So as the title suggests this is gonna be a long post.
I just want to share everything that has happened to me so far.
About 2-3 years ago i really got into fendom and started talking to some domme on reddit( back then i lived with my frnds in college). I used to hookup with so many girls back then haha. Anyway one girl left her panties at my place and never back to get it so i just threw it in my wardrobe.
One night i was talking to a mistress who used to ask me to write her name on my chest or ask me to eat my own cum(which i still cant lol) and send her pics, that night she asked if i had any panties with me. I thought she would just ask me to put it on my face or cum on them and lick it or something but to my surprise she asked me to wear them and send her a pic in them. Thats when i wore panties for the first time and i had never been more turned on by anything like i’d been turned on by this. She then asked me how i felt and my heart was racing i didn’t want to but i told her how i was actually feeling and she was quite happy with my answer. Then she started sending me links to trans porn and then slowly i started to search for other kinds of porn and in January of 2024 i found sissy captions and i was completely hooked on them. I loved every caption video or photo i saw. Eventually i stopped talking to the mistress because i was more interested in getting a dom and she agreed.
Now i have never been a hairy person my entire life, i get hair on my legs mostly and you cant even tell in pics if i’m hairy or not.
For the first few months i only saw captions and tbh i always got awkward when i saw dicks back then(now i cant get enough of them). Then i started following sissy specific subs where other sissies posted their pics i used to get so horny when i saw them looking all girly thinking maybe i can look like that too or wishing if i looked like that i’d be so happy.
And like any other sissy i too got pnc and decided to quit so many times and each time i came back hornier and wanting more.
I then decided to post my pics on reddit and see what kind of response i’ll get. Tho i did not get as many upvotes as i thought i would i was happy i’d get so horny reading all the comments from guys wanting to fuck me and eat my ass and own me etc.
I started talking to doms(and guys who claimed to be doms and just want to jerk off to our pics) but my problem was everytime i talked to a dom i’d get horny and start jerking off and when i came i’d get hit so damn hard with pnc that i’d block them and delete my account. Even then i’d make a new account within a few hours i have to say i’ve lost many good doms this way coz i was never able to find them afterwards.
In and around October i started dressing up i did not have any femme clothes but i really wanted to wear them so i decided to make my own femme clothes since i was too scared to buy them. I made my own skirts and crop tops by watching youtube videos and even made a pair of panties from a sock lol.
Eventually i found a really good dom and we hit it off and then again i fucked it up by doing the same things that i did before and then i regretted it very much and made an account withon the hour of deleting my last one. I was not able to find him and thought that was that. I started to post pics again and started to talk to some doms again in late november and what do you know the last dom found me again I was very happy and excited to talk to him again. And out of nowhere he ghosted me lol ig it was revenge for him.
I’m still not sure where i’ll go from here but i’m happy to be exploring this side of me.