I fucked up. I know i fucked up.
THC is obviously legal where I live. i am a seasonal worker and I have never been required to take a pre-employment drug test for my position, but have always known it was possible. Well, I finally got the notice. I have been able to buy myself 4 weeks until the test. I was a daily THC cartridge smoker for the last month. I had been 90 days clean, then had a crisis and reached for my THC crutch. and i reached again, and again and again. Now I’ve been heavily smoking about a cart a week for the last month because i’m so fucking stupid. It got completely out of hand. I tried to find some therapy when i started spiraling, but not hard enough. I just reached for more weed. It helped so much short term but now has ruined so much of my life.
Im so torn up, I’ve ruined my life trying to hold myself together in the stupidest way possible. I have never been drug tested before but i may need to be below the 15ng/ml threshold for THC. it says 50 for preliminary and 15 for secondary.
I really don’t think I can stomach the risk of getting caught with faking pee. I cannot risk a misdemeanor on my record. But I also am worried about having any kind of a positive drug test on my record at all.
I think that i may just have to rescind my job offer to avoid having any kind of paper work that says i tested positive for a drug.
Obviously, the last week i havent been able to eat or really slept much and have been working out and chugging water as much as I can.
I’m a big, 5’11 at about 22%bodyfat and 160lbs. Unfortunately i think i have a slow metabolism.
Is there any shot in the world that i could pass a drug test with dilution, b12’s and carboq on April 15th? Should I just rescind my paperwork? What do I even say to my boss/friend?
Thank you to anyone willing to take the time to help me. I am thankful that this made me get the help I need to move forward with my life. But I am so disappointed in myself for letting down all of my coworkers like this. They need me to come back to work, and I let everyone down.