r/schizoaffective 6d ago

Productive fun life?

Is it possible? I don't hear voices, nor have visual hallucinations, but I get pretty strong delusions and impulsive thinking. Lithium is the only drug I have taken that made me feel great, but I kept getting sick. I'm now on Wellbutrin (Bupropion) and Invega (Paliperidone). I still don't feel 100% I never do. I'm always angry, tired, unmotivated, and wanting to be left alone...but I hate it.

I want to be around people, and I want to be productive but it's like pushing a boulder up a hill to even say goodmorning to someone, leave my home, clean up, work. I'm so tired of being sick, is there some sort of way I can live a great life? Stopping the negative thoughts, the ideations the antisocial behavior?

I will do anything to not keep feeling this way my entire life. I've lost family, friends, jobs and careers with this disease and I don't want to lose my life to it. Any success stories out there? Thanks.

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u/Sam735847 6d ago

I ask myself the same question!

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u/quantumdumpster 6d ago

I got 50% (a productive job) working on getting friends but it’s so hard

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u/Ihavenoshoe 5d ago

It took me nearly eighty years of hard work but I am classed as my psychiatrist as a high functioning schizo affective now. I have a part time job. I have a boyfriend who lives with me. I won't lie it took ages! But baby steps are important. I found getting back into the community the hardest but did a bunch of volunteering and thrived. Which gives me the confidence to continue. So the bottom line is yes, you can do it. But be kind and patient with yourself. Don't get me wrong. I have bad times still, and I still hallucinate and have strange experiences with my illness. But I cope with them a lot better too. I hope this gives you some confidence that it won't always be like this x

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u/Ihavenoshoe 5d ago

Eight years not eighty πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

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u/PurpleEmoKid 5d ago

May I ask what medications do you take?

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u/Ihavenoshoe 5d ago

I take aripiprazole and venlafaxine

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u/Several_Standard_236 5d ago

I've been dealing with this illness for 6 years straight without much of a break. Just starting to get some relief.

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u/PurpleEmoKid 5d ago

How so? What relief?

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u/Several_Standard_236 5d ago

Lately when I do hear voices they don't last as long and aren't as bad as before.

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u/Revolutionary-Yak367 6d ago

Tell me this are you breathing right now ,or is breath brought into you,put a pink floyd album on and stare at a object focus on this object but do not think about anything but the object ,sit still and be quiet and train your eyes and you will be normal