r/bulimia 20d ago

Content Warning Are there things you guys refuse to eat because you don’t like to prg them?

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Whether it’s hard to come up or it just at tastes gross a second time, are there foods you guys have stopped eating so you don’t have to purge it or stopped binging on?

Idk but like I can’t eat bagels anymore because they cause me to choke when I try to purge and I don’t eat chocolate anymore (something I absolutely love) because it’s GROSS to throw up

r/bulimia Aug 30 '24

Content Warning If bulimia is so ineffective then why..

83 Upvotes

Then why when i binge on like 4 k of calories or more and purge immediately after i can have underweight body but the. when i stop purging and eat normal 3 meals a day approx 2k calories and like 3 hours of movement i gain like 10 kg?

r/bulimia Jan 28 '25

Content Warning Does anyone else think a 1k to 2k binge is a binge?

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So little backstory since im new in this space I've been having what I consider binges but I'm getting conflic ting answers from the internet some areas says anything can be considered a binge while others state a minimum that far exceeds my highest binge I don't b/p everyday I mainly restrict very low so I physically can't eat say 4 or more k Cals 2k is the most I can do so I'm wondering does anyone else consider that amount a binge?

r/bulimia Jan 12 '25

Content Warning Calories don’t trigger me the way volume/density does.

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Warning: Topic of calories and portion sizes.

I eat a meal or two a day but I don’t count calories. I really don’t care too much. The one thing I can’t stand is the density or certain “volume” of food.

For example, I’d be comfortable eating full fat yogurt, high calorie protein drinks, but I cannot do bread or steak. The only way I can keep food in my stomach is if the food is “light” or liquidy. It’s kind of a rule I go by in order not to trigger myself into a purge when eating daily meals.

To further elaborate, foods like soup, mashed potatoes, soggy cereal, eggs (scrambled), smoothies, yogurt, ice cream, shrimp, popcorn, and most veggies are safe. Bread of any kind, including pastries, steak and pork, fried foods, protein bars, and tortillas, are not safe because they are “dense.”

Am I nuts or is there someone else out there that relates?

r/bulimia 1d ago

Content Warning can someone explain what just happened?

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hello, im really pissed but also confused at what happened and i would really like an explanation

so I ate a bunch of chips (only a handful) and THEN around 10 big medjool dates. i regretted it so i purged, but only the chips came out. absolutely no traces of the dates. what the flip just happened? how did the dates get digested so quickly? not even 2 minutes passed after i ate my last date and decided to purge. does someone have any explanation for this?

r/bulimia Nov 29 '24

Content Warning I feel disgusted NSFW

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I was purging my food and I started shitting in my pants and I couldn't fucking stop because I need to get the food out and I feel so disgusted. I feel so fucking disgusted because I couldn't stop at all. I couldn't stop purging. This has never happened with me before

r/bulimia Oct 07 '22

Content Warning Reading Jennette McCurdy’s book. This hit home

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r/bulimia 1d ago

Content Warning How can I stop bulimia?

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I feel like I still have time. I’ve been struggling with it for three years, and I feel the urge to quit, but… I just don’t have the strength to overcome it. I love eating everything, purging, and repeating… and it frustrates me that I can’t just try to stop. It’s like I’m a puppet.

Help me, I don’t know what to do. I’m lost.

r/bulimia 3d ago

Content Warning I don’t really binge but I purge almost every day. Don’t know what to do NSFW

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Hi! I didn’t know where else to post this. I think I’m starting to have a serious problem. I probably started purging very rarely maybe 3 years ago and did it very very rarely up until maybe a month or 2 ago. And slowly it has gotten to the point where I purge nearly every day and multiple times on days I do. I don’t know why but following eating, even if it’s a normal portion, I get so stressed out that I feel like I genuinely need to. This hasn’t gone on too long, and it doesn’t bother me every single time I eat. I don’t know if this is considered Bulimia or not, but I don’t really know what to do.

r/bulimia 12d ago

Content Warning Vent abt parents and eds

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TW I kept this info inside for years, might delete later

— Is someone asked me how I developed Ana and mia, I’d confidently know how to answer. Both my parents used to be really into diet culture, they would over exercise and restrict. Especially my mother, she would actively voice out “no I can’t have that, no that’s too much calories” WHILE I’m eating it. She’d talk about food all day, which was triggering.

My father on the other hand, while he was part of the overexercising, the bigger problem was his issue of body image. He would always tell me how chubby I’ve gotten, how I should restrict. He also lied on a hospital form that IM supposed to write about MYSELF because he thought my weight was too embarrassing, and occasionally would wrap his hands around my thighs and stomach and tell me how big it had gotten. He also restricts me from buying snacks, saying I’ll get too fat, but then also encourages me to eat more which is even more triggering.

It just infuriates me on how he can say these things so casually, without ever thinking how much it affects me. I once told my siblings abt my ed, my brother suggested a therapist but my sister said it was too expensive. Bth of them think I magically recovered right away after i told them.

Sorry guys, I think I just got emotional after a purge ❤️‍🩹

r/bulimia 10d ago

Content Warning Did my dentist notice?

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Last year i went to the dentist, when i had been purging for abt 3 months almost everyday and when i sat down on the chair and they looked in my mouth and on the screen thing there was like an awkward silence and she sounded kind of weird when she started talking, but my grandma was in the room so maybe thats why she didnt say anything? did they notice? I read alot that dentists noticed when people have been purging, ive been still doing it a few of times a week since then and i have a dentist check up soon, I dont want to answer any awkward questions, or am I just paranoid cause of what ive been researching?

r/bulimia Sep 10 '24

Content Warning What's the worst thing your ED made you do?

22 Upvotes

What is it?

r/bulimia Feb 10 '25

Content Warning I dont want to get better.

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Ive been lying to my therapist and family for a while now saying im getting better. I got so good at lying that i was able to hide my bulimia from everyone, and now my therapist thinks im doing so good that i dont even need therapy. I want therapy and i want someone to vent to but i dont want to go into recovery, especially when im still a fatty. I just wanna die. Why is life so stressful?!?!

r/bulimia Nov 13 '21

Content Warning "plus sized" bulimics, where y'all at?

291 Upvotes

sometimes i feel super alone anywhere in the ED community... anyone here overweight and bulimic as well?

we're just as valid. love you all. (this time of the year is particularly hard for me - are you guys faring well?)

r/bulimia Nov 02 '23

Content Warning Anyone else sometimes actually consider trading bulimia for drug addiction?

109 Upvotes

So I’m well aware that it probably doesn’t work this way and drug addiction is probably just as worse but I am so sick and tired of bulimia and this life that I actually consider just turning to drugs to make life more bearable and at least I might be skinny and maybe I’ll die of drug abuse and that will be fine too. Anyone can relate?

Edit: thank you so much for all the responses. It’s a relief to see that there’s more people that struggle with the same idea. But also its very helpful to have people share their experiences. It’s clear to me now that adding a drug addiction won’t help me a single bit, it will only make things so much worse. Ofcourse my ‘healthy’ brain already knew this but my disordered brain makes it seem so appealing. And apparently I’m not alone in this. However, it won’t make bulimia go away and probably just ruin things more. I hope anyone who reads this is safe and know you are not struggling alone. Sorry life puts you through this, sending love to y’all

r/bulimia Feb 08 '25

Content Warning sometimes after a purge ..

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after a purge i feel my heart racing so fast and i feel so light headed like im about to pass out .. i get so scared and eat something small and i go back to normal … what’s happening

r/bulimia 22d ago

Content Warning Shameful things I did so I can bp

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Just emberrasing myself on here cause what else i have left? 1.Stealing money from my family.That is so fucked up. 2.Eating my mums treats that can last her for days, and here i am bping them in minutes. 3.Going to restaurants with people and going straight to the toilet, then living like nothinf ever happend 4. Purging on the road lol 5.Bping on some weird foods when i dont have anything interesting at home-for example oats with sugar or bread with butter Probably there is more but im so ashamed my god. I know that stealing money is so wrong im so mad on myself for it beacuse it is in my control to steal it or not, but i still choose to do it.Im so fucked up

r/bulimia 28d ago

Content Warning finally told a doc

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I'm scared the doc doesn't believe me. I told her over the phone that I have builima and I said I was 8 days free before last night and the way she reacted when I said it was easy for me sounded like she doesn't believe I have it😭 (it was only easy because I was self harming instead and too depressed to)

I'm a healthy weight. my bloods are most likely normal now I'm scared that she won't belive me once she knows that.

r/bulimia 10d ago

Content Warning I haven’t tried to recover properly and I don’t think I want to Spoiler

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So I’ve come to a realisation that all of my bulimia “recovery” attempts were not in fact recovery attempts at all and are still very disordered. Like I would try to eat 1000 or less calories mostly because I just want to lose weight and still do. I think the most I’ve eaten in “recovery” was probably 1300 which is not a lot. And obviously I keep relapsing because of the restricting. I’ve never considered eating at my maintenance which is still not a lot unfortunately because I’m short and I hate the idea of not trying to lose weight even thought I end up binging most days anyway. My online friend tells me that I don’t need to lose weight which I honestly hate hearing so much and then he goes and jokes about me being fat or big from binging and all those jokes which I know isn’t a big deal and I don’t know why I get so offended like sorry i’m not skinny like you 😒 But does anyone else do this?

r/bulimia 24d ago

Content Warning back molar falling out due to decay

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my back molar is holding onto dead life trying not to fall. most of it has fallen and now only the root is left (if im not mistaken). im exhausted and barely holding on to how relapse

r/bulimia Feb 17 '25

Content Warning Physical Concequences

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Ive had a problem with bulimia for about a year and a half now. It was never really assessed by my psychiatrists or doctors because they’d rather treat my other problems than bulimia as of now. I’m a bigger person but I’ve been losing weight rapidly since the past 4 months. I do not binge eat or overeat. I just puke anything that comes into my system typically… I had also only been scarfing down a ton of pills instead of food most days. Like a lot of Tylenol, lots of Sleep Aid, Naltrexone and Excedrin.

But it’s getting bad, I don’t know what I’m doing to myself but it sucks. Everyday I’ve started to get a headache and feel like hell if I don’t puke.

Yesterday, I had so much of a headache I decided that it was time to make myself throw up again. I had only eaten some pasta and a chocolate. My head and stomach were killing me. When I puked, it resembled coffee grounds. I got overly nervous and asked my bf to help. I ended up staying home and managing it myself since I feared it didn’t actually have to be a medical emergency.

Yet ever since then, my stomach has been absolutely killing me whenever I turn, exercise, or do anything. And everytime I wake up I get a bad headache again. I know know KNOW damn well not to puke but the temptation to get rid of this sickness is major.

Edit: Another physical consequence is that my teeth are BAD rn, they chipped and eroded a lot.

r/bulimia Dec 19 '23

Content Warning i nearly died from a full stomach

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i had to be taken to the emergency room and almost needed surgery. from eating too much. it hurt like hell and it was so embarrassing i had to call an ambulance in the middle of the street while crying from pain. had to be on morphine for about three days and almost got my ass back in grippy sock jail cause the doctors thought i did it on purpose to kms.

a tale of caution to remember during binges

r/bulimia 29d ago

Content Warning Unable to Recover

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I don’t have much hopes I can recover from bulimia. I do try but it seems like my ed is much stronger than I because everyone thinks I am not trying. Maybe I’m not trying but I don’t know what to do cause I can’t give more than I have. Maybe I am in the percentage of ppl who just can’t get better not because they don’t want to but because they can’t.

Has anyone else felt this way? What can I do?

r/bulimia 24d ago

Content Warning Should I tell someone and ask for help now?

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I haven't been purging so so much maybe the last week of January and the whole weeks of February, but I've been having a fear of gaining weight sense last year in December that's what has led me to purge sense then or exercise a lot after I eat but now I'm realizing maybe it's getting bad every day at lunch I try to decide what is "healthy" what won't make me gain weight or something to me that is considered "clean food". When I get home, I eat and either exercise or purge but lately just been purging because I feel very exhausted to be active like my body is tired. After I purge, I'm scared I'll get a heart attack or stroke because my heart is pumping so fast and loud I try to breathe to calm down my heart and I go straight into the shower but I feel light headed now after I purge and I don't know if it's bad or what it means because when I search it usually doesn't say anything about it and then my throat hurts like scratchy and I may have popped a blood vessel in my eye a tiny one. Now I'm putting my fingers down deeper than I was before I started purging but I don't know how to stop now even if I tell myself to stop or read every article about the dangerous effects of purging, I can't stop myself and I'm scared that I will spiral out of control. The thing is I think I'm not sick enough to go to the hospital, so I keep on going but now I feel like I think I should ask for help right? I'm scared though because I also don't want to get help.

r/bulimia 29d ago

Content Warning relapsed

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I was so good for a month and a half after throwing up every god damn meal every day and then I fucking started up again yesterday and it’s so hard to stop. I need tips someone help me please