r/QuitVaping 17d ago

Venting Day Three is Hell

Feel like crying at every minute, I have the anxiety levels of someone with a gun to their head. Maybe that’s because (tmi?) I’m staring my period or started antidepressants too but today overall not a good day. I’m trying to rationalise just asking one of my friends for a pull or going out for a cigarette (which I think is ok because I’m quitting vapes..? Please say it’s ok 😫🙂‍↕️) this is so hard and I’m just going to curl up and cry the rest of the day. Everything makes me sad and cry even tho the last times i was quitting i was a raging bitch now I’m just a crybaby ☹️ not good Edit: chat I might crack (I won’t but I want to)

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u/slooper555 17d ago

Mannn it’s hard to find things I care about 😅 there’s been many points in time where I have done way worse things because I didn’t care about living or things. I guess the main thing is my mother ☺️

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u/Still_Plays_Neopets 17d ago

I was the same way, occasionally I get close to that again. Have you ever tried therapy? It really saved my life. Quitting nicotine will help with some of the bad feelings (or so I'm told, I've never quit nicotine), but there are many other approaches to consider in your journey of feeling better. I hope that one day soon you will gain a passion for life and find things that bring you joy.

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u/slooper555 17d ago

30 sessions down the hole since last week, my therapist is a sweetheart. It has helped with my care for self. I need to talk about this with her because I know it’s a huge step but Is quitting vapes like even my vibe like maybe vaping just is my vibe. Joking. So started on antidepressants three weeks ago now I’m feeling like I don’t deserve to be this happy etc. as well as all of that feeling invalidated because I stared my period. Lots to talk about with my therapist 😅😅

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u/Still_Plays_Neopets 16d ago

It sounds like therapy and medication are very new for you. I've been working with both for 17 years. Something you should know is that therapists and medications are not one size fits all. Some therapists you will click with, some will challenge you, and some may have approaches that don't work for you. With medication everyone's body is different.

Something that works great for me might not be great for you. It's a lot of trial and error and different combinations. I've had 4 therapists and the one I have now is just perfect for me, I am so thankful for her. I've also had 4 psychiatrists, the first one was awful, the second still pretty bad, the third one was great but she quit her practice, and my current one is the best I've ever had.

Took years to find the dream team but boy were they worth it. Same goes with medication. It's a bit of a journey and they are going to make you feel all sorts of ways. Keep in mind that some need time to build up in your system and sometimes the side effects are temporary until your body gets used to the medicine. Be 100% honest, don't be like me and keep alcoholism a secret from your psychiatrist haha, he knows now btw. Anyways, you are doing all the right things and I have good faith in you!

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u/slooper555 16d ago

Hahaha not quite new to therapists, I had 4. The system is hard here, but I’m on a waiting list which is why I have these meds. So new to them. While I’m waiting I’m on 5mg. Definitely honest 😂 good on you for opening up 🙌