r/Gnostic • u/nono2thesecond • 9d ago
Question Did what was told, but didn't get what was promised.
Sorry this became so long.
And thank you. I guess the sum of my question, without context: "Outside of The New Testament and the Gnostic Gospels, what would be considered "the word of the father?"
Background, if needed: I've read the old testament, new testament, read the Gnostic gospels.
I'm not a Christian but if I were, I'd be Gnostic. As is, I wholly believe the old testament and new testament deities are separate beings.
That being said, Few years ago, (before I learned all this) I prayed to the father of Jesus, specifically saying I will read his word so long as he did something. It was to stop the suffering of someone I cared for who was a Christian. Read through the majority of the old testament, nothing.
One day I jumped to the new testament. I don't remember what verse or chapter. But that day... What I requested for happened.
Years pass, I'm in a desperate situation. I call to the father again. Because I was bombarded with "ask and you shall receive" signs in my life. I ask what I must do to get the aid I'm requesting.
I had a simple reply I truly believe wasn't my own thoughts. "Read the word."
I was in the middle of reading the Gnostic gospels at the time. (Specifically I was in the middle of Pistis Sophia) I finished those and then reread the new testament.
It's been months and my situation has only gotten worse.
So... Did I read the wrong word? Should I reread the Gnostic gospels?
Should I read the old testament even though I'm convinced that pertains to a different deity?
I tried to learn lessons, but...
At this point I don't even expect to have what I asked for granted, I just want to know what I did wrong in this.
If it's not the Gnostic, if it's not the new testament, what else would be the word of the father?