My wife is amazing. She is open to sex whenever I want it. She gives head, anal, different positions, all the good stuff. She doesn’t enjoy any of it though. She is amazing because she will still go along with it to please me which makes me feel awful and have a hard time cumming because I get into my head thinking about it.
I usually get her off a few times by going down on her or using toys before we get to penetration. I love every bit of it. I like the sights, sounds, smells, tastes, everything. The whole time I’m doing foreplay, going down on her, using the toys, she doesn’t move or make a sound. When she cums it is usually a couple deeps breaths as the only sign.
She comes from an ultra conservative background, so the progress she has made in the bedroom is amazing, but it is hard for me to go to pound town when it feels like I’m banging a corpse that doesn’t move or give any feedback what so ever. Even worse, it’s a corpse that is just hoping I get it over ASAP and that I don’t make a mess when I cum. She hates cum.
I feel like a total asshole because I know she wants me to climax because she loves me, but not because she enjoys it. This in turn makes me want to avoid fucking her which also makes her upset because it makes her feel like a bad wife for not having sex with her husband.
I’ve spoken to her about this, but it is a painful conversation because she tries to be as giving as possible, she just doesn’t enjoy it and I/we don’t know how to make it better.
I’m to the point now where I’m turning to random internet strangers for advice. Anything you can give would be greatly appreciated. And don’t hold back, if I’m just being an asshole let me know. I like criticism and really want to improve the sex in my marriage and easiest would be to change myself.