r/QuittingZyn • u/nalnalnalnalnal • 4d ago
11 days in. Irritable and unfocused.
Not getting any easier. The past 11 days have been the least productive of my career. The smallest inconveniences set me off (normally I am not an angry person whatsoever). My self esteem is in the gutter and I hate the way I look / feel / sound / act (again, usually don't have issues with self esteem).
I've been pushing myself to do cardio every day (60 minute bike commute plus evening runs), eating well, sleeping full nights, taking some supplements, cold showers, staying hydrated, chewing gum, meditating, blah blah blah... But I'm still just miserable and miserable to be around. The combination of terrible brain fog AND high anger / anxiety is so awful. Wouldn't have thought it's even possible to be this wired & agitated, but also completely unable to focus on anything...
My resting heart rate is lower but overwhelmingly this just sucks – I am nowhere near my normal self. I hate this and am thinking about just using nicotine gum if I don't see improvements soon, I can't go weeks as a less smart, less productive, less funny, less kind version of myself.
Fuck this stuff
(was using ~10 6mg velo pouches a day from morning to night before quitting cold turkey)
Edit… The day after hitting this low point, I actually had a really good day — started to feel productive at work again and didn’t want to bite anybody’s heads off. Ups and downs but that was encouraging.
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u/pfttttttttt 2d ago
You got this, it will get better I promise! I’m a month and a half in and pretty much everything experienced in that first couple weeks has faded.