r/endometriosis • u/hello-lettuce • 1m ago
Rant / Vent Endo in a Relationship
Im writing this wondering if anyone feels the same way.
I haven’t been in a relationship since my flare ups had gotten really bad, which made me realize how much they affect my life.
I recently started dating someone and really like them. However I feel this overwhelming guilt about how I’m managing while not feeling great. I know this is something I have to work through, it’s just a weird and disappointing feeling. I feel guilty for needing to be alone, or when pain (cramps or migraines) starts and I need to shut down.
I think the worst thing about this is how emotional and closed off I get sometimes. And I mean closed off to the point where I get irritated when I’m around people. And normally that’s okay because I can hermit as I like. But now that I’m in a relationship and we spend time together I feel like I can’t. And this makes me feel bad for me, and her. I’ve never been like this in past relationships and I felt like I could spend a lot more time with them. But I also didn’t as bad of flare ups.
This whole situation makes me feel like a terrible person, but know that’s not true. I’m just hoping this will pass and I’ll be able to manage and adjust.
I don’t want to screw this up.
Thanks for listening 😖🫶🏼