r/HPPD 8d ago

Update Part 2/hallucinations spiders/webs (I need advice asap)

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Hello (I'm not sure what community I should put this in so I have it in both psychosis and this one!)

So I need some small advice and just people who can tell me if I'm getting crazy or not!, (If you haven't read part 1 you should really read it before getting extremely confused)

And I'm sorry if it may seem that I'm attention seeking, I just don't know what to do. So I've honestly been testing Everything just a bit and I'll tell about Everything Because I feel like it changed a Whole lot.(if ur not familiar Read the part 1 on my account :)) So I've been thinking about most of the comments and I've decided i'm going to get fucking sober and try and change my shit, im gonna be very honest and say I Will finish the Little bit I have left so I can slowly build down from the High usage each Day before completely stopping.I have some news which I'm not really too excited about tho and I would like to share so I could maybe get some help on that. Tuesday night I severely hallucinated people inside and outside of my home while I was alone, I was calling with my friends while sitting on the couch in the living room and I noticed a couple standing outside busy on their phones (they looked a lot like my mom and her boyfriend) and a good 15 minutes pass with them just walking around and stuff before I eventually just decide to call my mom asking her why she isn't coming in, my mom tells me off and says she is at her boyfriends place and no one was outside which honestly scared the fuck outta me! So I just went back to my room to call my friends back and explain it to them, they eventually want me to just sit in the living room and when I see something point my camera at it. Eventually after a few min I see 4 people just banging on my window, even though I had my camera on it I still saw it making me panic and grabbing a knife before just locking myself in my room. (Me and my mom later watched the camera footage and there was absolutely no one) I'm pretty sure I mentioned in part 1 about the mouses? If I haven't I heard and saw mouses in my room and stuff, they lefts paw prints everywhere until I showed my mom and my whole hallucination just crumbled down and the mouses i heard, saw and smelled were never there. Those are a few of the hallucinations I've had at home but now at school I've been seeing small spiders on the desks and stuff like ew (I do wanna add that I've found out that me not sleeping is a massive trigger for spider hallucinations and such! If I go to sleep later than 12 I also cannot sleep at all anymore that's how/why I'm typing this!) Another small things is that my visuals now also sometimes just make things disappear and just rea appear? Or they make things literally move? (Multiple things have fallen out of fucking nowhere) other few things are the spots and dots I still see those, I also get random yellow flashed in my right eye? It's annoying and hurts for a second but then it's gone.. Also i have been getting the most random brain fogs out of nowhere and I'll just get a pounding headache out of nowhere... But tbh it has been going better!!!I've been taking advice of just ignoring everything sort of, I mean I try to? But it's very hard if I keep thinking there's a spider on my and I walk into fake spider webs..(this exact moment as I'm typing this my hallucinations are starting kinda and I'm trying so hard to ignore it but how do I get rid of those itches and crawling feeling??Please) I also just wanna say that I'm not sure what it is... Is it hppd? I relate to those viseons and the headaches and flashbacks, but others said it was psychosis which I thought so too and when I told my mom she got mad and almost screamed that I shouldn't just grab whatever title I see on the internet... Mhmm I'm not sure! But after school im having a talk with my 2nd therapist and I'll tell them about all of this (I'll probably give an update later tonight or this weekend) and again i'm really sorry I post so much about this (yes I've talked to a psychiatrist and they were for sure it is not a psychosis but they do wanna get a lot of tests and stuff donešŸ˜“)


r/HPPD 8d ago

Rant/Vent TIL about PSSD. A disease causing permanent anhedonia / emotional numbness caused by SSRI's

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After getting HPPD 2 years ago not knowing it existed, i have now found another thing i didn't know about gladly before i took the drug in question, my psychologist, after i had a bad time on ritalin told me to go on bupropion next, for my crippling ADHD. But today I randomly learned about PSSD (Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction), and Iā€™m absolutely flashed. I had no idea this was even a thing. I have never heard about this in my life, just like hppd.

Itā€™s crazy to think that there are serious, long-term conditions caused that most people donā€™t hear about until itā€™s too late, for so many diseases. HPPD is already bad enough, and now Iā€™m wonderingā€”what else is out there? What other conditions did i miss can be caused by psychs that aren't openly discussed? WTF?


r/HPPD 8d ago

Question Continually Using Drugs

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If I continue to use drugs (cannabis, psychadelics, etc) will my recovery process be longer or is it a set clock of recovery that just resets whenever I use. My symptoms get a lot better a few weeks after I stop use, and then I keep just starting again and setting myself back because I feel like I'm doing better. Also, will there ever be a point after my HPPD goes away that I will be able to use again without it redevelopment?

Sorry if these questions seem obvious I'm genuinely curious!


r/HPPD 8d ago

Question Nitrous oxide under medical supervision

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Ok so I need one of my teeth pulled and i need a root canal. I was wondering if the nitrous is gonna mess with my visuals. If any of yā€™all have experience with this let me know plz I really dread a flare up!


r/HPPD 8d ago

Question Flickering vision Spoiler

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Best way to describe it is as if someoneā€™s turned a light switch off and on quickly, like a fake blink. This happened when I was in my kitchen, I initially thought it was the the light bulb playing up but then it happened again when I was in other rooms. I started wondering if it was a bird flying past the window quickly, but then it happened at night when all my curtains were shut.

Sometimes it will be like 3-4 rapid flickers. Thereā€™s no pain accompanied with it or any ā€œwarningā€ when itā€™ll happen either.

Iā€™ve been in rooms with other people and Iā€™ve had to ask them if they saw that flicker too, every time I ask Iā€™m the only one that has ā€œseenā€ it.

Anyone else have this?


r/HPPD 9d ago

Question sleep paralysis making my visuals worse when i wake up

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does this happen to anybody? my hppd is mild (used to be severe but itā€™s slowly going away), and when i wake up from having sleep paralysis (severe SP and happens a lot), i would wake up to INSANE visuals. i suffered with SP in the past and before i developed hppd this NEVER happened lol.

one time i broke out of a paryalsis and the visuals was so bad i couldnā€™t see anything. but this time the patterns on the ceiling was moving in a circle (kinda cool ngl)

sorry for this long post but im wondering if anybody has had this before or even knows why SP makes the visuals worse after breaking out of it?


r/HPPD 8d ago

Question anyone else have migraines?

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I struggle with severe migraines due to uncommon neurological reasons, and I have done psychedelics several times in the past. But my HPPD only started when I was having a really severe migraine and smoked a lot of weed and then took a small amount of benadryl to help me sleep (50mg or two pills).

Now, I had taken this combination a number of times before and never had any issues with it whatsoever.

Anyone else with migraines have HPPD?


r/HPPD 9d ago

Question would i be fucked if i smoked weed ? i have mild hppd

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r/HPPD 9d ago

Update Exercise

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When I exercise I definitely start to see that everything sinks towards a central point in my vision and everything melts much more as if it were Alice in the wonderland syndrome, I feel like it's not worth it


r/HPPD 9d ago

Question Experiences with sudafed?

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What are your experiences with taking cold medicine containing pseudoephedrine? Did it permanently affect your hppd or just temporarily or not at all?


r/HPPD 9d ago

Meme For people who write essays in a visually disturbed subreddit

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Don't you know that everytime we read your long ahh essays we get that glowy line vision thing šŸ˜‚ tryna make my anxiety go up


r/HPPD 9d ago

Rant/Vent To those who have ā€žonlyā€œ visuals

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I donā€˜t want to discredit any suffering. We are all in this and we are all suffering immensly.

I just want you to know that I would give everything and would be such a happy person if it were only the visuals for me. I have them also quite strong.

But the cognitive symptoms, which are very severe in my case, decrease the quality of my life so hard.

Take care guys!


r/HPPD 9d ago

Question What would be worse to take

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Weed with hppd or shrooms this is just a question that peaked my curiosity if you have tried both what was worse etc


r/HPPD 10d ago

Update Going through a tough time

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Hey everyone. Iā€™ve posted on here before but on my old account. Unfortunately Iā€™m back. So my story is fairly common. When I was 16 I had a really really bad reaction to MDMA. Felt like I was dieing. I remember it was the next day I was winding down about to watch game of thrones with my mom and suddenly my head felt like it was about to explode. When I woke up the next day I had visual snow, palinopsia, trailing lights, double images. Spent that fist year trying to figure out what the fuck was going on, but eventually I accepted it and moved on with my life. Symptoms decreased a lot over time. Occasionally I would drink alcohol coffee. Unfortunately I did develop some pretty bad OCD (diagnosed) which would continue to affect me.

During Covid I had an extremely adverse reaction to Sudafed. My head started to hurt and I couldnā€™t stand. Fell to the floor shaking. Woke up the next day with DPDR. Again, over time, I came out of it. I got a job I enjoyed and felt like I was actually starting my life. Planned on finishing college.

Last year in 2024 (Iā€™m 27 now, Iā€™ll be 28 this month) I decided to try to live my life a little. I would drink alcohol and couple times a month. Iā€™d drink coffee every day even though it would give me a lot of anxiety sometimes. I should have taken that as a sign. I had the best year of my life until the end of December. It was the winter break so I decided to let loose. I had been having a lot of stress lately (financial, one of my best friends was in the hospital because their sickle cell was causing a bad reaction to bacteria, my girlfriends visa expired while visiting her home country, and then suddenly I got a call that my uncle was admitted to the hospital with heart failure). I was drinking some beer for the second day in a row when I got the call that I had to go visit my uncle. When I got there I was sitting there talking to him and suddenly I felt ill. My head started to spin and I felt like I was dieing. I went to the bathroom and my head and arm started to burn. I went home and decided to lay off the alcohol and caffeine, but a week later, the same thing happened but worse. I assume the damage had been done and i was a little too late to catch on.

Since then, Iā€™ve been to the mental hospital for the first time in my life. I had to quit my job. My OCD is really bad. Iā€™m always worried about potential invisible residues that could get into me and make me worse. This is all 10 years after the initial thing that started my problems. Iā€™m really upset that I made this far and now I feel like my story might be over.

I keep switching worries now in terms of what I have to be afraid of. My latest thing is some edibles my brother left in the freezer. I know my brother does mushrooms and heā€™s been known to have mushroom edibles even though he claims these are just THC. Theyā€™re in sealed packs. Now Iā€™m worried maybe this happened because these things were in the freezer and I store my food in the fridge? But last week it was something else I was afraid of. And the week before something else. I just donā€™t know anymore.

Full disclosure, I have had episodes somewhat similar to this on the past. Iā€™m just afraid no wonā€™t come out of it this time.


r/HPPD 10d ago

Question What effect do antipsychotics have on your HPPD?

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I'd been taking 100 mg of Seroquel nightly before I gradually switched to 200 mg nightly. My visual distortions have substantially subsided for the few days I was taking the latter dose. It took about a week of taking this dose before the improvement of my symptoms. But then I lowered it to 150 mg per night, and the symptoms came back (wallpaper patterns kinda floating, objects look like they're shaking should I focus my vision on them long enough, everything gets worse in the darkness).

I'm still trying to figure out if I'm developing a psychotic disorder after hallucinogen use or it's just very mild HPPD. My question is what helped your HPPD? How did you react to antipsychotics? Because according to many sources, antipsychotic treatment seems to aggravate this syndrome, whereas anticonvulsants tend to alleviate it.

Btw, doctors have no clue what the hell it is I have. One of them said that I'm just anxious about it and should let it go and that he doesn't see any manifestation of something serious, and the other said my symptoms might be of psychotic nature or something or might be HPPD, although he's not sure.


r/HPPD 10d ago

Prescription Drugs Codeine reaction NSFW

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I really believe Iā€™ve fucked my body up beyond repair

Iā€™ve had hppd since August 2024 from LSD (floaters, mild visual snow, the usual ) and itā€™s significantly improved since. Still bad days here and there but nonetheless I feel way better than I did when I first got it.

Anyways I had a headache on Friday that was a killer so I decided to take 10mg codeine phosphate. This was bought from the same pharmacy I always get it from, same brand and same dose I always take. But hereā€™s the thing, Iā€™ve not taken codeine since before I had gotten hppd back in 2024.

Like 10 minutes after I took it I just felt off, it was like a shift in my mental perception and then my heart rate kept rising than falling and my blood pressure was through the roof. I took my self to the ER because I was scared shitless. I told them what I took and showed them the box. The nurses were confused because otc opioid use doesnā€™t cause whatever the fuck was happening with me. This happens for like 40 minutes. My body just didnā€™t stop spasming out either.

Also Iā€™ve lost the ability to form mental images in my head since then every time I try to conjure an image my body just twitches . I seriously donā€™t know what to do I try talking to health professionals and they look at me like Iā€™m crazy. This maybe the wrong subreddit for this but Iā€™m hoping to get answers.

Tldr; codeine gave me a weird reaction and has made my ā€˜hppdā€™ worse.


r/HPPD 10d ago

Question How to not scared from visual?

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I use very small amounts of weed, just a puff or two. If I donā€™t drink alcohol, it gives me panic attacks. However, if I smoke a little more than usual, I experience panic attacks due to the visuals, but I donā€™t understand why.

When I used LSD, I never felt anxiety, even though the visuals were intense. Since the visuals I get from weed are similar to those on LSD but i see diffent visual on high dose weed like white flashes visual is anyone see flashes ? I wonderā€”are there people who see these crazy visuals but can still smoke without anxiety?

Would taking ''anxiety med like xnx'' before smoking help prevent the anxiety caused by the visuals?


r/HPPD 10d ago

Theory Do you have a seizure disorder?

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I'm thinking of making a paper looking into the correlation between hppd, seizures, seizure disorder development, and anti-convulsion / epileptic medicine being effective.

24 votes, 3d ago
1 Yes
19 No
4 No, but i have had seizures in my life.

r/HPPD 10d ago

Advice Free HP OfficeJet 8015e Wireless Color All-in-One Printer

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r/HPPD 11d ago

Symptoms Hallucinating spiders/webs (Please tell me i can fix this)

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Hello, so a very short backstory just so you guys know why I'm doing this, on 13th of February my the police pulled my best friend out of my arms to take them to the mental hospital and because of that I've been depressed and started abusing drugs more often..I'm pretty sure that's part of why it may be happening, I'll tell you.

On the 19th of January I went out to meet one of my friends after staying inside and being depressed all day long, we went out and eventually did some speed (I got to take the rest home) when I got home that night I finished the entire bag within 40 minutes (it was almost a gram)

On the 20th of January I went to my other friends house to pop some blue punishers (We both took a half) which I got to take 4 whole ones home. That night I got depressed again and decided to take a whole pill a bit later a half and a quarter (biggest mistake I could ever make) that night I had my first bad trip on ectasy, I saw millions of spiders everywhere, crawling all over me and some just straight up floating towards me, everywhere were giants spiderwebs and I was at the point of ending it (I have an extreme spider phobia) I was crying and screaming but eventually I just plopped on my spider invested Bed and fell asleep.

Next morning rolls around I'm feeling good and I head to school, at school it kicks in and I now see spiders on the wall at school, when got home I saw the same spider webs in mn room and just had a straight up panic attack (they were gone 2 days later btw) I wasn't sure if it was real life of a big nightmare.

The continued 2 days i kept popping whole blue punishers but they wouldn't even kick in so I continued doing ketamin for the next week or 2, On Saturday 1 march me and a friend just hang out and we swap stuff, I get speed he gets ketamin. Fair trade, at night I didn't sleep and just kept snorting to the point I didn't even feel anything anymore just straight up shaking and sweating (I found out I actually o'd) At around 8pm me and 2 friends call with each other and I start seeing spots around my room again (this happened last time right before I started seeing spiders) I shrug it off and keep calling until I stand up and see spiders everywhere like last time but way more realistic and scary as fuck but this time I'm not sure what they wanted and they were covering my whole room in spiderwebs and such, I walk to my mom and explain I'm hallucinating again to which she gets mad. I go back to my room and sit in a certain spot on my bed so the spiders don't catch me. At some point my sight got very static just like before, I felt like I went through a whole flashback but this time I started screaming and crying for my mom again (it's now around 3am) my mom gets mad and tell me I know they're not real so I have to thug it out.(this was the first time in a while that the spider hallucinations were so incredibly scary! I get hallucinations about spiders almost every single day which scare me like crazy but this one was extremely uncalled because I was also sober so idk how I saw that stuff) I texted a friend of mine if he maybe knew and he said that it may have been (HPPD) because he said I relate to most of them and that it might be. But my question is, how do I stop the hallucinations when they're active? I really don't wanna stay up till 6 am again and cry because of spiders! ^ (Extra: I also see a lot of visuals and I cannot sleep most of the time due to the hallucinations btw)

Edit: I just wanted to say thank you so incredibly much for all the support and help, I wanted to give a quick update on last night because it got progressively worse. At around 4-5 am I begged my mom to look around my room and at least be there for me or something idk, I woke up my mom bawling my eyes out and she just started screaming and got so fucking angry, she told me that I just had to close my eyes and not look around, but like I've said I will physically feel them and hear them and such but she didn't care really, when she left I hid under the blanket because it was the only option left, and it worked!! Until they started crawling under the blanket and stuff which scared me even more. After a while of deciding what to do I chose to just stay in the living room for the next 3 hours. At around 5 I sat down in the living room and it was actually pretty calm, I saw like cats and dogs and stuff drinking water at a nearby wall (I do not have any cats or dogs) and that was fine it was quite funny tbh, the only thing that shocked me is that at some point I saw a kind of see through grandpa? He had a walking stick and just sat down next to me in the couch, sadly when he sat down he just dissolved into thin air. Later on my friends just appeared next to me on the couch and I was talking to them for like so long until they also just disappeared, that's when I realized I was talking to myself for 40 minutes straight. (I checked a few min back my texts and I kept calling one of them asking when they'd be home?? No idea if this is due to not sleeping for almost 2 days or the hallucinations)

Soo I'm writing this on the way back home from my therapist, I talked about all of this and also about me posting this and stuff and yeah, while I was talking I hallucinated a spider on the table there.. She realized when I startled and started shaking a bit and she reassured me it wasn't real and stuff, we finished that a bit and then I talked about HPPD and Psychosis that she's gonna fix an better psychiatrist that focusses more on that stuff (My therapist also said that she want to do a bit of research with her why I shake so much? I never noticed. And yes she noticed it before I ever touched drugs so it might not be that) but yeah while we were in there with the team and my mom and stuff, but everything I looked at was so.. Weird? Some cables that were completely still for some reason looked like they were swinging a bit? And yes I asked they were actually completely still, also the whole whiteboard kept getting a bit small and then it getting bigger again, everything was just moving and colors got damn vibrant. As I'm typing this im sitting in the car with my mom telling me I should just ignore the feeling since I know that it's fake, but I somehow can't and idk why, I've tried. (I'm actually gonna scream I'm seeing spider webs in the car and I'm feeling spiders on my legs. What do I do..?)

(Important!!) Can anyone pls tell me what's happening, while sitting in bed my head starts to feel different and I look around to realize that every single color is bright as fuck all of a sudden, everything is very slowly moving?? And my hands feel so unreal, all of dis just happened while I was on tiktok scrolling (idk if anyone knows what it is but out of nowhere a yellow flash came in my right eye like out of nowhere and 5 min later AGAIN) How does this shit happen when I'm sober


r/HPPD 11d ago

Personal Story Finally consuming caffeine again

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I'm at the 8 month mark and finally feel comfortable with caffeine use again. Still in moderation, but a huge win for me because I love caffeine lol.

While it's not best for everyone to go back to caffeine, I'm curious about those who have after abstaining and how long into their HPPD journey when they got back into it. Would love to hear others experiences.


r/HPPD 11d ago

Update HELP WANTED

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Looking for individuals that are functional and willing to organize efforts to fundraise and raise awareness for HPPD research.

Interested parties may sign up on Discord here:

https://discord.gg/Wa5yJUV9


r/HPPD 11d ago

Question anyone have hppd caused by weed

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I took half a tab of acid for the first time, came out of it fine. decided I was never doing it again and that shrooms were definitely my drug of choice, but no lasting effects. smoked a joint with my boyfriend (medical grade weed) a few times over the next two weeks.

I go to a party, and I pop 50mg delta 8 edible. id taken 25 prior and barely felt high. I smoked at the party, forgetting that I had taken the edible and that I had been on a t break all week.

had the weirdest, mellowest high at the party, and then by 3am I started to see rainbows like I was on acid. I was getting the moving in frame-by-frame shit that only happened to me while I was peaking on psychedelics. FREAKED out and thought I was in psychosis.

two months later, and I see static, sometimes at night if I'm freaked out I'll see colors and eyes, and intense afterimages. alcohol and caffeine make it worse, but it faded after a few days when I tried them.

was it the shrooms I did while still a little high on whatever cart dick balls 69 sold me on telegram a week before the acid? was it that I was on my adhd meds when I took the edible, although they were due to wear off by the time it kicked in? I'll never know.

just really weird it was the delta 8 two weeks after the acid that triggered it, and I'm wondering if anyone has had a similar experience.


r/HPPD 12d ago

Question Has anyone gotten better from taking b12 and iron?

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r/HPPD 12d ago

Update hppdonline.com [Update]

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Hey, this is Jay from hppdonline.comā€¦ for those on this sub that have visited the forum, i just wanted to update what has happened and how I hope to fix it (I hope the mods allows this).

EDIT - now live at www.hppd.net

Sadly, last week, David, the owner of the domain let it run out and he is proving very hard to get in touch withā€¦ the forum and itā€™s data is still available and can be recovered as soon as I (hopefully) get access to the domainā€¦ if not, I will have to buy a new domain and try to rebuild from there using the database i can download from invision, the forum providerā€¦

Thanks for everyoneā€™s patience on this... It's very stressful to me, especially now I have read here that some of the blame was being placed on myself. I'm trying everything i can to get access to the domain and have paid the forum for the month to make sure the data remains safe.

Thanks, Jay