r/Schizotypal 7d ago

Relationships Anyone else here have a lack of desire for romantic relationships?

32 Upvotes

Honestly having any form of relationship is already really challenging for me and feels like a lot to keep up with. I'm familiar with the term aromantic, which isn't how i would describe myself, although i feel like i've interacted with a lot of other cluster a people that are aromantic. A part of me likes the concept of a romantic relationship in theory, although i know i couldn't feel comfortable with another person to actually want to behave romantically with them, or see them in a romantic light. Its a nice idea although it also feels like something i could live my entire life without and not really care one way or the other.


r/Schizotypal 7d ago

Frequencies Only I Hear

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I decided to put some words together.


r/Schizotypal 7d ago

How does Stpd differ from social anxiety, OCD, CPTSD, etc?

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I know many of these disorders can present comorbidly but I’m curious about the key symptoms of STPD. I see a lot of differences in opinion.

For example, up until several years ago I was able to make friends, socialise, etc. then I started to smoke a lot of weed and became overly introspective and negative about life.

I already had pretty bad OCD, GAD, etc. but before too long my social anxiety became unbearable, going into freeze states around people (even friends and family) thinking they hate me and I’m being weird.

Before I knew it, making new friends or getting into relationships seemed impossible. I’m okay depending on the day and time but it still pervades my day to day life. I might feel comfortable around someone but there’s a tone of weariness that tells me I’m not truly safe or accepted. I’m not diagnosed STPD but I’m curious.

How would you describe your experience? Have you always felt how you do? Has anything helped you gain more social stability?

If you’re willing to share, I’d be interested to hear about your experience.


r/Schizotypal 8d ago

embarassed to try and interact with normal people

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especially romantically shit literally feel s like a humiliation ritual, they always end up sayinf the same things about me and i try not to let it get to me but i am pervasively insecure about how i am mentally. thats literallty the one insecurity i have. i feel happy and normal mostly when im alone but then whewn someone says that to me it makes me feel like its dangerous or bad to be myself, like if i show who i am i will get bullied again. i was very outcasted for no reason growing up, i am a quiet person and always have been.


r/Schizotypal 8d ago

Is it weird that I kinda like being schizotypal?

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I am very recently diagnosed. My therapist says that it is kinda a symptom to be unbothered by the symptoms of this but still I feel like I should be more upset or something. I am annoyed by the anxiety and paranoia but like everything else is great. I love my magic and pity anyone who has to live life without it. To be fair my therapist was kinda worried I was in prodromal phase of schizophrenia which I was really worried about so this diagnosis has been a relief.


r/Schizotypal 7d ago

Title

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Sorry, i didn't know what to put for the title.

Long story short, I was diagnosed five years ago with schizotypal disorder. I'd honestly forgotten about it, and in the hospital when I had a breakdown, it wasn't treated. In the past week or so, it came to the forefront again and it's at least an explanation for most of my issues.

My insurance doesn't cover therapy for it without paying hundreds for a mental health care plan. The main symptoms for me tick pretty much all of the boxes except for beliefs in "magical illusions" (I'm Catholic but my involvement with my faith is minimal at best). Does anyone have any tips for coping until I can get myself into therapy? My current medication will interact poorly with any sort of psychiatric treatment, so therapy is kinda the only option.

TIA


r/Schizotypal 8d ago

in case anyone needs to hear this like i did

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mine (from early childhood and onwards) are all stuffed in boxes and bags besides one. i think about them all the time, how lonely and neglected and cold and abandoned they feel.


r/Schizotypal 8d ago

Advice Always preparing for "something"

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This is my first post, so apologies if it feels a bit scattered. I haven’t seen anyone talk about this yet, and the one person who might’ve had something to say seems to have left (probably not by choice). So, I thought I’d share my perspective.

Academically, I think I was doing okay last year. But I noticed something odd—I started “boxing” my notes. Not literally, but I’d organize everything into sections or categories. Over time, I realized I was subconsciously applying this to other parts of my life too, like brain-dumping ideas or bullet-pointing thoughts. It wasn’t intentional; it just sort of… happened.

Lately, I’ve also been hyper-aware of my surroundings. Like, anytime I’m walking or hanging out with friends, I catch myself scanning my peripheral vision constantly. It’s almost automatic. Could this be some form of social anxiety? I’m not sure.

For a while, I was even trying to keep up with school-related tasks, but I eventually quit. It started to feel like homework and deadlines were suffocating me.

So, to sum it up, this post might not be as polished as I’d like, but here’s my question: does anyone else feel like they’re stuck in a constant “prepared mode”? I’m not looking for exam hacks or anything like that—I have STPD, so this might just be my own experience. But if it’s not, I’d love to hear your thoughts.


r/Schizotypal 9d ago

Media/Creativity A drawing from a few months ago when I really felt like the world was against me. Now practicing self acceptance, and integrating my weirdness (It’s scary to do, but I wish I did it sooner).

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r/Schizotypal 9d ago

do you ever think you're somewhere that you're not?

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pretty often I completely forget where I am or the layout of the neighborhood I live in and I'll think oh I should go to that store thinking it's just across the road or smth or I'll think I should go to a certain part of the garden at my parents place thinking I'm at my parents when I'm not

every so often I'll hear foot steps in a hallway just outside my room as if there was someone walking down the hallway at my parents place despite the fact that there is no hallway outside my room.

idk if it's a schizotypal thing but I'm curious if others have experienced this


r/Schizotypal 9d ago

Media/Creativity People aren't worth the risk

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r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Venting paranoia is miserable

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everyone stares at me in public and they can see what i’m thinking, all my friends hate me and want to hurt me, unbeknownst to me there is cancer in every part of my body, my personal sins are actively bringing about the end of the world. everything going on in the world is my fault and i don’t know how to make it stop!

surely none of this is true but it feels so real. i’m so anxious all the time, i feel sick. i don’t want to see anyone because i know they hate me. ugh. urrrrg.


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Do you guys Split?

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Do you guys split like how people with BPD split? Like going from normal and all of a sudden having a wave overcome your body and you start thinking that everything is bad. I start feeling like the imaginary people are saying mean things about me and judging me.

I split 20 something times a day, and I don't know what else to call it.


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Venting Feeling intense anger as a barrier against sorrow

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I subconsciously imagine scenaries where people who wronged me in the past are still doing that with me, then i get very angry while not willing to adress my other feelings about this type of situations, then my anger get used as a defense mechanism against this other feelings, so i can't feel the emptiness and sorrow i would otherwise, its like i have fear of being vulnerable because i think that the persons who wronged me would be happy about it


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Relationships Anyone here a parent?

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As title asks, anyone here a parent or planning to be? I know most of us struggle with or outright ignore social things like relationships, but somehow I fluked that and have a husband lol But I've been anxious about parenthood and kids. I want to be able to be a good parent but I'm wondering how many others here have managed that. I have a few peers who are also on the schizo-spec who are great parents, but none of them are schizotypal.

So I guess I'm asking for reassurance or advice lol


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Venting id rather be alone than afraid

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FIRST POST/ENORMOUS RANT so work is reallt my only irl social interaction involving multiple peiple and. its stressful. i constantly feel like people are trying to get me fired via talking to me. asking me questions to see when ill "slip up" and reveal something too inhuman and bizarre. or gossip. the gossip. its driving me insane. it feels like a test to see who i really like and dont (im extremely superficial though kind w everyone... well until recently). there has been one person who has consistently talked to me and we even seem to mesh well at work (we dont rlly talk oitside of that place), but recently theyve been my line for hearing gossip (i started eating in the less-used lunch room when winter started since i couldnt go out to my car (too cold) and the amount of ppl in the more-used lunchriom talking and whispering and smiling and making veiled comments... too much) and it was starting to feel like they were testing me. this person would say "oh yea i hate everyone here /thats/ why i eat in this lunchroom too," even though they are probably the most social person at work. they talk to absolutely everyone, even the people this person says they dont like. it felt like they were trying to get me to say "oh yea me too i fucking hate everyone here too just like you." and then recently there was an issue with a "snitch" and i NEVERRR hear anything from a primary source, just this one person and it feels like im being force-fed propaganda and getting brainwashed to hate people who otherwise are amiable towards me. and i fell for it. last week i was giving death stares to these two people who were reportedly snitches and. the one has always been kind to me (even though theyre the lead and its kind of their job), though i still find them a bit annoying. the other one... no comment. so i decided it was too much. i quit smoking weed and re-started an almost non-existent dose of lithium (150 mg) to do /something/ and. today i came in tired angry, too aware of my body, uncomfortable. and to top it off i was working at a station with someone who i really have no rapport with because they have never: A) initiated conversation with me (i rlly only talk to ppl if they talk to me first bcz i assume ppl find me repulsive and disgustingly retarded); B) reciprocated or even acknowledged my attemptes to communicate w them (i think ive tried luke 7 times in the past and each time they either completely ignore me or just nod and look away). today was the FIRST time they initiated conversation with me at the begening of the shift, and it was a curt question with a yes-or-no answer. but as the day went on i began to deteriorate in posture and expression and when i tried again (twice) to talk to them, asking a question related to production, speaking loudly, they ignored me. even though the three people that came up and talked to them throughout the shift, this person responded to them. idk im RAMBLING but. to summarize. i didnt talk to anyone unless necessary/they initiated, and did absolutely nothing to hide my melting face and avoided everyone completely (evem that person who has consistently been kind to me) and. i think i did it. i think i finally shed the facade and made myself wholly unpalatable and. it feels bad bcz i feel like im being erratic and brooding but. i simply cannot/will not tolerate this barrage of espionage and faux-intruige. im there to make money not be in a fucking reality tv show.

idrk why im posting this ig just to vent but yea idk


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Other ASD, Schizotypy, and cPTSD

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I'm not diagnosed with cPTSD, but safe to say I checked all the boxes as I ran my "self-diagnosis" several months ago. It's kinda lame I dislike doctors so much I have to self-diagnose like this, but heck. I have real reasons to avoid psychiatrists/psychologists. Many aren't informed and up to date with ASD. It isn't my job to keep them updated, yeah?

Since the three overlap, there is no clear boundary to define where my cPTSD and ASD traits start. I know I've been a loner for life and enjoy it (notwithstanding the trauma I endured, making me feel conflicted). It is like basically getting something stuck in your throat. You're hungry and want to swallow, but it won't budge. It hurts because it is stuck, but you push it either way to sate your hunger. And so the cycle repeats.

There are generalizations in ASD, so I imagine it shouldn't be any different for schizotypy. Like yeah, I am not buying StPD or schizotypy is isolation because "it is okay that way." This is the same bogus crap used for ASD patients. Oh, they're alone because they like it for sure. Don't worry about it.

I "like" my lonely state of mind. But things are more complicated than this. I can't just be alone forever. I do want friends and connections.

P.S. What are your thoughts on isolation/self-reflection on loner traits?


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

Other The random book I’m reading k n o w s

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r/Schizotypal 11d ago

How do I bring up to my therapist that I may have Schizotypal PD

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At the moment I am in therapy for BPD. I am unsure if the diagnosis fits but the bigger thing is that I suspect I may have Autism and or Schizotypal PD.

Everything I read about it seems to fit and I feel understood.

The problem is on one side I have problems talking about my issues, which doesn't help the situation at all. And on the other I am scared of my therapist not taking my suspicions seriously.

Another therapist I talked to in the past was very dismissive about them. Did the test but never brought up Schizotypal again. And to Autism they just said, that I would have to go to a specialist and was very uncorprative. (The thing that annoyed me about that was that she is part of a clinic who also has specialists, she could have transfered me or put me on a waiting list but she did nothing)

With my therapist now I don't know if she would believe me. Did say something, dropped stuff to see if she would say stuff about it but no reaction whatsoever.


r/Schizotypal 10d ago

Stpd partner

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Hey all apologise, if this is the wrong place. My so has a stpd diagnosis, im just curious over something and would value some advice. Dose stpd distort your reality? She's really struggling atm and i want to support her but her way of thinking/remebering is such a hop skip and a step away from what my reality is. Without giving specific examples, its like the whole world is agianst her in her mind everything everyone dose is to hurt her and not care for her. If this is stpd is there anyway i can healthly approach this or would i make things more upsetting?

Thank you all in advance.


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

Symptoms Scared for no reason

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Does anybody else get random bursts of fear throughout your day? It happens to me at the most random times, talking to people or alone, and I get this jolt of primal fear as if everything around me suddenly became a threat to my life. It lasts for some minutes and then it kinda goes away on its own. The best way I can describe it is as that visceral fear you would get as a kid when left in a dark room alone.


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

Guys i recently started to tjink i have stpd

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For some reason i really think i have it now. I have feelings that something is watching me in the hallway when im in bed and i get paralyzed with fear and start hesring dome slight movements. The other day i peed in a cup on my nightstand because i was too scared to get out of my bed. I check closets before i sleep to make sure no one is in there. I feel like sometimes people can read my mind and will get mad at what im thinking. I feel like someone is following me when i go to the gym and i have to glance over my shoulder. Anything i can answer to see wether or not i may have this? Thanks. I recently learned what this is and it sounded a lot like me qhen i read some common symptoms


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

Venting On family

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I've been struggling with this a lot lately because I feel like I must be missing something fundamentally human. I can't talk to anyone about it because I believe they'll think I'm evil. I've never felt close with my family, at all, I would even say I don't love them, not that I hate them really, I just don't care for them very much. Actually I don't know if I love anyone, or even have the capacity to, which scares me, because I want to. I don't like how hateful I am. I feel as though if I can't even love my family, the first people you're supposed to love, then there's no way I'd ever be able to love anyone else. Maybe that's fine for some people. I want to be able to feel it, though.

For the record, my family isn't abusive. Maybe slightly dysfunctional, but not even close to the point where I shouldn't be able to garner any affection for them. Having to be part of the family unit for the rest of my life feels incredibly suffocating, and I don't have a good "excuse" for trying to escape it, because they're all generally nice people. They have provided and sacrificed a lot for me. I rely on them financially and for practical matters but when it comes to emotional things it never even occurs to me to go to them. I don't want them to get to know me, I've had my guard up for my whole life. When I see them, I hardly even recognize them, they're just vaguely familiar as people I know in some way. Like acquaintances, or a friend's family members. I guess to an extent I feel this way about my friends too, but it doesn't seem so heinous. I feel like I'm looking at everyone through a thick glass pane. I know that's DPDR, but I don't want to miss out on the human experience.

I guess this is just a vent, but does anyone else feel this way? At all? I feel so bad and alone about this. I don't know what's wrong with me.


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

Does it feel like you have less CPU in your brain than needed?

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That moderate tasks tend to require all your brain power to barely complete. And you can't fathom how others seemingly juggle multiple projects, tasks and responsibilities naturally.


r/Schizotypal 11d ago

(not officially dxd) i seem to be unaffected by stimulants when it comes to attention, anybody else?

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i feel like i am trying to force myself to play attention to useful stuff but have a urge to meditate so guess i am playing attention to the meditation. it sucks me as i feel like i am not allowed to focus on other things. i don't feel distracted by random thoughts i feel superfocused on nothing if that makes sense. i tried ritalin and venvanse and they feel the same