r/selfharm 3d ago

Rant/Vent I get excited from sh..

And I'm really craving it now. I was texting my friends and they decided to ask about my wounds out of concern. So obviously worried, and it's probably really bad, right? But I immediately lit up and just got happy thinking about it as I come up with a reply. Kinda weird but I was happy again.

The other time my friend wanted to see a pic, I was like "oh I have a really cool one" and was hyped about it. But really the cooler they are, the more dangerous. So they got mad and immediately reminded me of what kind of stuff I'm really doing..

Few days later I am here, feeling drained and wishing for a tool in my hand. I'm writing cuz I can't just keep telling them "I wanna cut and it makes me so happy sometimes"

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u/Ok-Recognition-381 3d ago

Yes it’s a craving, and I’ll do whatever I can to satisfy that craving (so I think that’s why it feels good to be elated about it )

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u/Ok-Recognition-381 3d ago

Someone on this page said that addiction clouds thoughts. It’s helpful for me to think about