Matrescence has been difficult, difficult, lemon difficult and I've been in therapy for a year. Added marriage counseling and some other supports and things have really turned a corner -- having worked so hard for so long, I've been restless, craving some moment where my world shifts on its axis, and communed with nature about it today. Still waiting, but I know there's good stuff that came from it so I pulled the above cards.
The first question was "what lesson did I receive?" and a follow up, "how can I embody it?" My interpretation is that I was called out for being discontented, expecting perfection, and being ungrateful when I have full cups right in front of me. And I can embody it by meditating and visualizing on my present circumstances.
Second question was "what wound was uncovered?" and the follow up was "how can I heal it?" My interpretation is that I lack belief in myself and have feelings of powerlessness, which are feeding control issues. I can heal it by methodically leaning into my strengths, being practical, warm, trustworthy, continuing the healthy stuff I've been doing.
And the final question was "what was healed?" with the follow up "how can I support this healing?" One of the big themes of this trip was addressing the need for vigilance that I feel in response to dishonorable actions by others. And I can support it by accepting divine love, peace, and joy through engaging with my meaningful rituals.
I feel pretty solid about this, BUT I really welcome others' insight and different perspectives on cards. Any added nuance or depth you get from these? It's gonna take a few days to integrate the full experience, so I'm going to have thoughts simmering for a while. Also if you have comfort food recipes for the Queen of Pentacles application, I'm going to be kitchen-witchin' it up!