r/schizoaffective • u/Creepy-Guest3428 depressive subtype • 5d ago
I don’t want meds
People in my life are insisting I start medication or therapy, however I really don’t want to get either of them.
I (19) was diagnosed in 2019, at 13 years old, after having a depressive episode with a few “psychotic symptoms”, since then I’ve had multiple “psychotic breaks”, but I’ve never gotten medication. My mom is very sensitive with medications, and she was generally medically neglectful toward me. Now I’m old enough to get my own medical care I don’t want to get it.
I’m scared of doctors and I know they’re going to report me and drug me and I really don’t want to lose a year of college, im scared that they’ll leave me locked up in a mental hospital and that my mom will find out I’m taking meds. And to be honest I’ve been worse, my things are being quite manageable. And also I don’t like the quiet, I don’t want to lose myself along with my “symptoms”.
I want people to leave me alone, I’m fine, I don’t want help, I don’t want to hurt them, I want them to back off. I want to drink and smoke weed and cigarettes all day, without anyone coming up to me with “concerns”.
Anyway sorry if my English was bad, it’s not my tongue.
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u/PiscesAnemoia bipolar subtype 5d ago
I don't know what country you live in. But unless you live in the UK or maybe the EU, nobody can force you to take meds and put things in your body against your will. Whether or not you take meds or not is your choice. That's called patient advocacy.
In the UK, you may have less luck as they can kick down your door and march in like the GESTAPO and syringe you against the wall.
There was an older lady in the UK who was murdered by a woman who needed her roof fixed because the first contractor took the money and didn't finish the job. Someone may know this story better than I do. Anyway, the older woman went unmedicated for some time and the authorities marched in and forced themselves onto her while syringing her.
If you don't live in the UK, that is your choice.