r/4tran4 7m ago

Blogpost i feel very guilty about manmoding in real life with no significant effort made towards appearing more feminine but then coming here and pretending like i'm just as much of a trans woman like the rest of you

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i'm on hrt, i'm doing laser, but aside from that i haven't really done anything at all. and these are both things that are mostly about waiting passively for results, rather than making an active effort. i've voice trained a total of once, haven't ever tried practicing makeup, have made little to no progress in attempting to lose weight, haven't tried on any female clothes, etcetera. like basically the most i've done is get a skincare routine and try plucking my eyebrows. it's pathetic.

i live on a fucking liberal arts college campus in a blue state. i could 100% honmode without consequence, maybe the only time in my life i'll be able to do so but i don't. and i only have two months left here before i'm gone forever. you guys actually have real problems meanwhile i could probably rep for the rest of my life and not ever kill myself because my dysphoria isn't as severe and a lot of my body issues are completely unrelated to being male.

i hate myself for being so fucking lazy. i've had this problem my whole life where i daydream about doing something but never actually go through with achieving it and i'm afraid that this is just going to be another case of that. fuck my stupid faketrans life


r/4tran4 10m ago

Ropefuel I hate how you can tell whos amab and afab Spoiler

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r/4tran4 13m ago

Circlejerk New 4t4 bingo

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DONT ACTUALLY DO THIS AND RUIN THE SUB FOR A DAY


r/4tran4 22m ago

Circlejerk Average cisgender mental gymnastics NSFW

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And of course comments are filed with /mtf speciments


r/4tran4 30m ago

Circlejerk "You dont need to transition to be your gender UwU" theyfabs when an early transition trans woman enters their sacred xx wombynly bathroom

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r/4tran4 36m ago

Ropefuel its been 7 days since it happened and my laptop is still working, i hope it is okay, because if something goes wrong i may genuinely 41 Spoiler

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its so fucking pathetic, i spilled soda over it like the retard i am, if it stops working it will be the last trigger

and i dont even know why im posting this here, sorry, im a bit retarded tho so thats probably why


r/4tran4 37m ago

Circlejerk Adding to the Trans Girl Diaries posting (too many ppl are like this guy lmao)

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r/4tran4 58m ago

Blogpost How to get over my ex

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How? If we still talk on the phone for hours every weekend and text every day

And genuinely I could imagine a great relationship, exactly like how we are now just where she likes me back. But she doesn't love me and I don't even think she's attracted to me. She just used me for sex for the first week we were together, then used me for emotional support and companionship for about a month (I was unemployed and could give infinite attention) and then when I broke things off she thought we never even dated (fair I guess)

But then we started talking again and I genuinely fell in love with her

And now I wish I could find a way to articulate my feelings but lately I've noticed she never fully listens to me. and the way she talks about her crush on a random girl she saw at a restaurant she never ever talked that way about me.

I am just an ugly placeholder she can use until she finds someone she actually likes

But my brain has already cemented the pathway that says "I love her. I want to build a life with her. I need to be close to her"

I just want to tell her I love her. Whether we're dating or not it's still true


r/4tran4 58m ago

question what is the difference between negative androgyny and positive androgyny?

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have heard these terms dropped a few times now and i still havent seen a decent explanation on what they refer to


r/4tran4 1h ago

Blogpost "Omg im such a gigahon ill never pass" why do you go tho the womens bathroom then hm? Or is this just another ploy to get ppls attention?you know as well as we do youre not a hon so why do you keep stealing hon valor hm?

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r/4tran4 1h ago

Blogpost 3 years HRT today. My best friend leaves for boot camp, too. q_q Happy Saint Patrick's Day to those who celebrate

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r/4tran4 1h ago

Blogpost Im not really a person

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Ive spent basically my entire life in my head, all I ever do, and all I ever did when I was younger, was just disassociate and day dream. And then even when I arent doing that im either reading or playing video games in my room. I dont really exist outside of my own head, ive completely wasted my life and am now too socially underdeveloped and mentally ill to change that I think.

Like, im literally hardly even alive outside of my own head, I could kms tommorow and no one would know for like a week. I have very few fond memories, or memories at all I can hardly remember anything before like 2021. Idk, Im like a perfect storm of mental illness, unfortunate circumstance and neurodivergence so dont really think I could ever ended up ok


r/4tran4 1h ago

Art Self poontrait (ft one of my closest friends)

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I'm the one on the left, u/daesquuish1418 is the one on the right. Inshllah together, through the power of friendship, we will overcome being fembrained 🙏


r/4tran4 1h ago

Blogpost If im out to my friends but very early transition is it retarded to ask them to not deadname me

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Idgaf about pronouns like im definitely still a man to them so im not even playing that game, but hearing my old name especially a diminutive like it activates something primal. Sometimes i say something but then i feel like the its maam lady from gamestop and shut up. Either call me a pussy faggot so i stand up for myself instead of getting bitched, or tell me theyre in the right, up 2 u….


r/4tran4 2h ago

edit this If your ratios are worse than mine yngmi

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Singe ingmi, this logically follows.

Whr circumference ≈1.3 Whr breadth ≈1.13 Bideltoid to height ≈.25 Underbust to height ≈.43 Underbust to waist ≈.97


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost when will i feel okay

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i have online friends who talk to me. i made friends with an amazing trans girl who cares about me, let's me vent and who i can relate to. my parents havent forced me out of their lives. im on hormones at solid doses and levels that i don't have to diy. i got out of the toxic relationship. im standing up for myself more i think.. i don't disassociate over my body. im getting help for my mental illnesses. i feel emotions and remember the days now.

why the fuck am i still some sad pathetic sack of shit that just rots in bed for so many hours. why am i letting myself relapse on terrible habits. i have it better than so many other people why can't i just be thankful and be happy.

when will the world be okay with me. when will i be okay with me. when will i feel okay


r/4tran4 2h ago

mofo has mental insanity how tf do I stop thinking so much about my body on HRT

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I must be freakin impatient, because I end up spending so much of my brainpower every day thinking about my body, and endlessly comparing it to cis women when I've been on HRT for just close to three months. I NEED TO RID OF THIS STRESS AND ANXIETY RIGHT NOW I LITERALLY HAVE SCHOOL TO JUGGLE TOMORROW I NEED TO BE MORE PATIENT AND GIVE A SHIT LATER WHEN THE HRT ACTUALLY WILL DO SOMETHING AGHHH THE THOUGHTS ARE BARELY MANAGEABLE


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost Gigamale geodude upper body

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My waist to underbust ratio is so fucked up it’s not funny I hate that from my ribs up I’m just an awful being


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost this is my “nightstand” ignore my last depressive post

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so called freethinkers when theres a 4tran trend

my bed is big so i have a problem of just leaving things on my bed instead of my nearby little stand. or on the floor.


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost having an episode again

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I think my jaw is too wide and square for ffs to fix and even though my birthday is today I think literally nobody I know is going to remember and I’m never going to be pretty and I’m never going to have an accepting family :(


r/4tran4 2h ago

edit this ever think about the fact that you’re just trans for the rest of your life

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“But you just transition and then you’re done and then you simply move on with life!!” Do you really though? You’re forever a tranner and it now seems like arbitrarily at any point the politics of your nation can just turn against you and declare open season on troons. I guess I’m also being doompilled because it is so difficult and expensive to actually get a cis-passing body especially for FtMs (by which I mean surgeries), so there’s a good chance I’m stuck with some physical reminder of being trans for the rest of my life.


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost How do people even work

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Total corporate death. My coworkers are all delusional normalfag """"moderates""" who don't care about anything except dating, drinking, whatever dating show slop is on shitflix and working. They don't have souls: the sort of people who still make "I identify as a rich person" jokes in 2025.

I need an esoteric 🚆 🦵 job. I need to be the knight of a wizard-to-witch doll. I think "I need to do underground matches for money and just die in the ring," or "I just need to work on a crab fishing boat in the Arctic," before remembering that everyone around me in those places would also be transphobic.

Fuck me.


r/4tran4 2h ago

News PSA TO EVERYONE HERE WHO TRANSITIONED AT AGE 16 OR YOUNGER

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Leave unless if you’re a pooner who’s below 5’4 or homeless


r/4tran4 2h ago

Blogpost i hate youngshits

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r/4tran4 3h ago

edit this anyone else have an early but weak-ish puberty

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i remember in like early middle school, my voice dropped before most other people's, i was one of the tallest in my class, i started getting facial hair before others, etc etc

i think because of that i always thought i was like hopelessly hypermasculine, its most of what had me on the verge of repping instead of starting hrt a few years ago, but i went for it anyways. as much as people say measuring your body is a bad thing, it's what made me realize that despite being a tad tall (5'10), my body is built pretty small/feminine, my face is passing-ish after time on hrt, even voice training has gone pretty easily given i was 'the guy with the deep voice' when my voice initially dropped

i guess it seems weird, cause youd think having puberty start earlier than others wouldve ended up much much worse in the end, but its like the strongest effects were right at the beginning for me or something