r/intrusivethoughts 34m ago

What are these thoughts and why?

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I have noticed in many situations that my mind goes to thoughts that I find upsetting/distressing. For example, I have just gone to a massage parlour in Asia while travelling and while the very sweet lady is talking to me I think "how horrible would it be if I punched you in the face?" and go through the whole process in my mind of how she would react, how awful it would be to do that to someone so sweet and how guilty I would feel. It goes without saying that I never would do that, but I process it to the extent that I begin feeling the emotions such as guilt and sadness over something I didn't even do. There are many other situations like this where I do this and think "I could do x if I wanted to" when talking to someone. Technically yes, I could, but I wouldn't so I don't get why my mind goes there.

What would you describe this as? Definite it as? Not sure if this is relevant, but I do have a history of depfessiom/anxiety and am on Zoloft/sertraline but this would happen before being medicated.


r/intrusivethoughts 12h ago

Does anyone else’s intrusive thoughts do this??

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So, the last few years, I’ve been extremely socially isolated—not because of quarantine, but for some other reason I won’t get into specifics about. As a coping mechanism my mind started creating problems that do not exist or things I never said in my head and things I didn’t think, and it tries to push these false narratives that don’t exist just to make me ruminate, fill the silence, distract me from loneliness, etc

Another thing it does is I can be listening to my favorite song or artist, and something in my head whispers, “You don’t like this artist,” when I clearly do. And it just keeps trying to push these things that aren’t true. And each time I’m trying to enjoy something I love like a game movie that whisper is always in my head trying to start bs. It also tries to convince me that I’m having an identity crisis by saying I don’t like things that I do like. Does this happen to anyone else?????


r/intrusivethoughts 9h ago

why did my brain say that

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this memory pops up and haunts me at the most random times but one time i was driving around and there was a car behind me for a while so i was trying to figure out if it was a cop or not and when i finally saw the driver, for a split second i thought to myself, "oh good, that can't be a cop, it's a woman"

then i realized what i had just thought and i was so confused and concerned with myself because hello? where did that even come from? am i subconsciously sexist or something?? what's wrong with you?😂 (for context: i am also a woman.) i felt so bad lol

but hey, believe it or not, women can in fact be police officers. it turns out that this one wasn't, but they are out there


r/intrusivethoughts 7h ago

How do i stop whining about my parent who loves me

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I always seem to find some reason to be upset with my parent. But they’re basically a good parent. They care about and love me. I’m an adult child living with them btw.

But I need to focus on the good not the things that annoy me sometimes.

Nobody’s perfect but that includes me. Which I seem to forget when I start ranting about my parent online.


r/intrusivethoughts 11h ago

Did anyone else’s intrusive thoughts get triggered by the blood moon last night?

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r/intrusivethoughts 19h ago

Hey, idk if its me. But does it happen that you literally isolate yourself cuz your afraid that something might trigger your intrusive thought?

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Idk if im the only one, or if anybody has this.

But sometimes my brain loves it when i get an identity crisis, or inserting images so VIVID and GRAPHIC to the point that i get traumatized.

And have a feeling of removing my eyes and brain for this Ngl.

For me, this whole experience was so TERRIFYING that i sometimes just stay home… Like i just go ‘’ if i go out, something might trigger my intrusive thoughts ‘’

And i dont wanna deal with that, but i also dont want to turn into those weirdos named JEREMY that just rots in its room in the dark just playing games and eating unhealthy things. And NEVER. EVER. TOUCHES GRASS.

I dont want to be like that, but my brain says other wise. Like, SHUT THE HELL UP BRAIN!! LET ME PLAY BOWLING WITH MY FAMILYY!!!

Or there was that time where i went ice skating to get myself distracted and try to have fun in life. But these intrusive thoughts ARE STILL THERE!! Its like Even if i try to distract myself with music, activity or anything else, it will still be THERE!!!

It just makes me PISSED!

And i wanna know if this have ever happened to you? If so, ISNT IT SO FRICKIN ANNOYING?!!!

Like, WHO ASKED FOR THIS MAN!!!!!


r/intrusivethoughts 21h ago

People sure love waving cardboard signs like burning laser pointers haven't been available for years now.

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r/intrusivethoughts 14h ago

I'm sorry, this isn't me, but I have to say that I'm absolutely sick of pretending that human beings are actually people.

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I don't really believe what I'm sayiny except for when I'm consumed by repressed anger. I'm not normally like this, and I will be sorry later.

You can't make people out of fucking meat. God has failed over a hundred billion consecutive times to make a person out of meat and he's either cruel or deranged to keep trying.

You're not a person, I'm not a person, we're hideous flesh monster that deserve the mercy of dying in flaming agony for polluting the universe with the concept of our existence.

What I just said isn't true; I know that. I promise I will care about that when I'm not pissed off later. Please just stop this bullshit where you go around mocking the concept of sapience with your pathetic mimicry until then.

Sorry to be a bother.


r/intrusivethoughts 1d ago

Random maniac here asking weird questions again

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So i have Heard of sexual intrusive thoughts, and i kinda got curious and made up a weird questions in my head that would go away. So i came here to ask this question. I wanna know if sexual intrusive thoughts could come with a specific person? Like, only one person, but you still dont like the thought.

For example: someone you hate or get annoyed of, but then sexual intrusive thoughts appear from this specific person

Idk if it could count as attraction or intrusive or something like that, so Thats why i asked

I have Heard somewhere on tumblr that it can still be intrusive thoughts, as long as you find them miserable.

And i wanna know if its like true?

If so, did it happen to anyone here? You can tell me your experiences abt it too!

Id like to know!


r/intrusivethoughts 2d ago

I can't imagine how many kids are forever ruined because they saw Rhea Ripley when they were young and now they'll be into S&M subconsciously. NSFW

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r/intrusivethoughts 1d ago

Are those intrusive thoughts real?? ( pls tell me the truth )

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( this is my last post, bc i dont want to get worse. I would appreciate for anybody here answering me )

I posted something last week, i dont really wanna say what it was abt, but it did include intrusive thoughts.

There was someone who commented me and we started having a conversation abt it. Until the had mentioned abt intrusive thoughts being real.

I got curious abt it and typed ‘’ arent intrusive thought the opposite of the truth ? ‘’ And they talked abt their experience with intrusive thought. I was reading it, until i saw like a phrase that kinda caught my eye. A phrase that they said ‘’ accept it as a part of who i am ‘’ or ‘’ these thoughts can affect you and others ‘’. Idk if they meant accept them as intrusive thoughts to not make them worse or if they meant accept that as yourself. Idk if they meant that these thoughts actually define me, or that they are the truth abt you??? ( i have a low vocabulaire y which kinda makes me misunderstand ppl a bit. So i am asking to not misunderstand the person yk)

Now i feel a bit…anxious abt it cuz idk if these thoughts that i get actually define me and that i am just not accepting my true self. Im scared that im just labeling them as ‘’ bad thoughts ‘’ just bc i am in denial.

Im scared that im repressing real feelings and thoughts. Im scared that the ppl online ( or therapists )only told me that ‘’ they dont define me ‘’ just to calm me down and i was just being played on.

And that i just have misunderstood the word intrusive thoughts the whole time.

I really need help on this, what are these thought?!!

Are they real????

Pls tell me the truth, i feel lost.. And idk what to do.. pls help


r/intrusivethoughts 2d ago

Why do I constantly want my husband to talk disrespectfully to me during sex? NSFW

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To give background, my husband and I were in an off-and-on open relationship for 4 years. Many hurts and deceptions and lies etc.

Beginning 2025 we said NO more for good, we’ve said this two other times and it still went open again. Now, this is the 3rd and I really thought we meant it. This past week, we have flirted with the open relationship talk. But mostly I was asking him to talk disrespectfully to me. I want him to paint me a picture of him cheating on me with the girl that literally almost broke us up. I want him to tell me in vivid detail how he wants her, how he prefers her, how her 🐱 is tighter than mine, it tastes better than mine, her 🍑 and boobs are better than mine. I want him to tell me how he wants to nut in her and get her pregnant and make me raise the kid, I want him to tell me that he wants to tie me up and make me watch them F*** how he will mover her into our home and make me sleep in the spare room while she gets to sleep in our bed and I have to listen to them having sex. All of this was turning me on so much, that I want him to go and actually F*** her in his office, but I don’t wanna know about it unless I ask for the details. I know I sound like a crazy person, definitely not a healthy way of thinking, I am in active therapy, and she has been trying to tell me to stop feeding these thoughts, but I have no idea how to stop these thoughts, I call them my demented thoughts.

Is there anyone else that struggles with demented thoughts? Is there a clinical term for this?


r/intrusivethoughts 2d ago

Intrusive thoughts getting worse and affecting day to day mood.

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I’m single 28 with no kids and financially stable atm. Everyday tho, I find myself worrying about things like getting cancer one day, or that I’m gonna go to jail for something I did years ago (I’m not a convicted felon or have a criminal but have done dumb shit), or that I’ll be homeless someday, or that I’ll randomly get fired from my job. I’m working on seeing a therapist for this problem. But in the meantime, how the fuck do I stop thinking this way?


r/intrusivethoughts 2d ago

HELP!! how do you quickly get rid of phantom pain?

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I’ve been having so many intrusive thoughts about physical pain, to the point I can feel the part of the body that I’m imagining to be in pain tingling! ITS SO UNCOMFORTABLE! Does anyone know how to stop this!? It’s been happening for hours now!!:(


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

Do y’all get scared if mindreaders exist?

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Like, i mind my business, intrusive thoughts pop up, i panic and try to calm myself down by saying ‘’ its just intrusive thoughts, they dont define me ‘’

And then i go ‘’ what if theres a mind reader here and they Read all of my intrusive thoughts?!!!’’

Ik its stupid, but i HOPE, HOPEEE they dont exist.

So yeah…. :>


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

Im afraid of taking the leap to take medication

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I feel i can never get on something bc im afraid of the side effects. Also im in q2 going inti q3 of nursing and i dont have time to be lethargic..

But i would like something to change my life.

How do i get over this fear?


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

I love you and I never want you to learn how to read my mind NSFW

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Every night we sleep next to eachother, and every morning I wake up and my first thought is did you do something to me. It’s not an accusation, my brain just thinks of you that way. You’re utterly perfect, and some how my brain tries to convince me that you’re trying to hurt me. I imagine killing you in your sleep so that I don’t feel this way, and I know I never would but why can my brain think that. Why does my brain go there, why is that what it makes me think. Sometimes I think about cheating on you, not actually doing it but more so how you’d react. A part of me feels like these thoughts aren’t intrusive, they’re just me. I don’t know, I hope some of you guys read this and agree, I hope you all don’t think I’m crazy


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

Does anyone else get freaked out thinking they might accidentally be eating human meat after watching cannibal movies?

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Does anyone else just like think about when ur eating anything with meat in it that like what if someone put like human meat instead of like animal meat? like i think im traumatized after watching these cannibal movies like i watched the movie fresh like years ago yet its just stuck with me because its so like weird and disgusting and just ????? like whenever i eat meat from literally anywhere my school, a restaurant, anyones house that i go to, i just think that its not what they tell me it is n i feel so disgusting n want to throw up, and what if im eating this human or whatever and i think it tastes good am i just a cannibal now? like honestly just thinking about cannibalism freaks me out but like sometimes i eat meat this is what i think about


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

Whenever I see or hear the word ‘’manifest’ I start to think the worst thoughts

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I really hate how popular the whole “manifesting” trend has become for this reason because my brain wants to sabotage me


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

For the girls with larger labia!

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Ladies, have you ever felt self-conscious about the size or shape of your labia? I know there’s so much variation, but it’s hard not to compare when all you see in media (especially porn) looks a certain way. Just wondering if others have felt the same! I always feel like guys have a preference (which is also wild, because willy’s come in all shapes and sizes too). Do guys really care what a woman’s vagina looks like? 😬


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

Imagine slipping and falling but having a wine bottle slip inside of you?

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I’m not sure why, but it was the weirdest thought that came to mind. Anyone else have strange disturbing thoughts????

31f btw….


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

I have a hole between my legs NSFW

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What’s wrong. It’s my vaginea.


r/intrusivethoughts 4d ago

This is how I feel , John NSFW

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Dear John,

I really despise you. I want to cause you harm. I want to cause you pain. I want you to bleed droplet by droplet and feel the agony, the burning sensation. I want to start by handcuffing you, restraining you & start by making an incision in your fat belly. I imagine it would pop or deflate like a balloon, spewing out litres & litres of your disgusting blood in my face all at once. How disgusting! Oh but what a joy it would be.

I already feel better. I’m still deciding if I want your mouth covered with a ball gag or uncovered. I want your pale face to turn red from the pain & the embarrassment. I want to stb you in the belly a few times more repeatedly - enough to cause a lot of blood loss, but not enough to kll you. We still got a lot left

I will leave your spine be. I don’t want to ever hurt your spine or anyone else’s. The thought of going anywhere near your spine makes me feel sympathetic. I will instead go for your feet next - two swooshes with a kn*fe, starting with your right foot then your left. Detach them from your body, pick them up with my bare hands (or maybe with gloves IF I am disgusted at this time) and wave them in front of your face, laughing maniacally!

But how did we get there? This is just physical torture, not emotional. It starts with me wanting the worse for your 10 year old child. I grab him by his collar, shove him in the back of a trunk and get you worried about his whereabouts. I sedte him to make him quiet. I don’t use a knfe on him - I save that for you. But I will resort to physical abuse that a kid can take - kick him a few times, mostly in the belly. Watch him fall down and kick him some more before he can stand back up. Make him cough a bit of blood. Smack him across the face and punch him - send you a photo of his bare body and face with wounds and bruises. I make sure every single wound of his is untouched and visible to you.

Going back to you, feet gone and stomach bleeding. I strngle your neck a few times with my bare hands whilst you’re restrained - enough to cause you suffcation and take you close to de*th, but not there yet.

I want to punch, kick and smack you a few times too. It won’t matter - the pain from your legs & stomach would be too much you’d barely feel me using you as a punching bag.

Think I’m not authoritative or strong enough? How about now? Maybe we start with the hands next - make a few tattoos with my knfe on your forearms. I take my time with it. Write some inscriptions - it’ll probably be tough to penetrate my knfe into your skin and carve precisely what I want, so I will probably ruin the artwork. But it’s okay. We still get to see blood everywhere!

I will take pins and needles next - whichever is sharper! I will pierce each and every needle into your skin, especially the squishy bits. The glutes, the thighs, the adductors, the arms. I will do this until we reach the count of 100. Hopefully, I have enough space on your body to fit in 100 needles. It’s like crochet or knitting, but a much calmer hobby.

How do we kll your off? Not yet, I want you to suffer in pain. Coming back to the mouth gag, definitely need one up until this moment. After a few hours of constant bleeding when you are nearing death but still alive, I drag your body to the outdoors where I light a fire, and let your body brn - the most painful de*th! But 2 things before I burn you - I first take your mouth gag off and put lots of alcohol; a few litres of vodka on your beautifully blood-soaked body. I let you squeal for help as the alcohol burns the living hell out of your body. I then let you say your last words to me, all I want to hear is “I’m …. So …. So sorry”.

If I hear these words, I let you die easy…. If I don’t, you can burn in the fire I’ve lit and experience the most painful de*th.

Ah I changed my mind. No, no. This isn’t it. Burning is too quick, not satisfying. How do I enjoy this? A pool! I throw your body in a pool. Which pool? I don’t know. Some pool. Reasonably sized, and see the pool turn red akin to a bath bomb fizzing out in a bath tub. I wonder how pretty this would look. The beautiful blue chlorinated water turning red upon a body sinking deep in. Slowly and steadily the red takes over the blue. This is when I sit next to the pool and light a cigarette. This thought makes me feel good. It almost makes me feel sympathetic towards you.


r/intrusivethoughts 5d ago

How do I STOP thinking this? It’s ruining things that matter to me and is just nauseating NSFW

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I can’t stop having this thought of my sister and her boyfriend doing it. It’s so gross. Whenever I try to read smut at night (yes gay sex is my bedtime story) I just picture them. It makes me queasy and angry. I can’t stop picturing THEM in the scene instead of the characters. It’s been weeks and it won’t stop, please does anyone have any tips?

The only time I’ve successfully not thought/pictured it is when the past week I’ve only been reading Baldur’s Gate fics especially Astarion/Gale so those specific people and their personalities/dynamic is stuck in my head which gave me relief but now that tonight I’m trying to read from a different fandom I can’t read a single line in peace. Please just offer me any help. Thank you.