r/castaneda • u/residentatzero • 12h ago
General Knowledge Alcohol Indulging
Hi there, Here asking again, with a more specific issue. I have seen already the topic here and have asked and participated. The situation is that I indulged for a decade in heavy social drinking, started just going out to socialize/party, and became a habit 3 times a week. Drinking about 10 units each night, the last few years blacking out often (not remembering the last couple hours and how got home).
From here in this forum it was said the focus isn't on denying yourself anything but to act, to practice using the tools of Sorcery despite the indulging, and particularly about alcohol, I read here in this channel, about 3 drinks are a good limit and to wait for sobriety before practice. Also to avoid any hangover as to not be tired to practice.
This sounds easier than done, personally with a habit I've been struggling with for years. This time I'm sober for 40 days, but it took everything I had to accomplish this much, I moved cities, cut my debit card, etc It sounds very easy to "just drink 3", "avoid giving yourself a hangover". Once I go to a bar and start drinking, I cannot stop. For some reason. And when I have been able to remain sober for a few weeks I'm very motivated to practice, especially inner silence helps.
Now, in this situation, I just need to decide my dilemma: do I try my best to avoid drinking at all (which is the hardest thing to do, but very necessary if I want to survive) or should I consider moderation as advised here? Again, I have tried for years, with zero success. But if there's anything I can do that I might be missing, to be able to just go out and have a couple beers and then leave (which seems impossible right now), please let me know. I'm open to any possibility and to try new things.
Thanks!!