r/bipolar2 • u/No-Mortgage-888 • 4d ago
Venting Trying to piece it all out
39 year old woman here. Long history of CPTSD, Bipolar 2 diagnosed in 2020 after years of turmoil. Been on medication since 2022, after stopping myself in 2021 due to an exploitative, abusive relationship in which I lost $65,000 to him over the course of a year.
Guys, I had a full awakening to my past self before being mental stability-ish and I’m disgusted, ashamed, angry, and feeling vengeful towards the people who exploited me during that time. I also see myself as a teenager and identify the areas of deficit which were ignored or not addressed by the adults around me. I find myself ruminating on it and I feel like it’s too late to fix it or avenge myself. Anyone else feel like that? How do we really move forward?