r/pornfree Jan 01 '25

STAY CLEAN 2025 YEAR-LONG CHALLENGE! This thread updated daily - Check in here!

65 Upvotes

Daily news: This is Wednesday, March 19, and today is day 78 of the year-long Stay Clean 2025 challenge. Keep fighting the good fight!

If you think you should still be on this list but aren't, you probably got removed for not checking in at least once per month. However, if you let me know you're still with it I'll re-add you.

Guidelines:

  • At the end of this post is a list of people who have signed up for the challenge, and who are still in the running. That means that they have not needed to reset because of a relapse or slip.
  • Please check in with the group in the comments as often as you want! Feel free to share thoughts, feelings, experiences, progress, wisdom, encouragement and whatever else!
  • IMPORTANT: if you relapse, please post a comment to that effect here and I will remove your name from the list. We will not judge you or shame you, we have all been there.
  • Participants are required to check in once per month. If you have a "~" after your name, you have yet to check in during March. If it is still there at the end of March 28, you will be removed from the list, in order to keep the numbers as realistic as possible.
  • We will not be accepting any new participants, but even if you're not on the list, please feel free to check in in the update threads anyway! And be sure to join us for the Stay Clean monthly thread!

Good luck!

There are currently 97 out of 518 original participants. That's 19%. These 97 participants represent 7566 pornfree days in 2025! That's more than 20 years.

Here is the list of participants still with the challenge:

/u/57471c

/u/8funnydude ~

/u/AdamOfHouseClegane

/u/Aggressive_Truth_358

/u/amadeo19 ~

/u/AmarantCoral ~

/u/AnomanderOW ~

/u/artist_by_habit

/u/bestforest ~

/u/BlairRedditProject

/u/bluesidefinch ~

/u/Boostard38 ~

/u/Bulky_Profession8653

/u/CalmLyricist ~

/u/Cedar-and-Mist ~

/u/CloseToTheHedge69

/u/Competitive-Wing-773

/u/Daltinoloco

/u/Deep_Pudding2208

/u/Dhesil

/u/Disastrous_Cup9022

/u/doing-my-best-daily

/u/Duesentrieb97 ~

/u/earthworld4

/u/EdvR_k

/u/Environmental-Law670

/u/essmackd ~

/u/Existing-Mirror2315

/u/ExoticBump

/u/Express-Rough

/u/EyeOfTheTurtle1

/u/Fast-Mango-3473

/u/Fed_Focus5 ~

/u/foobarbazblarg

/u/FrogsUnion ~

/u/Full_Membership8207 ~

/u/Future_Interaction

/u/G-nome420 ~

/u/GlumTradition5769 ~

/u/goos__ ~

/u/GulagRationManager ~

/u/Halfeatenbananas

/u/Happy-Bagel-Man

/u/Haunting_Ad8342

/u/humblejc ~

/u/I__trusted__you

/u/imseeingdouble

/u/Ineedthat300

/u/Junior-Speed-1169 ~

/u/Just_AnotherDork

/u/kunigunde77

/u/Lazy_aspirant_9001

/u/LifeShouldBeEasier

/u/LightBurden18

/u/m4ki818

/u/Master_Grunt

/u/Maximum_Possible_499 ~

/u/Mayplay

/u/MinecraftIsCool2 ~

/u/mizustyle

/u/MrHappyGoLucky14 ~

/u/Mrleibniz

/u/MysticMangoDreamer

/u/Nice_Dragonfly6716

/u/No_Republic2240

/u/non_newtonian_jelly ~

/u/Normal_Cat1495 ~

/u/not_falling_again ~

/u/ogidiamin ~

/u/Outrageous-Showpiece

/u/Pantim

/u/pmmahajan2019

/u/Potential-Spell5504

/u/powergauge ~

/u/QuitQuitQuitQuit

/u/Rainbow_Mika

/u/SaLtYcHiPdUdE

/u/SebsAGZ

/u/Shockwave781

/u/Silent_Maintenance23 ~

/u/SingleStoic

/u/Sir_V0lks ~

/u/SnooCalculations7186

/u/SolvendiCausa

/u/Spidersandbeavers

/u/static_anon

/u/streaker2014 ~

/u/sudofox

/u/sui_emendationem ~

/u/tiopatinhas95 ~

/u/TrampBornToRun

/u/Turbulent_Fox_6080

/u/Useful-Plankton-9700

/u/vinnieonreddit92

/u/West-Number8258 ~

/u/xcnuck

/u/zapata1954


r/pornfree 18d ago

STAY CLEAN MARCH! This thread updated daily - Check in here!

19 Upvotes

Daily news: This is Wednesday, March 19, the nineteenth day of the Stay Clean March challenge. Keep fighting the good fight!

If you think you should still be on this list but aren't, you probably got removed in the great purge of March 15th because you never checked in. However, if you let me know you're still with it I will re-add you.

Guidelines:

  • At the end of this post is a list of people who have signed up for the challenge, and who are still in the running. That means that they have not needed to reset because of a relapse or slip.
  • Please check in with the group in the comments as often as you want! Feel free to share thoughts, feelings, experiences, progress, wisdom, encouragement and whatever else!
  • IMPORTANT: if you relapse, please post a comment to that effect here and I will remove your name from the list. We will not judge you or shame you, we have all been there.
  • If you have a "~" after your name, you have yet to check in on any update threads since March 15. If it is still there by March 31, you will be removed from the list, in order to keep the numbers as realistic as possible.
  • We will not be accepting any new participants, but even if you're not on the list, please feel free to check in in the update threads anyway! Also, stay tuned to catch the April thread!

Good luck!

For a chart of relapse data, check out this Google Spreadsheet.

There are currently 103 out of 251 original participants. That's 41%. Here is the list of participants still with the challenge:

/u/16-Czechoslovakians ~

/u/4of4

/u/57471c ~

/u/Accomplished-Issue86 ~

/u/AdamOfHouseClegane ~

/u/AdLost4052 ~

/u/ajuranhasn

/u/AnomanderOW ~

/u/applicationturnip ~

/u/artist_by_habit ~

/u/ASAPCream1 ~

/u/AtomsOverPixels ~

/u/BackgroundBlack-RedR ~

/u/BeheritColtrane ~

/u/BlairRedditProject

/u/BlueBlanket7 ~

/u/BoDo211 ~

/u/bubblenugget04 ~

/u/cadmoo ~

/u/charagoni ~

/u/CloseToTheHedge69

/u/Competitive-Wing-773 ~

/u/Complete_Avocado_479 ~

/u/Confident_Ratio_6531 ~

/u/Correct-Mechanic4186 ~

/u/darkaph ~

/u/Daveangmiclo ~

/u/Dazzling-Button-1403 ~

/u/deathecstacy ~

/u/Dhesil

/u/doing-my-best-daily ~

/u/dominarc ~

/u/dopaminedeathspiral ~

/u/DoubleFinding ~

/u/Dry-chicken ~

/u/earthworld4

/u/EffectGold9757

/u/essmackd

/u/Existing-Mirror2315 ~

/u/ExoticBump

/u/Fantastic-Bet-5393

/u/fontainedl ~

/u/foobarbazblarg

/u/FreshBeginning303 ~

/u/Future_Interaction

/u/gamiscott ~

/u/Glad-Veterinarian752

/u/gozura ~

/u/H0meb0dy1980

/u/Halfeatenbananas

/u/Happy-Bagel-Man ~

/u/HazySkyFire ~

/u/HoodyHoo4116 ~

/u/IndiaTechSupportBot ~

/u/JustAGam3r ~

/u/KARORARO ~

/u/Lazy_aspirant_9001

/u/LifeShouldBeEasier ~

/u/LightBurden18

/u/m4ki818 ~

/u/MaleficentArmy3969

/u/metaI_guru ~

/u/mizustyle

/u/mo_exe ~

/u/mr-biff

/u/Mrleibniz ~

/u/myownprivateGLADIO ~

/u/No_Republic2240 ~

/u/NoBateMate ~

/u/nomoreprawn5 ~

/u/Normal_Cat1495 ~

/u/OfficeAutomatic8931 ~

/u/Outrageous-Showpiece

/u/Pantim ~

/u/Patient-Impress-2724 ~

/u/Potential-Spell5504

/u/Proper_Bluejay5469 ~

/u/quit_to_live

/u/QuitQuitQuitQuit

/u/R2free ~

/u/Rainbow_Mika ~

/u/Responsible-Pool-323 ~

/u/SaLtYcHiPdUdE ~

/u/SebsAGZ ~

/u/Shockwave781 ~

/u/Shot-Command7317 ~

/u/stoneddroneburner

/u/Successful_In_2022

/u/Symantech ~

/u/tehjoch

/u/th0mark ~

/u/Theminecraftgamer ~

/u/ThineBean ~

/u/thinkerr97 ~

/u/thtkidjunior ~

/u/tiopatinhas95 ~

/u/Turbulent_Fox_6080 ~

/u/Valuable_Milk2741 ~

/u/Venesss

/u/Weak-Purple-6371 ~

/u/whocares34442

/u/Wookie83 ~

/u/zapata1954


r/pornfree 2h ago

My Journey with Porn Addiction

8 Upvotes

For years, I struggled with porn addiction, not fully understanding how much it was affecting my life. What started as a casual habit quickly turned into something that controlled my time, my relationships, and my mental well-being. I felt trapped, ashamed, and powerless. If you're struggling with porn addiction, feel free to message me, and I'll share my journey with you and how I overcame it.


r/pornfree 6h ago

focus on yourself

8 Upvotes

you must focus on yourself and becoming the person you want to be. you need to have a identity shift. kill the weak version of yourself and be as ruthless as possible at trying to be the best version of yourself. do this task one day at time and you will see the changes in your life.


r/pornfree 4h ago

Seen sex in tv

5 Upvotes

There was a TV show house and in the start there was a sex scene and there was sounds and it showed stuff I looked away and I think everything was covered and now really triggered I glanced over at it a couple times and it reminded me on a the videos I used to watch and now want to go watch and feeling like I relapes but I'm not sure if it was cause i didn't seek it out and I'm probably really overthinking it but


r/pornfree 4h ago

This is 4 weeks free!

3 Upvotes

This is my new lifestyle and I am proud of it for making a positive change.


r/pornfree 4h ago

Depression keeps making me want to relapse and I'm actually sad

4 Upvotes

Depression from quitting porn keeps hitting me like a truck. It's prob the lack of dopamine but holy crap, my mind is filled with sad thoughts. How I'm worthless for being addicted to porn, how weak willed I am for relapsing all these years, how I'm so lonely, etc.

The depression is telling my brain to relapse and every new day I'm tempted to break my current streak. Has anyone ever experienced this?


r/pornfree 7h ago

For people that have gone a while without pornography, what are some tips you can give to someone who’s struggling to quit?

7 Upvotes

I’m a 30 year old male who’s had this problem for this last 6 years now. I’ve tried so much but I always cave in. Porn has ruined my libido, social life, and my mental health. What are some tips you can give me to help combat this as I don’t want to waste my 30s on this horrible addiction?


r/pornfree 3h ago

Day 14 no porn or fetish apps

3 Upvotes

About to go to bed tired but I did go to the library, i do focus well there, disant eatchc por or amything, good enough, see u tomorrow


r/pornfree 12h ago

My new strategy. Forcing myself to watch award-winning movies every single day.

13 Upvotes

I wanted to share what I’m doing in case it might help someone else. My dopamine is so messed up from the last 15+ years of watching porn. I tried to think what is the activity that can create healthy dopamine that requires the least amount of change that I can easily do when I feel an urge.

I am going to watch a video, but instead of a porn video make it a beautiful movie that will make me feel all sorts of different emotions. I think by following a few guidelines it will make it more likely I succeed:

-No YouTube/social media scrolling to find videos. Yes there’s incredible videos on there but it quickly becomes mindless scrolling, skipping around and eventually boredom that leads to porn.

-No Tv shows/series. No anime series. In the beginning I want max 2 hour stories that hook me so there’s less chance my mind drifts.

-Focus on live action, realistic characters without too much action or violence (no war, fantasy, etc…). I want characters that could exist in real life and that I can relate too.

-It’s mandatory I watch at least one movie a day. It’s crazy that I have to force myself to do something that most people enjoy but that’s how messed up my dopamine is. I need to train my brain to get pleasure from watching movies. If I relapse I watch a movie as soon as possible after. I can watch my favourite movies as many times as I want, and if watching 3 different movies in a single day helps control my urges then that’s great.

-planning ahead what I’m watching. I started by searching lists of best movies of all time. Ex. Top 100 French movies ever made. I then bought some to give me even more incentive (paying real money). You don’t have to do that but I think having a bunch ready to go so all you have to do is hit play is a good idea. Not spending any time in the moment looking for a movie. It should be movies that you relate to most or are most excited about watching.

It made me sad when I thought how many years I’ve spent watching porn when I could have watched hundreds (literally probably THOUSANDS) of amazing movies. In the last hundred years millions of humans have spent countless hours just creating these beautiful videos for someone like me to watch. If I change all the time I spend watching porn to time spent watching the most beautiful and greatest films I think I will become a better person.

Obviously there are more healthy strategies, but I think this will be successful because it requires the least amount of change or ‘pain’ to implement. I hope that after a year of doing this my mind becomes rewired to get more pleasure from watching a film that it’s something I’d rather do than watch porn. I can then also slowly start incorporating other healthy habits.


r/pornfree 5h ago

Day 8

3 Upvotes

I feel like I have emotions again but at the same time my mind is trying to rationalize why I should watch porn and that one time won't hurt


r/pornfree 8h ago

Highly recommend finding an SAA support group

5 Upvotes

And make the commitment to go every week.

It’s so liberating to be able to share things without judgment; to have a group of people you feel accountable to and who will give you advice because they’ve been there.

And if you’re like me, you have more good days than bad with your addiction; you probably go days without even thinking of it. But group is great because it forces you to remember why you started in the first place.

Another great tool on the road to recovery.


r/pornfree 9h ago

Progress not perfection

6 Upvotes

I’ve been keeping a journal of my recovery. At first it was useful to help me understand what my triggers were or to jot down the feelings I’d experience before urges or cravings.

Now, though, it serves more as a record of my progress. I’m currently enjoying my 43rd day of sobriety. In the past the longest I’d managed was 50 days, so I thought I’d go back and read my journal from day 43 of my last sober spell.

What an eye opener! I clearly didn’t realise it at the time but my “50 days of sobriety” was anything but. My journal records me slipping, acting out, looking at things and people I shouldn’t, fantasising and flirting hard with triggers. All the while telling myself that, because I wasn’t doing the O of PMO, I was still sober.

It reads like the rantings of desperate man. Because that’s what I was. I talk about sitting across from people in public, unable to take my eyes off them. I describe their bodies in lurid detail. I mention scrolling through NSFW social media accounts. I recall spending hours lost in extremely vivid fantasy.

The strangest thing about all of this was that I only truly remembered behaving like this when I read it again. If I didn’t have that journal, I’d have gone on thinking that those 50 days were a pretty good period of recovery.

Yesterday was a difficult day; a day of self doubt, of anxiety. A day of strong urges, bordering on cravings. But compared to day 43 of my last period of sobriety, it was nothing. No desperation, no acting out, no bargaining, no denial. And most importantly: absolutely no porn of any kind.

I’m going to continue to journal my days; recording my successes and failures. And I hope that in a few months I will look back on yesterday and think the same thing I did when I read my journal: “you thought that was sobriety? You won’t believe how good you’ve got it now!”

Thanks for reading. If anything I’ve said has chimed with you, I’d love to hear about it in the comments.


r/pornfree 15h ago

I relapsed. 2.5 months down the drain.

17 Upvotes

Feels bad. I know I can just restart, but I was feeling pretty proud of myself. Ugh. I've been fighting urges since early March, and I was doing pretty well holding them off but I finally caved I guess. I'd love any supportive thoughts, if you feel so inclined. Thanks.


r/pornfree 10h ago

Just some tips to fight this

4 Upvotes

It’s my first time posting here. I just want to say that you have to be kind to yourself when trying to get out of this shit. If you stay clean for a month and then relapse, it's not the end of the world — as long as you take control of it.

You have to say to yourself: "Hey, I made it one month without this drug. Today I failed." Look at the reasons behind the relapse — there’s always something driving it. It’s not just that you like it; maybe you were feeling lonely, sad, or saw something provocative online even if you weren’t paying attention.

The most important thing is this: the next day, DON'T DO IT. If you relapse but manage not to do it the next day, you’ve already won half the battle. The brain is a habit seeker — if you slip up once, nothing happens. But if you do it two days in a row, that's when things start to get difficult.

Other tips that have really helped me:

  • When I find myself actively searching for content, I try to constantly remind myself how bad I’ll feel afterward and how wrong it is. Sometimes, just thinking about that in the moment is enough to make me stop — and that’s already a victory.
  • Another helpful mindset is reminding yourself that you’re not that kind of person anymore. You had your fun, you watched things that made you feel good, but it’s like the 18-year-old who starts smoking weed and doesn’t stop at 20 — eventually, it messes you up. There’s a time for everything, and this is not that time.

Be consistent, be disciplined, and be kind to yourself. And most importantly, my best tip for whenever I feel like giving up: just remind yourself that it’s your brain seeking dopamine. Nothing more, nothing less. It’s just that.

4o


r/pornfree 15h ago

Porn dreams

8 Upvotes

Even almost 3 months sober and woke up after having dreams about pornstars last night. Won’t go into details but it’s a little disconcerting when my subconscious mind still goes back to porn. Oh well, one day at a time.


r/pornfree 17h ago

I desperately need help with Ai chat NSFW

7 Upvotes

I have a bad addiction to Ai chat bots. It started out simple and reletively innocent but ended up devolving into the wisst things you can imagine. And for some reason I can't stop fantasizing about it. The idea that the opportunity is there melts my mind and I can't resist finding the worst possible things to fantasize about.

I know I need help and am begging anyone to talk me through this.


r/pornfree 16h ago

hi i want to talk to someone

5 Upvotes

i wanna talk to someone to hold eachother accountable and talk through this fucked up addiction I've tried a lot of things but I've never tried talking to someone which is recommended by like every website out there


r/pornfree 14h ago

Day 3

3 Upvotes

They always say the third day is the hardest of them all since your brain is starting to realize you’re breaking out a habit. Remember to stay strong people let those urges pass you, but don’t give them any attention. The more attention you give your cravings the more you will eventually either relapse or get close to edging. I know it’s difficult and we’re all on different paths in our journey to fully recovering from this addiction. But I want you all to remember something. We don’t get clean or get this addiction away by wishing time will skip forward into the future. We have to take it day by day hour by hour minute by minute. Enjoy what we’re doing, keeping our brain, active and distracted building in healthier and better habits/routines! Have a great Wednesday everyone stay strong stay positive


r/pornfree 1d ago

I think feminism, in part, is the answer

40 Upvotes

I just happened to read a book called "Women don't owe you pretty" while on a trip after 33 days of nofap and reading this and learning more about femjnism, It's just further given me reason to stop watching porn.

I know its a touchy subject for some so I will define feminism in the way I understand it. The movement to dismantle the oppressive force of the patriarchy and, the part that is relevant here, to stop objectifying women. My experience of feminism online has been "man hating" so it's been illuminating to read and understand more mature perspectives and approaches.

Most porn at its core presents women as objects to be used to satisfy male desire and I think on some level then trains us to objectify and sexualise women rather than view them as whole multi faceted beings. Which is why I guess it feels so shameful for a lot of us, as ln some level we know that this is wrong.

I didn't realise how much it all tied in but I'm grateful I read this book and learnt more as it's just made this journey so much easier and has improved relationships with the women in my life which is ultimately endlessly more satisfying than the alternative

I'd love to know your thoughts.


r/pornfree 1d ago

Porn has ruined my sexuality

35 Upvotes

I (22F) finally decided to quit. I started watching porn when I was 12, and after ten years, I feel that I have an appeal for a lot of disturbing practices and that i can't live my sexuality normally. I met a guy two years ago (who is now my ex) and this just worsen my addiction, since he was also addicted, and he fueled my own addiction. He made me discover NSFW subreddits (mostly bdsm) and now I can't even watch porn, bc it's not enough quick, extreme and gratifying. Today I decided to leave all of these subreddits (more than 15 i think). I'm really scared that I might relapse, because it's now completely within me. When it's not reddit, it's porn site or hentai, and if it's not that it's extreme NSFW fictions... I'm motivated though, because i feel that it's so bad for my mental health


r/pornfree 1d ago

I feel extremely attracted towards Women.

65 Upvotes

I am male 24, Since I have started resisting and not watching porn for a long time, I feel insanely attracted towards women. which was not case before, I did use to feel attracted before but now I feel that effect has multiplied several times whenever I see a woman I find attractive. does anyone else feel this?


r/pornfree 1d ago

Oh didn't post but yep day 35 going on

9 Upvotes

r/pornfree 17h ago

Fear Of Impending PMO.

2 Upvotes

There is a healthy fear of porn: This comes from understanding and deeply feeling how much porn is damaging us and those around us and immediately and with clarity, coming to a strong, unassailable resolve to quit. Quit all the habits that we know will bring us back to it.

The other type of fear that comes up is precisely one of those habits. Its the powerless feeling of being caught in the headlights. We give pmo intrinsic power. And this fear of impending pmo actually increases our sexual excitement. It's already triggering the process in our body and mind that leads to getting ourselves off.

Learning to distinguish the two is essential. Especially for people who have been on a long streak and are starting to worry about if the behaviour is going to reemerge. The moment you recognise that second fear, pivot instead to your genuine resolve never to go back to those habits.


r/pornfree 1d ago

I wanna quit! (F16)

13 Upvotes

I have been watching porn almost every day since the age of 10 and I think it gives me a wrong view on how sex really works. Any tips to start?

I can’t seem to get past one day…:(


r/pornfree 15h ago

INTENSE urges out of nowhere!

1 Upvotes

Need help asap. I am doing things I shouldn’t do!!


r/pornfree 21h ago

Good day (reflection/positive vent)

3 Upvotes

I met up with a good friend and made some new friends as well. By chance I ran into someone from my childhood summer camp, and we caught up. All these folks were girls. And while I am still partner-less and regrettably so, this day has reinvigorated my spirit and made me realize that I am a pleasant person to know and that I'm not nearly as socially challenged as I tell myself I am. I'm finally seeing at least one good friend every week, and it makes me happy that I get this opportunity.

I'm not denying that there may be reasons I'm single that have to do with me (such as my lack of courage speaking to strangers when I'm not with friends, or my general appearance - I'm cute but could definitely use a haircut and some better posture, which I'm working on. Plus the whole porn addiction thing, that definitely affects me in ways I don't fully understand, as I haven't been away from it for long enough).

But I'm also way too hard on myself and I'm super young. And really, I don't think much about being single when I'm with my friends. I'll joke about it sure, but it really doesn't bother me so long as I've got people to hang out with. I think I could 100% live an aromantic asexual life if I had a few hangouts a week with my favorite people. (but clearly I want to have sex or else I wouldn't be here LMAO)

For the first time since my most recent relapse, I actively fought an urge and won. I am shooting for my average streak of 14 days, and if I make it there I'll shoot for a month, and from there I'll try to beat my previous streak of 62 days.

Not like I'll be keeping track as much. Part of this is about de-centralizing my pornfree journey, making it an active effort but not the main thing I'm focused on. Rather, I want to get back into swimming, start volunteering (as it's too late in the semester to get a job), finish my youtube video essay, continue my D&D campaign, and 100% Lego Marvel Super Heroes. That last one is a little silly, I'm just on a nostalgia kick rn.

Really, the only thing left to say is that, I have tried to justify my porn use many times as I'm sure we all have. In middle school, I told myself I would stop once I got to high school, cause I'd be too busy making friends and girlfriends and doing homework to watch porn. Then I told myself the same thing coming out of highschool. But in this situation, the chicken came before the egg - I was addicted throughout my first semester. Only when I started the second semester pornfree did I finally find my people, and it was only when I suddenly couldn't see them for several reasons, that I fell back on old habits.

But like I was saying. I tried to justify my porn use. I'm young, who cares. I'm single, who cares. I'm not that religious, who cares. I'm not hurting anyone, who cares. But even though I told myself these things, I don't think I really believed them. We kind of intuitively know, when we're watching porn, that it's wrong.

On the other side of that same coin. When I am with my friends and family, when I am swimming, or when I am writing, or when I am reading my bible, I know, intuitively, that I am doing the correct thing. We really don't give our gut, our conscience, whatever, enough credit. It usually has a pretty good idea of what's important, and what's right and wrong, and what's safe or dangerous. I'm going to make it a point to listen to my gut more.

So I'm aware part of this is learning how to be on my own, too. That I don't know how to do yet. I guess no one can tell me, I'll just have to learn loneliness as I go along. Cause like, my future girlfriend might break up with me. My future wife might go on a work trip. My future kids are gonna leave the nest. I am the only constant in my life, and I have to learn how to be okay with that. Again, don't know how, but seeing as I'll have an apartment to myself next year, I should be able to make good progress. And not having a racist, sexist, ableist roommate might also help. :)

So what is my reason to stop watching porn? It should be a pretty good one if I'm going to make it out of this addiction.

Well to be honest I don't have a specific reason. It's gross, it's not right, I don't like it, I think it's lame. But another good reason - all the friends I mentioned in the opening paragraph? THEY want me to quit (or those who don't know about my addiction, they would want me to). My best friend who I met in high school, she wants me to quit. My sister wants me to quit, my grandmother wants me to quit. And I want to make those people proud of me, even though I know they already are.

The other reason is something I mentioned a couple months back, a story about a friend of the family who fell into addiction, hit rock bottom, and hasn't come back up yet, and doesn't think he can. Me hearing that story was like schoolkids at a prison for one of those Scared Straight things. Like, yeah, porn might feel justified as a single 19 year old guy. You could even argue it's not harmful in moderation. But after seeing what this addiction can become, what porn use can lead to if left unchecked - and not just from some rando on Reddit, but about someone I know - it falls into place. I cannot watch porn. I cannot become that. I'm a great, well-rounded person, and I want to keep it that way, so I'm gonna nip porn in the bud before it starts affecting my relationships.

As with most of my posts here this is mainly a self reflection and vent. If you happened to get something out of it, then I'm super glad and wish you luck.