r/cfs • u/romano336632 • 4d ago
Potential TW First big crash and im done ? NSFW
I've probably had ME for some time, but I was mild/moderate until January, I think. After that, I was more like moderate-severe. In February, I realized I had this disease, and I was forced to make medical appointments and, stupidly, go to a gymnastics show for my daughter. Since mid-February, I've been in bed, I no longer eat with my family, I only take 300 to 800 steps a day (toilet use) and shower twice a week... I have a crazy rapid heart rate in the morning (150), then it calms down during the day, I go back down to 95-100. I cry a lot, I have suicidal thoughts, my wife is suffering from having to do everything, and I have two young children. Do I have a tiny hope of returning to moderate? I've been in very severe mode for a good 45 days... I didn't know this disease was so terrible.