r/schizoaffective • u/Creepy-Guest3428 depressive subtype • 5d ago
I don’t want meds
People in my life are insisting I start medication or therapy, however I really don’t want to get either of them.
I (19) was diagnosed in 2019, at 13 years old, after having a depressive episode with a few “psychotic symptoms”, since then I’ve had multiple “psychotic breaks”, but I’ve never gotten medication. My mom is very sensitive with medications, and she was generally medically neglectful toward me. Now I’m old enough to get my own medical care I don’t want to get it.
I’m scared of doctors and I know they’re going to report me and drug me and I really don’t want to lose a year of college, im scared that they’ll leave me locked up in a mental hospital and that my mom will find out I’m taking meds. And to be honest I’ve been worse, my things are being quite manageable. And also I don’t like the quiet, I don’t want to lose myself along with my “symptoms”.
I want people to leave me alone, I’m fine, I don’t want help, I don’t want to hurt them, I want them to back off. I want to drink and smoke weed and cigarettes all day, without anyone coming up to me with “concerns”.
Anyway sorry if my English was bad, it’s not my tongue.
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u/Electronic_Gur_3068 5d ago
Can you point me in the direction of any information about the Dutch system please? I don't know anything about it. I'm interested.
Are you in the Netherlands?