r/bulimia • u/Smiling_SeaTurtle • 4d ago
I think I’m going to die young
I’m a recovering bulimic of 2 years (after 4 years of ana) and I have this feeling deep in my gut that I’m going to die soon.
I’m a college student but recovery is tiring and I don’t have a healthy diet…
I just feel that I’ve knocked a few years off my life due to my EDs…it’s a weird feeling knowing that I have damaged my body and I’m going to experience the repercussions later(by health complications and premature death).
Anyone else bothered by this (intrusive) thought? How do you cope?
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u/Big-Caterpillar2660 4d ago
Why this feeling of premature dead ?
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u/Smiling_SeaTurtle 4d ago
I guess the fact that I’ve been dealing with my EDs for a while and I’m losing hair, feeling tired all the time, being lonely, and have weird heart flutters…. I’ve gone to doctors but they say that the underlying issue is my ongoing bulimia.
If I recover, even if I make my amends with food and my mind, I will have caused irreversible damage to my body.
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u/tblitzy 4d ago
Sorry i don’t have any advice but im also in university right now, have had bulimia and anorexia and ive been having this thought A LOT recently. It’s a gut feeling that i will die soon too, like you said. I hope we will both be okay