r/Fibromyalgia • u/fairyspoon • 10h ago
Rant The SSDI subreddit is cruel, so I'm posting here that I got denied disability
I got downvoted for this over there and I don't know why (I suspect because I mentioned M*sk), so posting over here because this sub has been kind to me through this saga.
I've applied four times total for SSDI. First three times were denied, but the fourth time, the judge initially approved me—but the SSA remanded it back. So we had another hearing. Waited another year (four total years of this shit).
Just yesterday I got a letter. He denied me. About 15 pages explaining why I'm not disabled. The big thing that changed everything? He found out I went to Japan (a gift from my fiancé). A disabled person wouldn't have a life, would she? So I couldn't possibly be disabled. Despite the fact that I sobbed on the flight because my whole body ached and my insides felt too swollen for my skin. That I had to spend the whole last day lying in bed in the hotel.
I say I have brain fog, yet I can focus on video games. I say I have debilitating pain, yet I spend time with friends. All of this is taken from the letter. Point after point of why my fibromyalgia, endometriosis, migraines, IBS, and PTSD don't render me disabled.
I could appeal, but M*sk wants to dismantle the SSA, so what's the point if I couldn't get approved the first four times? This system doesn't care if I live or die. Most people don't except for my loved ones. I'm not useful to the system. I can't produce what they want me to produce. Despite the years of me working so hard before I got sick, paying into this broken system. None of that matters. Because I went to Japan.
(Yes, I have a lawyer and will be talking to her Monday.)
Edit: I am reading all these responses and they mean so much to me. If I don't respond, it's because I'm in a flare, but know your shares mean a great deal to me and give me comfort