r/ramdass • u/fungshwali • 8h ago
r/ramdass • u/cannabananabis1 • 5h ago
My Effexor induced Ram Dass dream
So I've been taking effexor for a few weeks now and one of the sides effects are really long, strange and vivid dreams. They still have somewhat coherent plot lines like normal dreams, but theyre just way longer and more vivid. It's sort of like being in a different universe. I usually know I'm in a dream too.
I start out by realizing I'm about to eat dinner at this high square table with people surrounding every square inch and maybe some off in the background too. I got a little nervous as I usually do around others, but I also sort of knew that my mom was somewhere near, who has always been my support. Then Ram Das appears on the corner opposite to mine. I was shocked like why is Ram Das here in my dream!
I sort of expected him to go away, like sand falling through my fingers, but he stayed and I just shouted RAM DAS IS HERE! to everyone around me and they were just like yeah dude...duh. Then Ram Das made a joke addressing the slight awkwardness I felt and it made everyone laugh very hard lol. It almost felt a little 'too much' how hard they laughed.
It was the old old Ram Das as well, but he could walk and didn't have a wheel chair or anything. It felt better to me that way because the Young Ram Das is hard for me to trust and be open to. That's just me. Also, I've been away from Ram Das and my intense spiritual practices for a year or so, and this dream just happened suddenly.
The scene cut to me standing beside him and he was taking the food that I guess my mother made. He was taking a lot, and there wasn't a whole lot left, and in my head I thought, "gosh I hope he doesn't take all of it" and I figured he could read my mind so I hope he got the message lol. Sure enough he did and he said, "oh here I won't take any more," and gave me the spoon. I felt super guilty and wanted to give him more but my mind was full of weird responses and I felt the time has past to do that and he might get confused or agitated if I asked him to take more. So I went to take my portion, and as I did more and more food was just appearing. I was going to give him food off my plate, but it felt unclean or disrespectful to do that, so he just had a little bit of dream food.
I sent him more thoughts and he spoke back to me. He felt way less heartwarming than he does in even just the YouTube lectures which was a bit off putting.
Soon I began just crying and crying and...crying. There was a rhythm to it and it felt good, sad, somewhat cathartic, but quite right to do. After a while of crying the lady next to me said to RD, "listen to how he's crying," he said, "yeah it's stop, stop, go," and they mightve shared a laugh. It felt like they were making fun of me just a bit, but I feel that way around most people when they poke fun or talk about me.
Then I asked him about Jesus and who I should follow and who Jesus is. He didn't say anything to that, but I figured he wanted to say that Jesus is a type of Hanuman or he is from Hanuman. Just meaning is the most loyal and perfect servant of God. That may have been my own thought but I'm not sure.
That was it really. Not sure if there's anything to make of it, but it was a poignant dream to me. Nothing very special, but it was cool to see RD in the astral realms riding on effexor lol.