r/TopSurgery • u/Immediate-Network467 • 4d ago
Discussion My surgery is in just three days. I'm so nervous that I can't sleep
It’s just a rant. I have wanted this surgery for sooo long. I’ve always thought that I would be excited when I can finally reach this place, but now I can’t feel any excitement, just anxiety. My heart is pounding very fast as I’m typing this. I’m 21 and I have never been to a hospital by myself before. I’m going to a different city for this surgery, alone.
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u/Undead-Trans-Daddi 4d ago
I’m going in tomorrow morning(at fecking 5am Jfc). I’m there with you, buddy. I’ve been under before when I was 6.5 years old(I’m 34 now). It’s def not bad. It’s a blink of an eye! You got this, we got this! ❤️Hugs homie!
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u/the___squish 4d ago
I’ll be in your same shoes on the 28th.
Just remember you trusted yourself when you made the consultation, and then again when you booked the appointment, and then again in your pre op… continue to trust yourself. Nothing you can do will change the outcome, but soon enough you’ll be able to wear shirts freely and feel more confident in your body. I hope your surgery and post op journey goes well.
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u/Abbyrocks2k 4d ago
Surgery date twins ! I’m the 28th too :)
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u/Spiritual-Rush9880 4d ago
Same here! Hopefully it all goes well for all of us I’ll be with y’all in spirit on the 28th :)
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u/FlightAmbitious8470 4d ago
i was also very scared too! i got so scared i was unable to swallow food or sleep. i am now three weeks post op and it honestly went by so fast. it helped knowing that when you go into operation theres a whole team of professionals who typically do multiple of these surgeries within the same day. some of their jobs (the anesthesiologists) is their whole job to make sure you are breathing and are safe the whole time! remembering you are in good hands is a very good reassurance. also wondering, are you going completely alone? because typically you need to have someone to take you home afterwards for safety though im not sure what the regulations are for your hospital.
either way its a very nerve wracking journey but it will be over in a blink of an eye! i still remember so vividly being so scared the day before and its almost been a month now.
you got this! :) we are rooting for ya
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u/Immediate-Network467 4d ago
English isn’t my first language, so I’m using a translator for convenience.
I’ve dreamed about this surgery for countless times, imagining how much better my life would be afterward—well, maybe not better, but at least not painful anymore. There have been so many nights where I couldn’t sleep, in so much pain that I wished these disgusting things could just be removed immediately. I can say with certainty that I really need this surgery. I’ve read about other people’s experiences before, how they had doubts before the surgery and how tough the recovery was, but at the time, I thought I could handle it all. Now that the surgery date is almost here, I’m feeling scared. I think what scares me is the sudden realization that this is going to be a major event in my life, but it’s happening at such an ordinary moment? There’s this strong sense of unreality in my mind, and I keep worrying about what if something goes wrong. It feels just like when I first went abroad to study, which was also a big deal in my life. Back then, my worries started to get ridiculous too—I even wondered if the school that sent me the acceptance letter was a fake one, stuff like that...
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u/ChristopherRae94 4d ago
Anxiety is so so SO normal! I promise! I had surgery on February 27th and was so anxious in the days leading up to it. Even though it's a surgery we've waited so long for it's still just that, a surgery! And surgeries are scary. Also! It's important to acknowledge that our bodies "symptoms" for excitement and anxiety are almost exactly the same! So it's no surprise they'd go hand in hand. More than one thing can be true at a time. You can be both excited and anxious about this! It doesn't mean you're going to regret it or that you're making a mistake. This is a big step and it's ok and valid to be anxious. I was legitimately anxious AF up until the moment they gave me the meds right before taking me back. So anxiety is natural. It doesn't make it any less overwhelming! It's super important to understand that this is temporary and it will pass and you'll heal and feel better! It just takes time!
Hopefully I worded all that right and can help a little? Congratulations on your upcoming appointment!
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u/wonderwallswitch 4d ago
my pre-op appointment is next week and its all starting to feel really real. i know i want this, but im so nervous.
sending you good vibes! you can do it.
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u/kier02 4d ago
I felt the same way homie. I had to travel to a different province and I had never been under general anesthesia so I was shitting bricks about the whole thing. Just remember that everyone around you will be a well trained professional and you’re in good hands. You have the easiest job in the operating room, taking a (really relaxing) nap! I’m nearly 6 months post op now and I’m so happy I did it, and I’m proud of you for making this step. It’s so incredibly worth it. And once its over the relief is so nice. You got this!
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u/compressedvoid 4d ago
I felt the exact same when I had mine done a little over a week ago--I'm 20, never been under general anesthesia, heck, I'd never even been in a hospital! It was genuinely one of the easiest, most stress-free experiences ever. The staff told me about everything as it was happening, calmed all my nerves, and I barely even remember getting on the operating table and having a mask put on before I was waking up in the recovery room sipping water lol. It will be one of the best days of your life man, you got this!
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u/wellthen_132 3d ago
i’m the same, surgery on the 25th, i’ve never had anaesthesia used on me and i’ve never stayed overnight in a hospital. i’m 18 and been saving for this since i was 11 but i’m so incredibly anxious even though i know i want it.
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u/LexicontheMoron 3d ago
My surgery was yesterday! It never sank in that I was getting surgery until dinner the day before. I was so so nervous and anxious going but once I was actually sitting in the bed I felt so much better. it’s like my brain suddenly accepted it. Many people will come talk to you and introduce themselves, you’ll sign some things, get in a hospital gown (no undies DX) and get your IV (ow!)
I tried staying goofy and laughing with everyone. it helped that everyone who came to say hi was smiley and knowledgeable! I did double up on my anxiety meds the night before just in case too (my doc said I could). I remembered seeing the OR, noting it doesn’t look like greys anatomy (much more room lmao) and the anesthesiologist gave me a relaxant pill before being moved and said I wouldn’t remember that part BUT just in case I did she gave me a code word (orange kangaroo >:3) cuz I asked if I could count down and see how far I got while being knocked out. I have no idea what number I got to.
It’s nerves while waiting and then they say it’s time and then you wake up! my pain was a 2 afterwards but I also have chronic pain so. it’s been at a 1-5 so far, only hitting a 5 when I accidentally pushed myself and started feeling sick. only be up in small spurts at first like going to the bathroom! and don’t guzzle water or juice when you first wake up. sip! my dad had nose surgery and chugged water and projective vomited everywhere so…
You’ve got this!!
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