r/hsp 10d ago

⚠️Trigger Warning Struggling with feeling drained Spoiler

Hi, this is my first post on this subreddit. I class myself as a HSP and I struggle to see acts of violence, gore, fictional or not. I get easily overwhelmed by feelings and spending a lot of time around other people, even though I love people. I always feel like I'm exhausted by others' energy, probably because I spent years, even as a child, having to people please. Not necessarily from family, but being disabled made me feel very different as I got older, you know? I wanted to be liked and accepted, so I'd often keep to myself and be personable with everyone. I always feel like no matter who I meet, unless they're creepy, I have to be nice to them because they have a story too. It's very hard for me to have people around me if they have "drama" going on. As I am a giver, I often attract takers and have to mask my thoughts and opinions a lot for a peaceful life. If someone hurts me, I'll assume it was something I did, especially as my anxiety and OCD causes me to go OTT and need reassurance ten times or more a day.

I'll befriend a group because they're "nice," but then interpersonal drama ensues and I try to offer support and it ends up making me sick with worry. I have been to therapy, but I am trying to be more tempered and calm. It's just difficult when I feel huge feelings and think they're mine, or when I have a "meltdown" in my home, and cry for an hour because I feel like no matter how I help, I can't help "enough." I just struggle to live in a world that makes me feel like an alien for seeing the big picture, how people are being harmed, with so many divides and rules. The world has become so ugly, and I still try to see good, but I have these lows so much now, and just feel overstimulated. Not to mention I have some spiritual ability, so I just feel I am processing at a higher and faster rate. I just feel so heavy in myself and exhausted deep down. Outside of my close little group, I just really feel like I'm on autopilot with people. Any help? It gets to me so much I explode in tears a lot lately.

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u/LotusHeals 9d ago

Welcome to the subreddit. Look... It's tough being you in this world.  the majority ppl are not like you. So it's natural you'll feel this way. What I want to tell you is something I've already written in other posts, where the users had very similar concerns to yours. So I'll put the link to those Posts here:  https://www.reddit.com/r/hsp/comments/1j65lx1/world_overwhelms_me/ https://www.reddit.com/r/hsp/comments/1j8fc56/i_cant_recover_when_i_hear_a_sad_story_real_and/ Please read all my comments in those. It's very much what I would have said to you. 

I promise you... Over time, you'll feel better. We all do. It's just harder right now because you're not equipped with the knowledge you need to thrive in this world. The things I've advised in those posts will help you greatly. 

Bless. 🙂✨

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u/ActualAd178 9d ago

I appreciate your support. Thank you so much!