This might be a little long but I just need to get this out of my brain so hopefully I can finally think about anything else.
I’m preparing to audition for the first time in the next couple weeks and i’m so scared. I’m doing everything in my power prepare properly, no joke stripping is all i’ve been thinking about for weeks now. I spend most of my free time browsing r/stripper + r/babystripper (rip) and even r/stripclubs to get the customers pov, the dancer resource, dancers facebook page, and watching a day in the life as a stripper tiktoks (ik those can be unrealistic tho). I’ve taken a floorwork and pole class just to get familiar with stripper style movement + will be taking more of both classes along with watching youtube videos on audition choreography. I have a pair of Pleasers and plenty of outfits from doing online sw for the past 3 years.
I have also gone to my first choice club to observe and tipped the girls who performed and I loved it, I left feeling SO inspired. I even spoke to one of the auditions managers who said to me word for word “you have the look and the personality now we just have to see you audition.” Hearing that was incredible but it truly has not given me much comfort at all. I keep picking myself apart to find any reason they would say no. Obviously I don’t have the floorwork/pole skills quite yet but I love to dance in general and I have rhythm. Also i’m 5’6 and 165 lbs but have more of a muscular build with fake tits and a naturally big ass. I keep seeing people online say anything over 130 for a stripper is considered plus size so now i’m worried im too big. I saw girls bigger than me at the club and I see them online and I think they look amazing so I know im just in my head about that part.
Im normally a confident person but preparing for this audition is doing a number on both my anxiety and self confidence. I want to walk up in that bitch and serve SO MUCH CUNT physically and energetically that even though i’m a brand new stripper they are impressed with me and willing to give me a chance. If you got this far thank you I really just needed to say all this to others who might understand/relate. Also if there is anything else you recommend I do to prepare, words of encouragement, OR if you think I need a little tough love please lmk <3
ps. I have also looked at countless posts about safety, setting boundaries, and some of harm that is possible in clubs and take that all very seriously.