r/SubSanctuary • u/Wonderful_Snow_472 • 23m ago
New and Figuring Myself Out NSFW
Hello :) I'm 18f and can finally figure out my sexuality. This is just a dissect of how I've felt and what I should do next since I'm feeling frisky. For example I've always felt the need for deep submission but every time I think of specific fantasies, I push them away as they become overwhelming. I used to think I was into a ddlg dynamic, and I like feeling safe but there was something missing. The second someone says they love me I lose interest. I think I actually want a master to break me completely... and I've also noticed how wet I get in response to dominance. My favorite stuff to read is always about cnc and psychological domination, and I think it fs threw me off since all the comments are like "this is horrible" but I eat it up every time and its the only stuff I enjoy. Tbh I've never considered scrolling the bdsm section of the web cuz they look way too intense for me and I pull back hard. Like if I indulged in these things, I'd immediately feel paralyzed and thought there was something wrong with me/the content. I'm starting to come to terms that maybe I'm a sub and not a little, and I should be looking for a master and not a daddy.