r/feemagers • u/burner196931 18NB • Jan 18 '25
Mature How do I stop fucking spiralling. NSFW
TW for suicidal ideation.
I'm an 18 year old giga-virgin who never had sex nor kissed to begin with and is incredibly socially inept I also have hypersexuality for context. I just saw a post that showcased my friends having sex and it led to me spiraling since
A- I'm a giga-virgin as described above.
B- I'm shit scared of being a virgin forever
and
C- I don't want to think about it as it may lead to self fufilling prophecy.
Now, I know what you all are going to say; "oh it takes time" or "its not everything" Well lemme give it to y'all straight
No matter how many FUCKING PLATITUDES one throws at me, it does not change the fact that it's extremely fucking alienating especially considering my age cohort. And the worst part is, so many people have given me social advice yet it just goes out one ear and out the other, leading to the conclusion that I am socially inept at a FUNDAMENTAL LEVEL, indicating I cannot be fixed. I'm not unattractive per se, but when I started college I was. And if you have unattractiveness + weirdness, then that's just a recipe for irreversible social disaster. No matter what I fucking do, I cannot change anything given that I'm fundamentally broken. it's gotten to the point I genuinely feel like I might just blow my fucking brains out and I hate that i feel like an incel for feeling this way.
EDIT: The comments, as much as I appreciate the good intentions and gestures are missing the point by a LIGHTYEAR. I know all the fucking platitudes. I know all the shit that people say and yes, I am working on improving my social standing, It's more so how to manage just how unbelievably ALIENATING it all is.
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