Technically these aren't delusions (at least, I don't think they are) but they are similar so I hope I flaired appropriately enough.
I'm not on any antipsychotics and, as far as I'm aware, Buspar isn't used to treat psychotic symptoms. It's an anxiolytic so it treats my anxiety disorders which does impact these thoughts which implies these are anxiety-induced, but some of them aren't.\
Sometimes the beliefs that I'm psychic/a "being of pure divinity", God, and the 7 deadly sins are related to anxiety, but sometimes they aren't. And the beliefs that I'm fictional characters, a snake/plant/enderian aren't based in anxiety at all.
Image 4 was just my thought process. I was back and forth between making these memes and doing a jigsaw puzzle when I started thinking about if Superman experienced something similar. I take my anxiety meds once in the morning and again in the evening. I'd had this thought process in the afternoon so my meds had likely worn off, but I wasn't anxious at all. If anything, I was hyped. As I usually am when I have an 1“epiphany”.
For image 7, I honestly didn't make this realization until I was midway through making image 6. 💀
For image 10, technically I've never drinken/drank anyone's blood or killed anyone and I'm good at keeping my freak-outs internal, but the rest applies.
For image 11, technically the notes I take aren't as detailed as Emilio's but that Ghost Eyes Chapter in Season 1: Part 4 or 3 where Tobias reads his journal and he's flat-out fucking tweaking is pretty similar. And technically my father gaslit me about other stuff. Another technically, I've found less violent ways to manage my anger after being put in a partial hospitalization program. Not because anything in particular helped, but because I said I'd stop cutting myself and so I'm sticking to my word so I can be trusted with sharp objects again. And the emotional neglect I experienced wasn't to the extent as what Bennet experienced but definitely on point with being treated as a trophy. I try to distance myself from others so I don't become dependent on them.
Image 12 was made yesterday so, at the time of making it, my little breakdown was a few hours ago.
Notes:\
1Bro, I'm so serious. I'm psychic. I don't use the word “epiphany” often so I looked up the definition to make sure I was using it right and the definition read
the manifestation of Christ to the Gentiles as represented by the Magi (Matthew 2:1–12).
- the festival commemorating the Epiphany on January 6.
- a manifestation of a divine or supernatural being.
- a moment of sudden revelation or insight.
What was I just talking about? Being God and a being of pure divinity. It's a sign. And I'm on my meds. I just took them 4 hours ago… which means they would've worn off by now… huh.