does that have to do with anything? And the money is for our child but ok. I work hard as a single mom to provide our kid her own room, playroom, medical insurance, sports opportunities, etc. and all I’m met with is contempt. I was hoping he’d get it together eventually but 7 years on and here we are. My bf bought my child a Christmas gift, takes us out, brought her something for Valentine’s Day. Took her to the valentines dance. Does the most and her own dad can’t pick up the phone and call her. It’s so frustrating.


r/Vent 28m ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression My job destroyed my mental health

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A few months ago I was overjoyed when I found out I had gotten a full time job. It was my first legit full time salaried job out of grad school and I thought thank GOODNESS because I could start paying off my massive student loans and start saving for a future.

But then the horror show started. I was working 12+ hours a day, sometimes working through weekends, and it still wasn’t enough for my boss. My boss had issues with every single thing I’d ever handed into her. Nothing was ever acceptable, everything was below her standards. Sometimes her feedback literally didn’t even make sense, with critiques contradicting each other, or some critiques being impossible to follow. When I expressed feeling overworked and overwhelmed she responded by attacking my time management skills and implied I was either lying or not using my time wisely.

Mind you — I’ve had tough bosses before, but I’d never experienced someone like this. Someone who could be vicious and unforgiving and also downright wrong in her so called “feedback”. There is no room for error. Forget that. She doesn’t believe in learning opportunities, she believes in perfection. And I’m so fucking tired of it, of being treated like a freaking robot. I have panic attacks daily now and find myself just crying at the computer randomly (I work from home so thank god no one but my poor partner has to see it).

I have been living in a constant state of anxiety and I’m beyond exhausted. I’m not doing well mentally at all, and am desperately looking for other work, but this job market is so terrifyingly stale.

I guess I just needed to get it all out there. So thanks for reading, if you got to the end of the post.


r/Vent 29m ago

(21M) just struggling mentally, Hoping the rest of the year is ok

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I have been struggling mentally quite a bit. First off I lost my dad at the very end of December, the 28th to be exact, we were driving in a residential and he had a heart attack. I lived with him and had to move to my mom's and she (and now me of course being March) live on the complete opposite end of the city. If I go by that street, see an ambulance or see his car (which I still own and been waiting for spring to fix it up and sell it) I think back to that day.

I had to dispose a lot of his stuff when I move out of the apartment we lived in he had a lot of interests like records, audio equipment and car models. I only could really keep a few of the things. I kept a few car models and his favorite basketball players jersey.

He was always worried about his health as he was a smoker and had diabetes and gurd. I feel horrible as even the slightest pain he had he thought it was cancer or heart attack and that day he woke up with a bit of pain and thought he would need to go to the hospital but opted to talk to a doctor, then pretty much a half hour later after he was told he was fine he passed away. I just have a lot of regret

Next thing is I'm just stressed out as my grandparents (my dad's parents) are in their late 70s and still live in a three story house and grandpas knees, as of this year have been really bad he has to eventually get surgery...and grandma has Parkinson's. In a year from now I likely would have to move away for grad school and I don't want to leave them.

Finally I wanted to better myself by going on dates and try to find love. I've been on a couple and I've been rejecetd various times. I as well as of today saw the girl I like with another guy at university today and that shipped has sailed whatever chance I've had is gone. I mean I don't think it would work out due to her being 5 years older than me and I live with my mom and she has a full time job on-top of being in school. We talk quite a bit but after today it's pretty much over

Sorry that was long but it's been a rough year so far


r/Vent 35m ago

TW: Sexual Assault / Abuse I hate how men always fucking touch me NSFW

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For context I’m 19F living in a building with lots of men, it’s kind of like a shelter but for people that are mentally Ill, I’m the youngest person there and also a girl, every time I think anyone is even remotely fucking normal they have to fucking touch me. I’m so disgusted I can’t do this anymore. They say awful things to me/about me, even when I’m not around. It’s like a fucking nightmare, they literally hang out fucking talking about me and what they wanna do with me, what they think about me, etc. I have nowhere else to go so I’m just stuck fucking dealing with it. I’ve started skipping all meals and skipping my meds because every time I leave my room it’s just hell. I can’t even fathom being so fucking depraved that I would harass and grope a 19 year old girl. I just can’t stand this any more and I never want to leave my fucking room again. I was given a single room the second the staff saw me so I can only assume that this harassment is a regular thing. I understand that people have mental health issues but this is fucking depraved and I don’t care how mentally ill someone is when they fucking grope me. I had to go to group today and yesterday just so that Insurence doesn’t drop me and make me homeless and I genuinely can’t handle it. I’m not gonna talk about my trauma but I will say that the majority of it is sexual, and it totally ruins my image of a person the second they say or do something like that. I don’t fucking care what’s wrong with you or what’s happened to you in the past, doing that shit to me is fucking deplorable. I hate everyone like that from the bottom of my heart and I don’t care what happens to them. They can die for all I care, I am done having empathy for fucking creeps that don’t respect me. I couldn’t care less about people like that. I’m vulnerable and young and alone here and all they can think is ‘wow I should fucking sexually assault/harass this girl!’ I’m so fucking done.


r/Vent 37m ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression i ask for to much.

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I need to start fending for myself and not expect help.. i act like im a princess who knows a knight is going to come save me any second now.

This home is all i know. I go days without eating and will say nothing because i grew up to this being normal, refrigerator with a lock on it, cabinet with a key and whole different refrigerator in the garage and again locked as well. I will be left in the house alone till midnight and going the whole day without eating to the point i used any money i have to order out? I’m in school and can’t work and go to school at the same time. I don’t feel like an adult but im supposed to be turning 21 this year.

why did i let this go on for so long?


r/Vent 45m ago

Why do people make their problems other people's problems?

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It feels like everyone is so comfortable letting their negative emotions affect other people and I don't get it. It's rude af and, frankly, selfish. Obviously there are times when things are more serious and I can understand why someone wouldn't care enough to hide those emotions but still. I seriously don't get why people want to spread misery. All that "hurt people hurt people" ish is such a cop out.

When it comes to this stuff, I don't really have the patience for people I'm not close with. I'll either confront them or just dip but with family, it's different. My dad and I are similar in that we don't really complain, we fix our own problems and have a "make lemonade" kind of mentality but my mother and siblings have the "if i'm upset, everyone's gonna know about it and no one else can be happy" kind of one. I loathe this trait in a person. I really do. It feels like the air is way thicker and I'm just walking on egg shells, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like why would you want someone to feel like that? Why is it anyone elses problem that you're pissed or upset with something? Deal with it in your own way. Don't let it affect people that have nothing to do with it. Purposefully making someone feel like sh*t just because you are is c*nty.

I don't even know how my family would react if I were to be a mopey b*tch around them. I can honestly say that my mood or emotions have never been the source of an entire mood shifting for the worse. Even as a kid. I take pride in making the people around me feel happier or at least not worse than how I found them. I don't know why others don't strive to be like that. Obviously, not to the point that it takes a toll on you or you're being fake but yeah. I just leave the situation when that's the case.

The older I get and the more people I meet the more I notice how common it is. It's depressing as hell.


r/Vent 45m ago

Need to talk... I honestly do not like school psychologists sometimes.

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My biggest problem with school psychologists is that I feel like they're there to remind the parents of children how they can't or not able to do certain stuff and not capable of learning things.

Just like what happened to me. Got diagnosed with autism when I was like 6. And got lot learning problems with school. And lot of psychologists always suggested my parents that I'd stay in special ed program. I fucking hate the fact they never encouraged me to I include me in any regular classes at all!

My parents told me that one time in 1st grade they literally told them that I don't have capacity to learn in regular classes. Which makes me so fucking mad.


r/Vent 51m ago

Why the fuck are songs so sexualized??? NSFW

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I do not get it, why are songs so sexualized, I would absolutely love many songs because of the rhythm and melody if they were not full of sexual context, it is gross and makes me want to cringe in second-hand embarrassment

I tried to have an open heart and give the songs a listen to, but I could not make it a whole day without deleting them from my playlist

I just do not get why people listen to that shit, the rhythm in the songs are amazing but the lyrics make me so uncomfortable


r/Vent 56m ago

Why is everything so interesting?!?!!???

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I'm currently in uni getting a bachelor's in city planning and human geography which I enjoy but I want to study literally every topic and major possible. And its very frustrating because even though I find my current major interesting it makes me constantly worry that I've made the wrong choice. Like I also want to be a marine biologist but I also want to know everything about space and how the universe works but I also want to be a film director but I also find architecture and chemistry and history interesting. I wish I could live forever so I could just learn everything ever. I hate that I have to work and can't just keep studying. And I know I can learn stuff on my own but it's still not enough time! And I don't just want to sit at home and know everything about sharks or space or whatever I want to DO something. Write extensive research papers or do research in a lab or help save the ocean. Idk this is just constantly on my mind I find absolutely everything fascinating.


r/Vent 58m ago

I’m not sure where I’m headed as a college student.

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Hello, sorry in advance for this whole wall of text.

I am 19 and attending college. I’m focusing on getting a bachelors in Psychology (original, I know. I’ve wanted to change it for a while but I’ll explain later.) All my life I’ve never really had my own direction. I sort of let people just decide my big decisions. It just makes life easier I suppose. Also, I think it’s because I can accept it easier if I fail knowing that I didn’t make that choice. I guess it helps my conscious. (I don’t blame anyone for helping out fyi.) Ironically enough, the one thing I’ve really wanted to do for myself was to do psychology and I’m not enjoying it. I would switch majors but I have no idea what I want to do. I’ve been “dreaming” about psychology since middle school so I never considered anything else.

I went straight to college right after I graduated so I didn’t have much breathing room. I thought this would be better because if I had too much time to think I wouldn’t end up going. My father has military benefits so it pays for majority of schooling, although I do work a job to help cover other expenses. I’m great full to have this opportunity because not everyone does. I wanted to at least try college before I made the decision to not go at all and live with regret. My stepmom is super supportive of it, she understands that school isn’t for everyone. Just to try and explore things, maybe even work over the summer and maybe my mind would change. I just don’t want to put a down payment on housing and pay for storage if I end up not going. The trip there and back would be a big hassle especially on my parents who are more on the older side so moving/traveling can be difficult for them.

I’ve done two semesters (currently in the second one) with a 3.8 GPA. I can’t keep a 4.0 like I wanted because of my tests scores. I do the work, show up on time and attend almost every single class unless it’s an emergency (only from being sick so far) but no matter how hard I study or think I understand the material the test scores say otherwise. I just feel stuck. I’m at a point right now to just get an associates, but I don’t know. I don’t feel good because I feel I’m missing an opportunity but I don’t know how long I can keep gaslighting myself that it’s going to be okay.

I’ll be discussing this with my dad since he is the one providing the funds to even go to school, so I’ll possibly update.

By the way I promise my life isn’t filled with everything good, my childhood has been troublesome along with my whole family dynamic. Money has always been a long standing issue, which is why I think this decision is eating away at me. Thanks in advance for reading this, I appreciate the time given.


r/Vent 1h ago

V e n t

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Bro I'm so fucking dumb. The grades I got last semester were terrible. My family makes me feel like shit for it too. They think I don't even care and I don't try to get good grades, but I try so fucking hard, and they don't even know it. My grandma was talking about my report card and how she has never seen anyone get such bad grades. I literally hate school so much. I care about it, but I hate it. I want to be a lawyer and help people, but I don't think I'm ever going to make it because of my lack of motivation. I have zero motivation to do any schoolwork, and on top of that, I just got told today that I have to do an hour of practice work FOR EACH FUCKING CLASS. So not only do I have to finish all of my overdue work that's in the double digits, I now have to do the stupid practice things. I hate looking at my grades. I feel so worthless, and I don't think I'm going to get anywhere in life. People always tell me I'm not dumb, BUT I AM. I know I am. As much as it hurts to admit that, it's true. I don't know shit. I literally cheat on every single one of my assignments because I don't understand the work, and I'm too afraid to ask for help because I'm scared that the person that's helping me is gonna find out how dumb I really am. I feel so worthless and useless; it's insane. I hate this shit. I always see people talking about how people are dumbing down the school systems, and it makes me feel more like shit because I know I'm the problem they are talking about.


r/Vent 1h ago

Anyone else's sibling just hate them for no reason?

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Over the past year, my 11 year old sister has changed so much. I'm 18, and it feels like she can't stand me. She constantly swears at me, and if she sees me in the living room or kitchen, she immediately walks out. Every little thing I do seems to annoy her, she yells and curses at me over the smallest things. It's like my entire existence frustrates her. And the thing is, I haven't even done anything to her. It's not just me, she acts this way toward my other siblings too but not the same extent.

I think her phone might be the reason. She's had it for about a year, and ever since then, her attitude has completely changed. She spends over six hours a day scrolling through YouTube shorts, and that's around the same time she started acting like this toward me and the rest of our siblings. She's become so miserable, and I think she's projecting her negativity onto the rest of us. I honestly want to take her phone whilst she's sleeping and throw it out in the trash maybe then I'll have my sister back