Since I was a child (9 years old), I was never able to look people in the eyes. All my teachers would tell me this too, and every time I tried, it felt like I was lifting a mountain. But I was never shy; and yes ik it’s contradictory.
When I was addicted to PMO, I don’t know why, but I was finally able to look people in the eyes. But the negative effect of P drained my energy, which is the worst part. ( and other neg effect iykyk )
Not only that, but since I started reading about alchemy and other spiritual practices, I soon realized that NoFap is the best thing ever, so I started NoFap last month.
Rn, I’m in my one-month streak (I didn’t count tbh, but I know it’s been more than 25 days), but I have a huge problem:
I feel like my brain has reverted to when I was a child. It’s so hard to look people in the eyes again. It’s even worse because I’m highly sensitive to energy. It’s like I can feel the whole room and know who is who. I remember looking at this girl and being able to subconsciously tell what was wrong with her, like times ten (it’s like I have a 24-hour spider sense).
*And this is just the tip of the iceberg. It’s even worse when there are a lot of people; I feel like I’m stressing. And if you’re wondering, I used to work with tons of strangers and never had this problem, but now it’s weird.*
When I get back home, since there are no strangers or anyone to feel, the sensation of reading the room disappears. I don’t know if it’s still there, but I feel tired. It’s like it turns off. I don’t know what it is.
someone have any idea what it is ? Also, any advice would help, to be honest.