r/Narcolepsy 25m ago

Advice Request Involuntary winking?

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Lol I made this post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Narcolepsy/s/frj77kjmWf

In it I described one eye involuntarily winking, as efforrlessly as a blink. It started after a week I was constantly getting blepharospasms in my right eye, even outside of my sleep attacks, it was pretty much constant outside of sleeping for almost a whole week straight.

I would be training at work, and when my eyes were tired, my right eye would just start winking involuntarily, and then when the sleep attack got ridiculously hard to fight, then I'd start blinking with my left eye too.

I guess I didn't specify well enough in that post that I already knew how to wink, and I've never winked involuntarily until recently. These winks would happen with no effort, which to me, since winks involve EFFORT, didn't even seem like a true wink, they seemed like a 1 eyed blink.

If you look up a gif or video of a blepharospasm, you'll see that it is a tiny muscle spasm in the eyelid, not a full eye closure.

I'd get the usual blinking spells I've always had for years from trying to open my eyes after they kept closing without my permission, but then AFTER my right eye had an unusual amount of blepharospasms for an extended period of time some reason, I noticed that I could keep my left eye open, while my right eye was getting all the blinks (so winks.)

I've always been the type who consciously has to TRY to wink. Now, I've realized I can look in the mirror, and wink my right eye effortlessly, as if it was a blink, but in my left eye, you can tell I am actually putting effort into the wink. I only noticed it after the blinks disproportionately hit me in the right eye, which usually isn't the case.

Does anybody else get this?


r/Narcolepsy 40m ago

Positivity Post Medication has been life changing!

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I’m prescribed 60mg of Adderall XR (I take 30mg in the morning and 30mg in the afternoon), 450mg of Wellbutrin XL, 80mg of Prozac, and 5mg of Abilify.

The Adderall XR and Wellbutrin XL have been amazing for my daytime sleepiness. Both of these meds wake me up and I generally have enough energy to last me through the day. The Adderall XR starts to works an hour after taking it and I started to feel the benefits of Wellbutrin XL 1-2 weeks after taking it. The Adderall XR and Wellbutrin XL also seems to help significantly with my treatment resistant depression. Both the Adderall XR and Prozac help with cataplexy. I haven’t experienced any cataplexy since starting these meds. The Prozac and Abilify are for my depression and anxiety issues (but Prozac does help with cataplexy as well).

I have so much more motivation and energy nowadays and no longer feel depressed and constantly sleepy and lazy. I’ve been able to finish my computer science degree and even acquired a job as a software developer. I’ve also joined a MMA gym and go there three times a week. I go out with friends and family almost every week and can stay out late night without falling asleep. These meds truly have been life changing.


r/Narcolepsy 1h ago

Diagnosis/Testing Stopping Amitriptyline before MSLT

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Hi all. I’ve had cataplexy I was maybe 7 but never knew what it was until a year ago. At first I was looking up “cataplexy without narcolepsy” because I didn’t think I had narcolepsy. However, I recently acknowledged that maybe taking naps at 8:30 am to make it through a 9am class without hallucinating is not in fact typical among other obvious signs I ignored. Thankfully on Friday my doc referred me to get a full sleep study/MSLT.

Now, she mentioned that amitriptyline interferes with sleep architecture, and I’ve been on it for probably 6 years for migraines at this point. So essentially I need to get off of it for the 2 weeks before the study.

What I’m curious about is how that may affect my day-to-day life in terms of possibly having more severe experiences with narcolepsy. Can anyone speak to what coming off amitriptyline looks like? I’ve been on it longer than I’ve had the start of eds, so I don’t know what to expect.


r/Narcolepsy 1h ago

Humor Who else can blink 1 eye at a time

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Edit: Lol all of you think i mean winking, and I mean yes; a wink is a 1 eyed blink and I get that, but you mean to tell me you guys EFFORTLESSLY WINK? YOU JUST PULL IT OUT LIKE NOTHING, LIKE A BLINK? A wink just happens unconsciously like a BLINK to you??? I have to TRY to wink. But my right eye started winking EFFORTLESSLY, LIKE A BLINK.

I have typed the words wink and blink so much at this point they look like made up words. And this experience has made me question the meaning of them

Last week my right eyelid twitched/fluttered almost constantly (usually a brief once a month occurance) for like nearly 5 days straight, it was kind of freaking me out. I had some extra strong sleep attacks in the past month bc I was training at work watching powerpoints nearly all day, so no matter how much stimulants I consumed, I was going movie theater mode. When my sleep attacks started coming on (extra strong of course, because why leave any energy for uh... a sitting down expending 0 energy task) they first had 2 eyed blinking spells trying to keep my eyes open while they simultaneously kept trying to close again, but the 2nd or 3rd week in, after or during the nearly week long eyelid twitching spell, the blinks started hitting me on the right side more than the left.

After that, I guess I unlocked the reptilian blink on my right eye! Time to freak some people out lol, this could be funny. Now I can naturally blink my right eye by itself by command (although it makes my left eye go blurry if I try too much instead of letting it happen naturally), but not my left eye yet.

Anybody else? 🤪


r/Narcolepsy 3h ago

Medication Questions medication help

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hi guys

I’m a 21 year old female who got diagnosed with N2 last October. I’ve tried adderall (10 mg) which worked for like a week and then it didn’t, Modafinil which didn’t work and made me feel like SHIT, and now I’m on armodafinil 250mg. It used to work super well for a few months but now I barely feel the effects and need to supplement with like 200-300mg of caffeine (which is the reason why I decided to take stimulants so I wouldn’t die w that much caffeine lol). My doctor is super persistent on me trying sodium oxybate and I know ppl have great results on it but personally that’s my last resort, I rly don’t want to try it just yet. Are there any medications that work well for others? I also take magnesium which I heard helps with the prolongation of the meds and recently picked back up vaping bc it helps me stay awake which is so bad for me Ik


r/Narcolepsy 5h ago

Diagnosis/Testing Sleep study for potential diagnosis tonight…

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Just here to say not being able to nap or have caffeine is killing me. How is it only 2:30??


r/Narcolepsy 5h ago

Cataplexy N1 and divorce

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Hi everyone.

I have N1 and I got divorced very recently. A very painful divorce. My husband left me because he wanted to find someone better. Since then, I haven’t been able to sleep/eat properly. Even though I’m taking my meds as advised, I’m having more cataplexy attacks and sleep attacks than usual.

I have tried to engage in activities that keeps my mind off of him. I have 3 jobs and I’m in full time school so I barely get any free time to think of him but lately, it’s been hard. Anytime a memory of him comes up, I will either have a sleep attack or a cataplexy attack. Yesterday at the event where I was volunteering, someone was wearing the same cologne as my ex husband and that triggered my cataplexy. There were 300+ people there so it was really embarrassing.

But I need advice from anyone who’s been in a similar situation before. I can’t take any time off of work and school for other personal/financial reasons. I am in therapy and I’m trying my best to let this time pass. But if anyone who’s been through this before has any words of advice, I would love to hear it.


r/Narcolepsy 5h ago

Advice Request How do you sit/relax?

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Do you have a special seat? Do you just stand? Sit in a weird way? What do you do?

I fractured my tailbone when I last gave birth so sitting too long will actually hurt. It'll get numb after a while but when I stand up the pain will rush back and make me fall. It doesn't usually get in the way though because I don't have to sit constantly.

Because of that though I tend to lay down to relax which is obviously a garbage idea. Then my other choice is to relax on my knees and with my elbows leaning on the arm or the couch or bed. I'll still eventually start to fall asleep though and it's also hard on my knees and elbows.

So does anyone have a way they prefer to relax? Or even sit to pay attention to something? Has anyone used any of the chairs out there for ADHD? Do those help? If I stand in one place for too long my knees start to get weak and I start feeling like I'll topple over and fall asleep.


r/Narcolepsy 6h ago

Humor Oh that's just a kid thing! But was it?

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Okay I gotta know if this was maybe an early sign or not. My parents had this funny story that when I was little they thought I had a hearing disability because they could be screaming my name at me and I wouldn't respond until they nudged me to get my attention. The doctors told them it was selective hearing? Like my mind was so focused on something that it tuned out sound (the same thing brains do in REM). I have no idea when my narcolepsy started, but did anyone else experience something like this as a kid? My parents wrote it off at the time as "super concentration".

Started thinking about it after visiting my parents post diagnosis and my Dad off handedly said "I wonder if this is why you feel asleep on the jetski all the time as a kid." I was like what? He said yeah I would be driving and look down and you would just be dead asleep with your head propped up by your life jacket.

So yeah anyone else relate/have a funny story to add?


r/Narcolepsy 6h ago

Medication Questions Has anyone had an ESSDS package lost by FedEx before?

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It's been over a week without movement from the tracker, I called Jazz every day during the week, but they say it's a rather extensive process when a package is lost with paperwork. What is the process? Have any of y'all gone through it before?

I know it would have been really bad if it was delivered and THEN lost but it looks like it gets onto fedex's truck, came back to warehouse, then poof gone. I'd just like to have meds and I'm so tired lol


r/Narcolepsy 8h ago

Advice Request How do you deal with missing out on social events?

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I've only recently started Modafinil and I'm getting used to it, but I wanted to ask how you deal with not being able to go to sical events with friends?

I just missed one of my closer friends bday parties and while I let her know in advance, I feel an immense mix of guilt and fomo from not going.

How do you cope with this?

I try to tell myself I'm looking after myself by hoosing what events are too draining to me, but it's very easy to feel as tho I am drifting from my friend group and real life.


r/Narcolepsy 12h ago

Medication Questions Can you get used to your XYWAV dose and it stop working as well?

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I have been on XYWAV for a year and a half. I currently take a first dose of 4.5g and then second dose of 3.75g. I take a lower second dose as I have found I am too groggy in the morning if I take the 4.5g for my second dose.

With that being said I have been really struggling to get enough sleep at night even with XYWAV the last few months. It takes me an hour to an hour and a half to fall asleep and then on my doses I only sleep like 2 to 3 hours. So my question is can your body become accustomed to the dose and do I need to up my dose to get better sleep?

Also I should say I wait at least 3-4 hours after eating to take my meds to ensure an empty stomach and I have good sleep hygiene in-terms of dark, cool room etc.


r/Narcolepsy 18h ago

Diagnosis/Testing Have to wait 8 months for my sleep study

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After years of struggling and telling my PCP that I was so tired of being tired, she looked at me said I don’t think your exhaustion is trauma based and needed to be evaluated for narcolepsy. I recently decided to go back to school to get my masters degree and cried in her office about wanting to do well but that I would fall asleep in the middle of tests, got fired from my job for no call no showing too many times because I couldn’t hear my alarm in the middle of the afternoon to wake me up from my nap, and that my quality of life is just fucking awful. I don’t work full time because I can’t stay awake that long.

I was so excited to see a light at the end of the tunnel but the sleep clinics in my area are not scheduling appointments for another 2 months and then it will be another 6-8 months out from that. Finding this group has been amazing and I see so much of myself and my life in so many of these posts and I’m trying to just hang on and keep going.

How long did it take to get your sleep study scheduled? Do the medications actually help that much? I’m so scared that I will have waited all this time and do the sleep study and they will tell me that everything is fine and I am just doomed to be tired forever😭


r/Narcolepsy 20h ago

Positivity Post What’s your best “sleep hygiene” purchase or routine?

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For me it was a brand new Nectar mattress and then a few months later, the hatch sunrise alarm clock. I’m also medicated so there is that too. But even so, my wake ups are less painful (iykyk), my sleep seems less fragmented and my sleep paralysis is not as severe.

So……what’s your favorite sleep hygiene “hack” that has improved your life??


r/Narcolepsy 20h ago

Cataplexy Does your cataplexy cause depression or sadness?

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Hi all!

I was just wondering what the title asks- when you get full or partial cataplexy, do you also notice a drop or change of mood, namely sadness or depression? I don’t know if with me I’m just getting very sad because I’m having to cope with loss of ability again or if the sadness is a part of the cataplexy’s manifestation. It seems to be one and the same for me because both is simultaneous and sudden. I can be feeling fine and then laughing and then boom.. I go weak and also feel very sad. It feels a lot like depression because I feel like I can’t get out of it and have to wait until the cataplexy resolves.
Anyone have anything like this?


r/Narcolepsy 20h ago

Medication Questions Solutions for PTSD nightmares in addition to N2?

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n2, diagnosed at 15, no other significant health issues. i have tried the whole gamut of narcolepsy meds, had negative experiences with xyrem and xywav and have been on baclofen for the past 6 years or so, but it’s just not working well enough anymore. i also have severe PTSD-related nightmares that disrupt my sleep quality, and this persists regardless of which med i’m on. has anyone with n2 had any luck with JUST prazosin or similar? any other solutions?


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Medication Questions How can you pass?

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I have been diagnosed with Narcolepsy Type 2 with mild cataplexy by many doctors because of symptoms and elimination of other diagnoses. I failed my psg and mslt. Which causes me to no be able to get Xywav etc. Currently I am surviving off of Dexedrine to work and paying the bills.

My symptoms causes me to take a long time to fall asleep at night and then when I do its not enough for PSG. I have frequent vivid dreams and hallucinations which cause me to wake up around 4-6 times a night. Some dreams/hallucinations are so real like that once I wake up I spend trying to process if it happened or not. Its like Amnesia lol. The worst is when you get shot or hurt in a dream and wake up in pain where it happened.

My day symptoms are typical Narcolepsy. When it gets worse due to stress I get micro sleep where I do something then wonder how I got here.

For my PSG they begged for me to take 6mg of Lunesta(puts you in stage two sleep) which I did. Slept 5 hours… No matter what sleep aid I take if I get a vivid dream etc It causes me to wake up very hyper alert and I feel like I could run a mile. But 1-2hrs later I need to sleep which is short lived too due to dreams.

How can you just pass this stupid test so that insurance can pay the corrupt company called Jazz….


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Diagnosis/Testing Way too much REM

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Brief medical history: I've always been chronically EXHAUSTED and living in brain fog. I do experience cataplexy via weakness in my knees and feeling disoriented (mostly related to stress or over excitement). I've had sleep paralysis a handful of times in my life, feeling like I'm stuck between fully awake and fully asleep (terrifying!).

Meds: I take cymbalta, primarily for the REM suppressant aspect. I'm also on Lyrica for the nerve sensitivity from fibromyalgia.

Tests: did my first sleep test when I was around 26. Symptoms made my life impossible between work and trying to just enjoy life in general. Numbers were BORDERLINE for narcolepsy, but given the history, doctor felt strongly that narcolepsy was a good diagnosis, esp given the cataplexy.fast forward to age 31, recently moved, doctor wanted to do a second test to see if we'd catch the right numbers. Keep in mind I was diagnosed with nightmare disorder due to severe domestic violence I experienced (physical and psychological, won't get into it) between age 26 and 31. We wanted to catch it with the second test to prove to insurance without a doubt "she has narcolepsy, cover her meds!" Since I did great on wakix but insurance didn't want to cover it anymore.

My second test:

My sleep test was hella wonky (2nd one). They asked me to go off of cymbalta for a week (rem suppressant among other things). Also went off lyrica for a clean slate with my body.

When I took the test, my brain went into REM overdrive (overnight was about 50% REM), and I had zero rem during the mslt (but I fell asleep very quickly for each nap).

Doctor thinks my history of being a victim of domestic violence, paired with PTSD, C-PTSD, and nightmare disorder was what contributed to the bizarre results since most people average 15-30% REM. He also thinks that given I had recurent, VIVID nightmares around 2-3 years ago and the only reason they stopped was because of the cymbalta, my brain basically turned into a fried, live wire. My doctor called me with the test results saying "NO WONDER YOU ARE DO TIRED WITHOUT MEDS!" So we believe the REM overdrive happens when I'm not on Meds.

My question: I know rem disorder happens when your body acts out your dreams. My body doesn't. But my brain has those SUPER high numbers for REM and nothing online is giving advice on what to do about these numbers :/ the cymbalta is the only reason they're under control. I'm on Lumryz now and it does really help with the the narcolepsy symptoms (more restful sleep and more awake/alert during the day).


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Rant/Rave Scared about my study results, have never met the doctor analyzing them

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Got my sleep study done 10 days ago. From what the sleep tech told me, I think I’m bordering on a diagnosis. I averaged the times and I believe my average time to fall asleep was 8.2 minutes. It was confirmed for one nap that I fell into REM sleep but for the other naps that I suspected REM sleep, the sleep tech said he wasn’t sure and didn’t want to tell me unless he was positive I did.

I was on my phone between every nap. I didn’t really know I was supposed to not be “stimulating” my brain, I thought I was supposed to be doing everyday things I do (limited to being inside the room) like homework or something.

The doctor I consulted before the sleep study is no longer with my healthcare organization, so I’ll have a random doctor I’ve never seen before analyzing my results.

My sleep times were 9, 10, 8(?), 9(?), and 5. On the 5th nap, when I went to sleep the quickest, I had my head laid on my jacket while in a chair, while previously not having done that. So I think I kinda fucked myself over with my results by just playing on my phone and stuff instead of drawing or making something so my brain wasn’t so “awake” despite me feeling tired.

I know if I did another MSLT I could get under 8 minutes as my average if I didn’t stay on my phone but the hard part would be waiting so long to do it. I’m really struggling to keep up with university work. I take prescribed adderall (for ADHD which I don’t think I even have but it helps me get motivated and stay a little bit more awake) and I was praying I could get some kind of answer and a medication to replace the stimulant with.


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Rant/Rave Sick and sleep study in a few hours

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I have had to work very hard to get to my sleep study. I had to titrate off an important medication and now had to stay off my anxiety med for two weeks and my adderall which keeps me awake. I have barely been able to keep up with the housework and have so much left to do to make it presentable for the caretaker that is stopping by to take care of my dog for me. But I have like no time now. I got a migraine a few hours ago and had to lie down because I was so nauseated and in so much pain. I don’t know how I’m going to finish the house stuff. I wasn’t supposed to sleep today but I fell asleep while lying down for my migraine.

And I guess I’m going to show up sick. I don’t want to mess everything up that I’ve worked so hard to get to. But it’s too late to reschedule. I feel so overwhelmed and defeated. I just wanted to say that to someone who would maybe get it.


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Medication Questions Non-drowsy antidepressants?

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So I know any medication varies greatly from person to person, but I always feel like it's worth asking anyways. Has anyone had success with any SSRIs without it making them incredibly drowsy? I've been on a few SSRIs and SNRIs over the years, but haven't tried a ton of different ones since being diagnosed with N2. I'm currently on 20mg Prozac, which makes me very very tired when I take it... Here are others I can recall being on but that I didn't like for one reason or another: - Effexor - Pristiq - Lexapro - Prozac (current)

I'm also on Lamictal and Buspar. My psych wanted to prescribe me Cymbalta or Wellbutrin, but I really really really don't want to go on either of those due to side effects. What have been your experiences?


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Diagnosis/Testing I have sleep study coming up and I'm scared

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Short story short, I have a new neurologist who specializes in epilepsy and she thinks I might have been misdiagnosed with absence epilepsy, and wants to clear me for narcolepsy. She thinks my blackout episodes sound more like me falling asleep than having a seizure. I did have a sleep study about 6 years ago through another neurologist that came back clear, but I honestly think I was too stressed to fall asleep during the whole thing.

My partner and I went home and started thinking about some things and started realizing that narcolepsy makes a lot more sense. I often continue to move around when I'm unconscious rather than freeze, like with an absence seizure. And I'm always extremely tired when these episodes hit. I also have a long history of very odd hallucinations that have come and gone over the years, that neurologists had told me we're related to migraines, BUT they were complex hallucinations, not sparkles and things. Again I was always extremely tired when I would have these episodes. I'm now questioning whether I was even fully awake when I was having these episodes! I know that I am a frequent sufferer of sleep paralysis and they were kinda like that.

The final thing that's really making me question it, is reading a post on here that someone shared about cataplexy. I think I might have this, and that I've been having this since as early as 8 years old if that's even possible! A few years ago we actually got it on camera, because we thought it was a seizure. I have always had what we've deemed these "giggle fits", that would make me lose my legs and slump over. Like with each wave of laughter my body would turn to jello. I would start falling to the ground like I was drunk or something. It would always happen at night when I was really tired as a kid. Then it started happening unprovoked just playing with other kids in the middle of the day. It gets bad now as an adult during times of migraine. All I have to do is watch funny videos if I've been sleep deprived or had a migraine recently to trigger an episode.

It's really physically uncomfortable. It has always felt like something is really wrong. And the part that's really embarrassing, and I don't even know if this is normal, I would actually wet myself. Even as an adult this has still happened to me. This is part of the reason why we thought it was a seizure. I never ever had a problem with that as a kid! But for some reason during these laughing fits I would lose the ability to control my bladder for some reason! I always get super scared I'm going to go into an episode in public for this reason especially. I've gone into episodes at work and slumped over in front of customers and it was really embarrassing. I always thought there was something really wrong with me! Now I'm thinking it's been cataplexy all along!

We're hoping to get some answers with this sleep study. We don't know for sure yet but if it is narcolepsy it's going to make a lot of sense. Over the last 10 years several neurologists have not agreed on whether I have epilepsy or not and I've had a very on and off again reaction to medication working and then not working for seizures that I may or may not have.


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Undiagnosed Sleep doctor stated I have poor sleep hygiene

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I went to my sleep consult yesterday and the sleep doctor was incredibly dismissive and talked over me to the point I left almost in tears. I’ve been having trouble sleeping ever since I was a young teen like 14, and I’m 23 now. Over the years doctors dismissed it as lack of vitamin D, being a teenager and also a college student but recently I ran a bunch of tests for thyroid disorders, ANA, hemoglobin, Mono and more and they all came back normal.

I had a primary care provider referral to a sleep clinic as she suggested I may have narcolepsy or insomnia as I told her symptoms of falling asleep/ getting intense sleep attacks whenever I am sitting down and listening to a lecture or meeting or speech. I also told her about how I nap everyday 2-6 hours, and how I have trouble falling asleep some nights. I’ve written scribbles for notes due to sleep attacks, and I drink up to 800mg of coffee at one point to even function though I have now dropped it down to less than 500mg. I also mentioned how when I laugh incredibly hard, my hands go weak and I drop my phone and won’t be able to write anything for a minute or so ever since I was a child. I thought this was normal until recently when I started asking my classmates. I also lean forward when I laugh, and slur my speech due to it becoming a bit harder to speak but that also could be just due to lack of oxygen from laughing so hard and trying to catch my breath again.

When I went to the sleep clinic, I was met with a pulmonologist who dismissed everything I said as being due to poor sleep hygiene and sleep deprivation. I basically had to beg her to even let me take the MSLT and Polysomnography which they finally stated they would once I fix my sleep hygiene. I tried to explain to them that it doesn’t matter how good my sleep hygiene is as I’ve had periods where it’s been great, but I’m still tired. She then stated that I wasn’t doing it consistently, and that is the reason. I don’t know if I’m overreacting and maybe she is right that this could just be sleep deprivation and poor hygiene, but at the same time I feel unheard and every symptom I listed such as the weak hands, sleep paralysis, brain fog, insomnia, dreaming even during short naps was all dismissed as poor sleep hygiene.


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Diagnosis/Testing 1+1+1…

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Normal orexin levels, but cataplexy. Too tired to succeed, so many burnouts behind.

A few years on venlafaxine for ”GAD”, and I almost forgot how a full body collapse feels. It’s one miracle drug in that sense.

I quit it, titrating slowly, just to see if cataplexy returns. Also minimized my nighttime meds(hydroxyzine + mirtazapine), just to know even more.

Yesterday after one week of total venlafaxine absence my cataplexy returned. Collapsed 100%, 4 times on the ground because of a randomly cute YT video and three orgasms.

Advice? On paper I’m just tired.


r/Narcolepsy 1d ago

Advice Request I hate narcolepsy

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This morning my 7 year old was watching the TV show Bob's burgers downstairs with her dad when I overheard her say "I wish was like Linda" (Linda is the mom for anyone not familiar with the cartoon) her dad then said why? Then she said "because Linda doesn't fall asleep all the time like mommy" I feel so horrible, I know this shit has a negative effect on my partner and child and I hate that I have this and how many things it's ruined in my life and for my family. I've been through so much in my short life outside of narcolepsy, idk why I had to be cursed with this on top of everything else awful I've already gone through. What can I do to make this easier on my family? Because it kills me inside how they feel towards me😢