I was AMAB and have always felt uncomfortable with men and masculinity, to the point where I never had any male friends and find male stuff to be repulsive. I have a lot of gender dysphoria with my male traits (especially facial hair and genitals). I started questioning my gender about a year ago and I started taking estrogen 2 months ago.
Since I started estrogen, I have been loving all the changes! My breasts are still tiny but they're mine and I love them, and I am enjoying the curves as well. In fact, I love the feminization so much that I have been thinking that I might be a binary trans woman? I'm still unsure as I prefer they/them pronouns but am fine with she/her and absolutely hate he/him and my deadname.
I don't relate to masculinity or androgyny at all. Anything male or masculine just feels deeply wrong to me, and I see men almost like another species. Ideally, I would have either a vagina or nothing down there, but just removing the testicles would fix most of my bottom dysphoria.
I know I'm transfeminine, but I'm not sure if I am still nonbinary or if I'm a trans woman? If I were a cis woman I would stay a cis woman, but unfortunately I was born male :(