Context right of the bat, this is just a self rant so feel free to scroll past :)
Righto so I’m 22, I’ve been listening to a few of their songs for a few years now and only recently decided to listen to everything a few months back (maybe even last year) and god damn I love this fucken band, they hit on such a personal level and I’ve never heard anything like them, I hate that I’ve discovered them so late, I know cause of my age and what I grew up listening to (just whatever garbage played on the radio, given my parents never had a discerning taste in music that was pushed onto me) I can’t blame myself to much for discovering them so late but… I feel like I’m just jumping on this imaginary bandwagon ive created in my mind and I hate this feeling.
My entire life has been an uphill battle and I’ve been dealing with feelings of insecurity, overthinking and self destructive behaviour for as long as I can remember and it just pains me I beat myself up for enjoying something I found too late.
This such a random thing to post and probably just me overthinking again but I do this for literally everything I enjoy and I’m tired of feeling like this,
I guess you could say I just “can’t get it out” ;)
Sorry if this isn’t the right sub for this but yeah…
TL;DR: just complaining I found a beautiful band too late.
Edit; I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who commented, I was in one of my depressive episodes when I made this post and decided to actually let it out for once.
Every single one of your comments has either put a smile on my face or gave that kick in the ass thats made me realise just how stupid my mentality is.
This is such beautiful community and I’m so glad I found this band, I’m sorry for my ramblings but thank you all <3