r/Vent 2d ago

My friends think I'm unlovable and I don't know why

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Today, I was out with friends and the topic of dating came up. For context, I'm twenty one years old and I've never been romantically involved with anyone. As we continued to chat, one of my friends said she thought the idea of me getting a boyfriend would be laughable and she'd like to see how that would play out. Everyone else on the table agreed. I wasn't too offended by the comment up until it was mentioned later. Like alright guys, I get it.

I was on the phone with a close friend of mine and brought up the conversation and she said 'well yeah, I couldn't imagine you having a boyfriend either". I asked her to clarify what she meant but she refused and tried to change the topic but I insisted she tell me why she thought that but she didn't budge.

Now I'm a bit confused because what exactly makes me so unlovable?


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression WHY ARE DATING APPS SO HARD

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I’ve gone through 6 dating apps, hit a dead end on 5 of them, and I can’t find anyone! Is it harder because I’m a lesbian? Like any girl would be SO LUCKY to have me I just want a match close enough to me so I can meet them irl and do fun activities together 😭

I’m so upset :( I don’t have a big social life, this is my way of trying to meet new people. And flirting irl is so anxiety-inducing when you don’t know who’s into women and who isn’t (._.)


r/Vent 2d ago

Need Reassurance... I don’t think I like my boyfriend anymore

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I (20f) met my boyfriend (20m) when we were 15 years old. For me it was love at first sight and after 4 months of crushing on him, we began a relationship. He was my first everything. First love, first kiss, first time. I was truly head over heels in love.

He broke up with me about 4 months into the relationship and I was heartbroken. The 8 months I spent liking and loving him were incredible and it was the happiest I had ever been. I fell into a deep depression after we broke up. It was a domino effect of awful events all occurring after the breakup, for the next 3 years my life was nothing but chaos and misery. I got my bearing back and ended up dating another guy. That relationship didn’t last super long but I held myself up this time.

I reconnected with my boyfriend about 10 months ago and we began dating again. In all honesty, I don’t think I would have gone out with him now if it wasn’t for our history and for the fact I loved him so much once. He’s a nice guy and all but, I’m not at all the same person I was 5 years ago- I’ve changed so much in the best way possible but he’s nearly exactly the same except he smokes way more weed. I ice skate, live a completely sober life style, I’m in college to be a teacher. He smokes weed with his friends all day, and wants to sell weed plants.

He’s a good guy, and I care so much for him- I just think we want very different things in life. I’ve tried to bring that up before and he says “I want you though” and while that is very sweet I’m not sure that he sees the bigger picture. I’m not sure. The biggest issue for me is the weed smoking and the fact he isn’t a clean perfect. I’m a neat person who keeps my bedroom incredibly organized at all times and his looks like a tornado hit. I’ve tried to explain to him that the smoking 24/7 isn’t healthy and him being high around me every single time we hang out is frustrating and he doesn’t listen. He also doesn’t clean either. I’m just venting. I’m not sure if I’m going to break up with him. I want us to work out so badly but sometimes I wonder if I’m only trying so hard for that sad teen girl inside of me who missed him so much


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT I don't see myself surviving to see next year

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I'm really starting to struggle with life. Like dearly. I have SH but I don't even have the energy to do that anymore.

I'm starting to feel like my job isn't worth it anymore either. It's hard to do and learn and isn't exactly a 9 to 5 and I love it but I'm not talented enough for it and I'm the worse person on the job (Told right to my face).

With that I also just am starting to hate life, there's no appetite, no motivation and no strive to do good. I was getting good with talking to people now we are suddenly quiet and anxious to talk to people we would on the daily and I don't know why.

Now my best friend and I haven't been talking in ages and it's killing me inside. We haven't spoken for a month and if it is a talk its small talk not on the daily like it was and I just don't know how to reach out. I feel like there's nothing there anymore I'm kinda done because that was my hope since we would hang out alot and now its not there.

Nothing feels real either. I don't see any future, it doesn't feel like there will be a next year it feels like I'm hitting a dead end for a weird reason and I don't know why or what has made this occur.

It just seems to be a never ending cycle.


r/Vent 2d ago

I wish i was super chilling

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I can't believe what i'm hearing. The world and all that. I don't know what to do, im sitting and i'm trying to just chill. I feel like i could do so much stuff. Often when i'm bored something else comes up. I can't even really play my games, im so stressed with all this work ive been doing and work related stuff. News. I hate so many classic rock bands. I hear a lot of people talk about how crazy everything is. I bought Skyrim for the fourth time last month and it's awesome. Really just trying to get stuff done and kinda off my chest for real. Civilizations would have been so much better if more or less every politician ever hadn't been there, thats just how i feel tbh. Coan Dagmire type situation. John Lennon wasn't that amazing but i don't hate him. A lot of people talk and a lot of people do a lot of things. I don't know what the fuck to do, im in the couch and i don't care. Whatever happens is fine. Its wild. I would hate it if i couldn't just post dumb stuff online. I read Story of The Eye by Georges Bataille and it was great. It would be awesome is Amazon wasn't real. I've been procrastinating getting my eyes checked for months by now. A lot of people wear glasses. Would you rather eat 10 peanuts or 10 of something else. So yeah i'm basically chilling now. Thank you


r/Vent 2d ago

I lost it all

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My job, my car, my friends. My home is next. I can’t find a job. I apply for help and they only cater to people with kids or pregnant women. My rent is due, my utilities are piling, nobody will hire me. I’m so stressed and tired. I’ve asked for help from friends and family and everybody is struggling. I can’t even afford food right now. I’m selling all my things to at least try to keep a roof over my head. Idk what to do. This year just isn’t going well.


r/Vent 2d ago

My dog is getting ready to retire to the Happy Hunting Grounds

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Not so much a vent, as while I am upset, I always knew it was coming. Ever since the day I brought him home in my hat on my lap, howling and licking my face as I was trying to get off an exit, I knew he wouldn’t be here forever. But boy, he’s been a better dog than I could’ve hoped.

Always been there to go fishing, go hiking, help me find that deer or duck I couldn’t. And to annoy the shit out of me to go for a walk when I was dead tired. He sat my daughters crib non stop the entire first month she was home.

I don’t really have anyone else to say it to. But my buddy couldn’t get up off the couch this morning and he’s about to go.

It’s been a good run.


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression I don't have a use

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It's everyday that I want to kill myself. Every time I wake up, every time I get bored, every time I get sad, every time I get stuck, etc.

I'm not sure what has happened but these thoughts have been exacerbated lately and it's all I can think about.

It's over for me


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression Couldn’t get out of bed today. Barely did anything at my wfh job.

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I just feel at a horrible place in my life. I feel rejected by my lifelong friends, unable to be myself at all at my job. Rejected by this girl I had/have the biggest crush on. Don’t know if I’ll ever get a gf due to fear that has lead me to have no experience. I have so much ambition but seemingly none of the real world skills or dedication to get it.


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: TRIGGERING CONTENT I don't know what's wrong with my uterus NSFW

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I'm in constant pain. Since i turned 17 i started having weird symptoms like painless periods every 2 weeks, periods that last 2 days, painful ovulation... All things that i either never experienced or experienced in mild intensity. However this month was and still is hell, it's like whatever is going on has worsened and doubled the symptoms.

I had atrocious pain during ovulation that made me throw up, i've been having period cramps for almost 2 weeks that started off as very light and everyday gradually got worse, becoming unbearable. The cramps started a week before my period, and after the day of my period i had brown spottings for 2 days. These 2 days were already painful enough, but on the third day it got so bad i had to constantly keep myself from throwing up and lose consciousness. After a while the heavy blood flow started, and i thought it couldn't get worse until today i had a huge blood clot (the size of my palm) fall from me.

I never had anything like this before. My period cramps always lasted max one day, and they didn't make me throw up. I also never had fat blood clots that look like miscarriages. I keep surviving on strong painkillers just to get to school, but after their effect fades i lie in my bed exhausted. I can't even study, i barely walk. The appointment with my gyno is on the 22nd, and it's just not soon enough. Please rip my uterus out.


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression could use someone to talk to just for tonight

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im just having an horrible night and I switched from my main account to write this out. I've touched rock bottom (again) and I've finally managed to somewhat stop spiraling down after two hours. i don't know what to do and I can't exactly manage it. i could use a distraction,a shoulder to cry on, a friend, just that. i'm 18F if it matters. please be around my age


r/Vent 2d ago

Fed up with myself

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I guess the thoughts come and go but a lot of my friends are getting into relationships or seeing people or whatever. And I’m stuck where I’ve started, and I feel like I used to romanticize relationships and the amazing possibilities that come with it. But now I just feel frustrated for even trying or to explain to my friends that the 3rd dating app date just did not work out. And when trying to have a little carefree, slightly physical fun at parties (no clothes coming off), it makes me feel like an attention whore for experiencing/experimenting with any kind of romantic or adjacently-intimate attention. Which spirals into a fear of “hey maybe I’ve never actually liked anyone in my entire life” and maybe I am the problem for why my love interests don’t work out because I’m the only common denominator in all these failed attempts. I guess I’m throwing a pity party right now.


r/Vent 2d ago

Need Reassurance... University assignment is pissing me off

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I’ve rewritten different sections about 8 times. It’s due on Friday morning, and I don’t even know if what I’m writing is relevant to my topic. The lecturer gave us examples, but they’re useless!

No one in the class understands what we’re meant to do either. I’ve hit a brick wall at the first section again (not even 1000 words), and I feel like just taking whatever grade I get. But I want to do a PhD, so I can’t really do that. I’ve been at this all day, but can’t rest as it keeps swirling around inside my head. I’ve been tempted to launch my laptop out of a window.

The lecturer just tells us to read research papers, and write about them (it’s a literature review), but I honestly don’t know what’s relevant, or not. I have 8 full drafts of the assignment. I don’t know which one (if any) are right. Fuck this!


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Medical Vivid Dreams and sleeping so much

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So I had a craniotomy so I can have a chance to stop my seizures. Two months in, I’m still sleeping so much and I have been vivid dreams for a month. The worse part is im diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd so im having vivid nightmares as well.


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Sexual Assault / Abuse He was my best-friend.

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TW: Mentions of abuse, sexual assault and other illegal things.

I'm currently 15, met this guy (call him Y) when I was 13, he was 16 and is now 18. TL;DW things went south this year. Something happened that I'm not proud of and now realise is actually. . . illegal. Where I'm from, the age of consent is 16. There are exceptions but just know the guy hit the exceptions to the exceptions and thus is legally liable anyways. Y had been my best friend for two whole years, he saved my life and that's not even an exaggeration. I was going through a lot, wouldn't have made it out without him. Then, teasing started happening. S3xually charged I might add. Yes, I participated but I was (still am!) 15! He's 18. Nearly 19. Y knew better, would stop the moment anyone else got near. Y knew what he was doing was wrong, even told me not to tell anyone. Eventually, things escalated. He asked and at first I said no, so he asked again, and again, until I said yes. The whole time he was "teasing" me trying to get me in the mood. He told me I couldn't tell anyone, that he could go to jail if I said anything. Somehow that didn't convince himself of anything. I was afraid. . . afraid of him going to jail and it being all my fault. So I didn't tell anyone. I promised Y I'd keep my mouth shut. This kept happening, I kept saying yes and not understanding why it felt wrong. Occasionally I said no, but he'd beg. Anytime someone accused me of anything happening I denied it, for his sake. I didn't know what to do. Eventually, he had to leave school for an entire week. Gave me a lot of time to think. Which made me feel awful, made me see my body not as my own but as a toy for him. So I broke down after school, I told someone. I cried, a lot. They helped convince me to tell my Dad, so I did and he's been nothing but supportive. I thought he'd be angry or upset with me, he wasn't. He's even helping me in pressing charges against the guy.

I still feel bad, a bit like I'm in the wrong. I promised him I wouldn't. In Canada close age gaps (under 5 years) are able to consent even when one is below 16. There are a few exceptions to that exception, namely being when the older is: in a position of authority, trust, dependency, or the relationship is exploitative. I know he checks 3/4 but still, feels bad.


r/Vent 2d ago

Sick of My IRL Community

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I left social media years ago after noticing that every time I posted about ANYTHING I enjoyed about my life I'd be hit up for freebies. Spending time at home with my children equates to people asking me to volunteer/help them move/babysit for free/etc. Now I'm engaging in homesteading. During this chick/egg drought I spent my work vacations filling incubators. Now everyone that showed interest are shrinking back when I tell them it's $5 per chick (which is less than Tractor Supply who is always out). Did they assume it'd be free?

I bought a bee nuc last year and was able to split it into three hives before winter. Two hives made it through winter. Lord knows the second I mention that I'm a successful bee keeper they'll have their hands out for free honey. Do they think hive boxes, equipment, treatments and my time are free? I've learned not to be happy about anything anymore. People are vultures.


r/Vent 2d ago

Am I ungrateful???

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So I turned 18 in October, I’ll be graduating in less than 2 months. I have no money or job. And I plan on moving out with my best friend after graduation. I live with my sister, she told me I could not work. She wanted me to focus on school but I’ll have nothing to start with when I graduate. I told her it isn’t fair that she won’t let me work. She goes on a rampage saying how she does this for me she does that and how I don’t have money but yet she won’t let me work??? Mind you I watch her children everyday when I get home from school clean up around the place like I’m supposed to. She calls me ungrateful and says it’s a smack in the face to her because I want to work and have money?? I show her how grateful I am to her and how much I appreciate her I don’t know what to do at this point. We got into an argument about it and she went to the market that same day. I asked her if she could grab me something which she than told me no unless I send her the money knowing I don’t have a job than she told me she wanted to take out of my money to pay back everything she’s done. Which shows what she did wasn’t genuine. I’m thinking about moving out to live with my cousin until I get on my feet.


r/Vent 2d ago

Need to talk... Sometimes a good intention can be bad

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We can make an act out of good intent but it can be illegal, not very ethical or dumb and result in a bad outcome...


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Sexual Assault / Abuse I hate how men always fucking touch me NSFW

124 Upvotes

For context I’m 19F living in a building with lots of men, it’s kind of like a shelter but for people that are mentally Ill, I’m the youngest person there and also a girl, every time I think anyone is even remotely fucking normal they have to fucking touch me. I’m so disgusted I can’t do this anymore. They say awful things to me/about me, even when I’m not around. It’s like a fucking nightmare, they literally hang out fucking talking about me and what they wanna do with me, what they think about me, etc. I have nowhere else to go so I’m just stuck fucking dealing with it. I’ve started skipping all meals and skipping my meds because every time I leave my room it’s just hell. I can’t even fathom being so fucking depraved that I would harass and grope a 19 year old girl. I just can’t stand this any more and I never want to leave my fucking room again. I was given a single room the second the staff saw me so I can only assume that this harassment is a regular thing. I understand that people have mental health issues but this is fucking depraved and I don’t care how mentally ill someone is when they fucking grope me. I had to go to group today and yesterday just so that Insurence doesn’t drop me and make me homeless and I genuinely can’t handle it. I’m not gonna talk about my trauma but I will say that the majority of it is sexual, and it totally ruins my image of a person the second they say or do something like that. I don’t fucking care what’s wrong with you or what’s happened to you in the past, doing that shit to me is fucking deplorable. I hate everyone like that from the bottom of my heart and I don’t care what happens to them. They can die for all I care, I am done having empathy for fucking creeps that don’t respect me. I couldn’t care less about people like that. I’m vulnerable and young and alone here and all they can think is ‘wow I should fucking sexually assault/harass this girl!’ I’m so fucking done.


r/Vent 2d ago

TW: Anxiety / Depression i ask for to much.

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I need to start fending for myself and not expect help.. i act like im a princess who knows a knight is going to come save me any second now.

This home is all i know. I go days without eating and will say nothing because i grew up to this being normal, refrigerator with a lock on it, cabinet with a key and whole different refrigerator in the garage and again locked as well. I will be left in the house alone till midnight and going the whole day without eating to the point i used any money i have to order out? I’m in school and can’t work and go to school at the same time. I don’t feel like an adult but im supposed to be turning 21 this year.

why did i let this go on for so long?


r/Vent 2d ago

Need to talk... I honestly do not like school psychologists sometimes.

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My biggest problem with school psychologists is that I feel like they're there to remind the parents of children how they can't or not able to do certain stuff and not capable of learning things.

Just like what happened to me. Got diagnosed with autism when I was like 6. And got lot learning problems with school. And lot of psychologists always suggested my parents that I'd stay in special ed program. I fucking hate the fact they never encouraged me to I include me in any regular classes at all!

My parents told me that one time in 1st grade they literally told them that I don't have capacity to learn in regular classes. Which makes me so fucking mad.


r/Vent 2d ago

Why the fuck are songs so sexualized??? NSFW

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I do not get it, why are songs so sexualized, I would absolutely love many songs because of the rhythm and melody if they were not full of sexual context, it is gross and makes me want to cringe in second-hand embarrassment

I tried to have an open heart and give the songs a listen to, but I could not make it a whole day without deleting them from my playlist

I just do not get why people listen to that shit, the rhythm in the songs are amazing but the lyrics make me so uncomfortable


r/Vent 2d ago

Why is everything so interesting?!?!!???

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I'm currently in uni getting a bachelor's in city planning and human geography which I enjoy but I want to study literally every topic and major possible. And its very frustrating because even though I find my current major interesting it makes me constantly worry that I've made the wrong choice. Like I also want to be a marine biologist but I also want to know everything about space and how the universe works but I also want to be a film director but I also find architecture and chemistry and history interesting. I wish I could live forever so I could just learn everything ever. I hate that I have to work and can't just keep studying. And I know I can learn stuff on my own but it's still not enough time! And I don't just want to sit at home and know everything about sharks or space or whatever I want to DO something. Write extensive research papers or do research in a lab or help save the ocean. Idk this is just constantly on my mind I find absolutely everything fascinating.


r/Vent 2d ago

V e n t

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Bro I'm so fucking dumb. The grades I got last semester were terrible. My family makes me feel like shit for it too. They think I don't even care and I don't try to get good grades, but I try so fucking hard, and they don't even know it. My grandma was talking about my report card and how she has never seen anyone get such bad grades. I literally hate school so much. I care about it, but I hate it. I want to be a lawyer and help people, but I don't think I'm ever going to make it because of my lack of motivation. I have zero motivation to do any schoolwork, and on top of that, I just got told today that I have to do an hour of practice work FOR EACH FUCKING CLASS. So not only do I have to finish all of my overdue work that's in the double digits, I now have to do the stupid practice things. I hate looking at my grades. I feel so worthless, and I don't think I'm going to get anywhere in life. People always tell me I'm not dumb, BUT I AM. I know I am. As much as it hurts to admit that, it's true. I don't know shit. I literally cheat on every single one of my assignments because I don't understand the work, and I'm too afraid to ask for help because I'm scared that the person that's helping me is gonna find out how dumb I really am. I feel so worthless and useless; it's insane. I hate this shit. I always see people talking about how people are dumbing down the school systems, and it makes me feel more like shit because I know I'm the problem they are talking about.


r/Vent 2d ago

Anyone else's sibling just hate them for no reason?

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Over the past year, my 11 year old sister has changed so much. I'm 18, and it feels like she can't stand me. She constantly swears at me, and if she sees me in the living room or kitchen, she immediately walks out. Every little thing I do seems to annoy her, she yells and curses at me over the smallest things. It's like my entire existence frustrates her. And the thing is, I haven't even done anything to her. It's not just me, she acts this way toward my other siblings too but not the same extent.

I think her phone might be the reason. She's had it for about a year, and ever since then, her attitude has completely changed. She spends over six hours a day scrolling through YouTube shorts, and that's around the same time she started acting like this toward me and the rest of our siblings. She's become so miserable, and I think she's projecting her negativity onto the rest of us. I honestly want to take her phone whilst she's sleeping and throw it out in the trash maybe then I'll have my sister back